Wednesday, April 30, 2008 '

Jainee's Favourite

OMFGGG!!! SYGG IS ONLINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was sooooooooooo happpy!! wanted to go to bed but then i couldnt!!! omgggg i love him cannnn! sooo happppyy!!! bwhahahah!!! love you heaps!

Ida is talking to me rightt nowww! and she said am i over-reacting?! i think sooo tooo! but i cant help it, the people surrounding me is adding their comments into my head and make me confused.. i dont wanna be like that, i am totally not that kind of person, usually i am cool with those stuffs, but now i am OUT OF CONTROL! ida thinks it my puberty causing me to be like that.. i think so too! :(

WOOT! first thought when i woke up, check the alarm clock. SHIT i am lateeeeeee for sch it's 10.18 by the time i reach sch will be like 12? so whats the point of going then since i am soo latee for school.. lie around for an hour thinking about lotsaa of stuff, what if blahh blahh blahh, then blah blah blah.. *Punch my face*

I dont feel anything bad gonna happen leh. instead i have this positive thinking.. which is goood right?? what if there is really something wrong what can i do? cry?? IFF*hope it never happen* its really silent break then i guess studyying hard is my next step then.. and to get over things.

there's this malay fortune teller, he is SO TRUE MAN! just by cuttin the limes he can tell you everything.. he said i cant be with dark skin people.. our relationship or blah blah will be badd.. if i really wanna date malay, its javaness people.. BUT i love black people,*some only* they are soo funny and fun to be with and mostly malay are sooo attractive can, their eyes.. ahhh~~ Like IDAA'S eye so big and scary at times but so cute lahh.. i still remember my first crush was malay! hhahahah.. my exs are malay my bf is malay. how i wish i am a malay, but if i changed into malay then i have to sacrifices alot of things uh, no drinking, no pork, must pray? i dont mind not having them or to do it. The most happy thing is to be with your loved ones right?? maybe i am still tooo young to say this kinda things.. maybe when i grow older, then see how things go thenn..



OHHH last night, my syg*ida* tried to change my blog skin she said it was tooo DULL, i dont know how to change this kinds of blog thingy.. And ida help me do this pic : *his face very dark uh,BUT still cute.. :)*



Went out to buy some food and bought stocking, its soooo euffing cold in the morning! Bought KFC for dinner, dad cooked some fried rice.. YUM YUM... havent ate for the whole day only drank "Boost" im not sure if spore have the "Boost" it a smooothie healthy drink stall. If they have it get "Jainee's Favourite" *MY FAVOURITEE* or "Mango tea Martar" * CONNIE' S FAVOURITE* i think thats how you spell it.

Miss HIM truck loads. :(

Labels: sadd

Tuesday, April 29, 2008 '

Longing for You

what a day. slept for only 1 hour then go to school already, was rushing my english draft end up teacher say send to her also can.. shouldve't take my own time uh. now that its done i guess i am more relax, in a way.. didnt do my nails today, keep falling asleep on the bus and train..
Reach the city, went to buy stuffs , on my way to the train station got 2 girls ask me what sch i am from then ask me if i wanna be their friends. i was like EH?, so weird ok!

Reach home and eat smack my lappy and its on! haahha..
Sister had a talk with me so did bTaz.. they think hafiz is having a silence breakup with me.. i dont want a silence breakup uh! i dont want this to happen ok! i am sooo scared and confused felt like cryingg. i ask bTaz if i should write a long letter then pass to the person that knows hafiz. i wish that his lappy is down so that he couldnt use it, thats why he never go online. hopefully is that reason uh.. my heart is like breakingg sia.. i feel horrible right now, lack of sleep, stress on my english& worry about hafiz and me. feeel like i am gonna break down for the very first timee.

My feelings right now are, scared, confused, like i am gonna faint soon, miss him like hell.. just online sooon or msg mee "i love you" i also happy can. :(

But i do have trust and confidence that he's just busy, maybe the people around me just make me confused. but i know you all care for me. i think i shouold just wait another week or 2 to see how things go..

Labels: where did you go

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Hmmm

LATE NIGHT UPDATEEEE~
i feel so like damn HAPPPY CAN~~ cause this guy just added me in friendster happens to be in Temasek poly in the Engineering block! which is same as HAFIZ*syg*! and he told me that his friend find hafiz CUTE! LOLS! my syg is CUTEEE like like like MEE~~ hahahahahha...

And was compliment by my sister. We were talking about leg. then i ask her is mine a nice leg? funny i knw. she wouldnt tell me! i asked if its bad or good then she said "since when i wont say bad stuff straight away?!" SOO its something good. then i said "tell me uh at least i dont have to look into the mirror every morning thinking my leg is fat or big.." Then then she said" you have good leg, i just dont wanna tell you ok!" SOoOoOo HAPPPY~! but then would be even more happy to share it with syg. :) waiting for you to go online! muacks!

Today woke up.. get ready, all set to go and guess what? I CANT FIND MY SCHOOL SHOESS!!!
I search everywhere but i just cant find it!!! weird kan? then i just went back to bed... lie around for like an hour then can sleep.. thinking about HIM wondering where the f*** he is la seriously...
Woke up around 12 ish, surf the net till like 4 plus then get ready and went to the city and meet my second sister.. Then i saw BRATT!!! the guy who i used to work there with but he works at the bar i work at the rest. miss him loads can! he is sucha a funny guy and fun lor! at least better then the one right now sooo LAZY one!!!
Went to the chinese rest and eat with my sister friend, Kuini and her sister too.. I dont quite like kuini's sister sshe kinda like i dunno how to explain just dont like her la!
Alicia msg me and said " Its her Bday tomoro, remember to get her a lollypop and a nice bday card and have to accompany her the whole day cause i havent hang out with her for AGESS! i miss her and she miss me too :) *i think so* hahahahha..
Connie was kinda rude sometimes.. cause i was standing between her and winnie then when she was talking to her i was sorta in her way? and she push my head away and hard! she finds it funny?! i find that EXTREMELYY RUDEE! then she like half hugged me.. i was really annoyed!
My bday present to alicia is, i am gonna buy all kinds of lollypop flavour for her and a nice card, and tomorow me and connie will get her a " Juicy Coutour" bag. so good right cause she have been nice and helpful toward us.. so maybe she deserve a present like that from us. :)
These day just cant get my hand off my lappy.. :( i should ban myself from using it!
Oh didnt get my nails done today doing it tomorow after sch..! will take a picture of it.:)

Labels: Happy Bday Alicia

Sunday, April 27, 2008 '

SAD HOPELESS STUPID

UPDATEDDDDDD!!!
Aiyo i cant concentrate on my freaking englishhh draft, and its due tomorrow!! i havent even started! maybe only like 2 LINESS!! *slap my face hard2, OUCHH!* I told kakak about hafiz didnt online for 2 weeks then i told her what i think, maybe he knows new girls at chalet then she said "maybe he's busy with his new gf right now" GOSH SHARPPP ARROW JUST SHOT MY HEART.. *faintt* i realise that now i have type all this and when i grow up become more mature, read back what i have type i will feel extremely stupid. but this is how i feels, like most parents alway say" WE ARE TOO YOUNG TO HAVE A BF." its ok for a guy to have a gf cause their mentally stronger then girls. sighhh.. thinking of skipping english tomorrow.. goshhhh i am soo hopeless... And i should be going to bed RIGHT NOW! if not tomoro cannot wake up again, BIG EYEBAG! *Miss talking to him man!* ;(

SIALA..
shanie super duper sad OK! Heres the story:
I was thinking about hafiz alot, so i ask taufiq, his advice is that i go and ask his friend where he is uh.. well i did i msg "Anthea" hafiz sorta best girl friend.. Then i check friendster just now, no new msg, but i see the " Viewed" thingy in friendster, she viewed me back WITHOUT replying my msg! WALAO... If you dont wanna tell me at least reply me like" oh sorry i dont know what happen to him".. something like that uh.. why ignore sia! CB! i was furious when i saw she viewed me without replying my msg..

Then chatted with SYAFIQ about it.. starting to have negative thoughts. which is totally not a good thing which means i wont be able to concentrate on my studies. F*** la!
Cause after he went to the pasir ris chalet he never online anymoreeee!! i was thinking maybe he saw new girls at chalet so he decided to dumped me. :( I've this feeling to give up already..
I am sorta like in Sulastri situation as she told me that zarrin was ignoring her. well at least she live in the same country as him, can msg him & can call him..

Isnt it weird that your ex current gf is talking to you about your ex, and what happen between the both of them?? Like i need to know?! but maybe she needs someone to talk to, and know more about him.. Find out yourself uh, i found out myself when i first know him and get together with him.. i have my own problems already with my bf, i dont need more un-necessary problem to be involve in my life! ARGHHH!

And these few days i feel like i am talking to myself even thou there is "Syafiq, taufiq2, Nas & Kris " to talk to me, but i still want a real life person to talk to... like my sister, she is too busy with guys and her baby, no time for me anymore.. and hafiz is gonee.. but its ok i still have KRIS to talk to.. but i still need LOVE ok!

Oh my sister make a deal with me today, i was talking about those branded sale to her when i was back then in spore. then i said mum was gonna get me this "Guess" luggage bag but then i felt guilty and i told her i dont want it anymore and left.. then she make this deal, the deal is:

*REQUIRE an A IN MY MATH*

• Guess bag and a Guess luggage bag.
• The Louis Vuitton Noe bag that i wan.

Well i chose the LV one cause i already have a Guess bag. Luggage bag..hmm not like i alway need a big bag.. beside i will use the LV more often if i got that one. So must work EUFFING HARD lor this term, i go do Math A easier like that get an A easier BWHAHAHA..

And i am getting my nails done tomorrow, connie gonna pay for it she was in a happy mood and said " shanie tomorrow go do medicure i pay." SHIOK, doing the gel french manicure.. $80 EXPENSIVE leh.. well she's gonna pay for it so ok uh.. Gel one can last for months and it cost around$100 plus in spore to do it.. cause its still new to spore.. so exciting but i loook so down in real life.

Note to self: SHANIE YOU'RE HOPELESS! NO WONDER YOUR BF LEFT YOU WITHOUT TELLING YOU! STILL WANNA BE AN ARCHITECTURE?! HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO BE AN ARCHITECTURE WHEN YOU DONT EVEN WORK HARD! HOW TO GET INTO UNI! YOU ARE ONE BDH KID!!!!!

Saturday, April 26, 2008 '

Its Him.

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Addiction.

Today woke up quite late.. 12 plus! Its public holis, Anzac Day. Boring~ the whole night was kicking the cat away from me.. lie on my leg, so irratating! hmm.. ate mee goreng , 2 choco cookie 2 white choco cookie for lunch. yum yum!! then went to work, Jam! cause of the footy game. Broncos VS "dunno what team". late for work.. but never mind my boss are nice people.
Work wasnt busy, cause of the game, onnly grannys and the regular costumer came.. dinner was SUPBERBBBB!!! the fish was AHHHH~~! soo damn delicious can! my boss make it SPICY TOO! DOUBLE BONUS!! I LOVE SPICY FOOOD CAN!

Hmm.. i need my drug myy lolliee! :( without "it" i will die.. my addiction. you know what i mean, IF youre clever enough.. :)

I wonder who reads my blog. Leave your name on the taggyboard alright! :D

Its sad when my dad comes home, then me and my sister stay in the computer room, i used my lappy she use hers then dad is alone. feel reallly bad about it but i dont know what to talk to him about.. Any advice ppl? :( I hope mum would come here soon.. apparently connie said "mum is coming during Dec.." soo when we go back spore we got a place to stay, then after we go back *aust* we rent the house out for a year then when the time we go back *spore*we can live in our own hse again..

Where did you go? :( is yr lappy down? or cause of sch start?. its actually good that we arent talking for 2 weeks cause in that case i can know my feelings toward him. and my feelings toward him is undescribable. :D miss you truck loads!

Friday, April 25, 2008 '

BORING DAY

Thursday, April 24, 2008 '

Accident Happens

Today skipped home ecnomic, no mood to attend and i didnt do hmwk. before i got to sch i caught the 385 bus, gosh! so many indians! they talk so loud and the indian ascent is sooo annoyinggg!
During lunch, have a little secrets talk with james, didnt expect he will tell my sister some parts of it cause winnie came to me bombarted with questions.
During graphic i got bitten by an ant twice on my right butt! DAMN it hurts like a bitch! :s

Went out with family today dine in at this chinese rest. and when we are on the way to carpark we were at the traffic lights there and suddenly we heard this " BANG BONG" sound, we turned around and saw a lady collapsed on the escalator her body and head were twisted to the right, her kids were screaming and crying. its sooo scary! everyone just crowded around her and someone try to touch her but the security guard stop that person from doing that. so scary can. connie thinks that she wont be alive. cause she fell from the top of the escalator to the botton of the escalator! not long after the ambulance came.

Dad missed out on the exit to Ipswich and we have to go straight to the next exit and it was sooo scary cause it's all dark and eerie and we have to drive through this bridge, man i hate that bridge soo unusual! we left the city at 8.40 went back at to the city at 10.40 cause we have to exit and its the only way back to Brisbane then back to Ipswich. reach home around 11.15pm soooo tired!! YAWNNN! I am so tired right now and had a glass of wine too. so i might fall asleeeeep anytime.
OHHHH and and and i am not going to school tomorrow! cause its cross country and friday is Anzac day which is public holis! yay! going out with Marcelle that crazy bitch tomorrow to the city! might take some photos with her, might not cause of my ugly childish hair! :( i look sooo died in the previous picture i post.
DAMNNN what happened to hafiz how come never online, i guess there's problem with his lappy. finally downloaded Itunes into my lappy. currently favouite song is " Sexy can I - Ray J".

Labels: shawty get loose

Tuesday, April 22, 2008 '

Emotion baby.

It have been a hectic for the past weeks.. moving house.

I love moving house its just the packing and unpacking part i hate, the best best part is when you get to move into a whole new environment. LOVEIT! even though we havent found a house yet but currently living at my dad's friend place. It takes 1 hour train ride to city and 30 mins from city to my school. so i wake up around 6am catch the 6.47 train.. he offered his whole hse to us for they stay till we found a hse. isnt he a nice guy? he's phillipino, his cousin, Jude *he was born in aust* , he is euffing funny! he's pretty big size but he is same as me, scare of the dark! HAHAHHA! and when i sleep alone i dont close the door, and he doesnt close the door either! And yea that happens during my holisdays which is only 1 week and 2 days! Time pass sooo FAST can! one blink and sch reopen new semster.. :s



I dislike my job at the moment as a waitress.. not my type i guess.. i wanna work at Target or Big W.. Like packing, arranging stuffs soo much better then taking ppls order.. seriously! But i dont knw how to tell my boss leh.. cause they are soo nice to me but i just doesnt like working there maybe i will help them out when i have no shifts on friday IF i get the job at Target or Big W. my friend Alex will be applying with me to save money together so when august if i save till like $3000 then i go taiwan.. IF la.. $3000 no easy $300 yeh! haahhaha..



Oh yea.. Giselle shit on me.. i felt something slimy and wet and i look down and saw giselle shit is all over my cardigan. SO DISGUSTING CAN! i told my sister take a picture it last longer then i open the diaper and took a deep breath didnt expect to be that smelly! then i ran straight to the toilet and vomit after my sister took the picture! soo ewww! and she grew bigger again..



And i fall off the bed the other day.. reason is because me, winnie and kuini were sleeping in one bed and i like to wrap myself with my blanket then when i tried to turn to move in alittle bit but i was stuck with my blanky, the next second i was on the floor.. everyone woke up and start laughing reallly loudly! so pain thank god my lappy wasnt on the floor if not FINISH!



Oh and one more thing, EMOTION. i felt really left out with my sister now, cause i used to be really close with connie but now she is kinda close to winnie again. and winnie is being a bitch to me nowaday. i dunno i went and sat on the floor and tears start rolling down my cheek. i dunno why and my friends, the international ones, i used to alway hang out with her* but now me and her* isnt that close anymore and we hardly hang out. i know that she have more friends now, maybe she prefer her new friends then me. was realy sad about it. feels lonely sometimes during lunch time.. :( and i am not close to alicia anymore maybe because she have a bf she is alway with relish? maybe.. but i am really close to marcelle now, at first i thought her name was " myself" ! hahahah!!!



AND AND AND last night 21st April i had a hair cut and dyed my hair. its a BIG CHANGE! lotsa of different comments from my friends.. some say : looks cute, look nice, look innocent and not mature anymore. look like 12 not 17.. LOLS.. connie cuts my hair at night and it was too dark cause we went outside and cut and my fringe wasnt straight and i didnt realise that this morning and when i reach sch my friends was laughing at me it hurts my feeeling and i breakdown. now i knw her* feeling when they were telling her constantly about how her hair style doesnt suits her. GUYS are such an ass sometimes.. and why are girls so SENSITIVE! arghhh!!!!

Oh and about my art i got an A for my practical. and was chosen by other Art teacher to display it in the library i think its five student include me in my class got chosen only. really happy about it, but cant seem to be smilling lately. :s

a preview of my hair, not the best photo but just took it to put it up.. ignore the eyebag. i think i like my previous fringe better or maybe i should wait for it to grow longer abit. whatever!