Il est juste TOI et MOI :)

2009-07-11T22:50:00.003+10:00

Hello!

I had fun at work today.. and macdonald's suddenly blackout and we get free money without working for 15 mins ! heheheh! :D thank god it was after my break. Too bad eric was on break and he didnt get paid! hahaha. I worked at Kiosk *ice cream shop that belongs to Mcdonalds.* , front counter and back area *doing burgers* today. 3 in 1 package. :D hehehhe.

RYAN , i don't like you. realllyyy :)

Sister came back from New Zealand , loaaadddsss of chocolates! and sour pruneees! And she bought a mangosteen for $2.00 eachh!! -.- she actually can bear to buy it when its sooo freaking expensive !

Reached homee..

My feeelings now is just ... angry, sad, annoyed and aarrggghhhhhhhhhhh.!!!!!!!
Please stop assuminggg. And yes, its my attitude ok! ok!!

HAVE FUN ! *didnt mean it in a nice way*

untittled.

2009-07-07T17:22:00.003+10:00

H E L L O O O O . . . ..

I went to Gold Coast on monday! and did quite abit of shoppinggg. :D

guess what?

; i got a 2 pair of VANS shoes for only 12 BUCKS EACH! OMGOSHHH !!!
; got a black pair for Jab. *oringinal price was $99.95* and a Checked one for myselff. *oringinal price was $89.95*
; a wool knitted grey dress. 10 BUCKS
; brown belt for 5.95 DOLLAR. *oringinal price was $19.95*

Yeah, i think thats it. so worth it right! i couldnt believe when i saw the shoes were only for like $12 each ! Mum thinks the black one looks nice. looked expensive and mine was just normal.. :(

i think i spend the most out of everyone . Let calculate..

bus ticket to gold coast ; $17.30
lunch ; $5.45
dress + shoes + belt ; $39.95

TOTAL = $62.70

Actually its not that bad ehh. I haven even go to the other factory outlet if not i would've spend moree.. Im so broke noww.. :(

Photos of the VANS shoes.

Jab's :D its like theres holes. not just plain black.

Side view.

mine is not black, its brown. with orange and white lines.

One facts : Im 1 size bigger than Jab. :
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And yesterday i had a hair cut and it cost me $60 . my hair now looks better i guess? layered and thinner. :D Connie paid for it. Went to Jason's place with alex too. stayed till 8.50 pm .. Chatted on the phone with Jabb. :D he made a song for me not yet sooon it will be complete.

And work was ok i guess , beside that i burnt my right arm. weird moood. hungry and didnt had a good sleeeep. :)

Ok la.. really got nothing to blog about actually. just the gold coast trip and yeahh.

OHH OH. And jab's dad got him the LIVERPOOL ticket !! i wish i could goo with you.

2009-06-21T16:00:00.003+10:00

helllo.

It has beeen awhile since i last blogged.

well now im back in australia. yay! *sarcasm*

Well just gonna update my status now. Not going to school this year , repeating next year. :( Well, apparently i got kicked out of school and i have to enrol into the shit hole school again next year. Was kinda dissapointed in myself for some reasons. Plus the deputy didnt know where i were thats why he cancelled me out. Abit annoyed at it. My friends told the other Deputy but they didnt pass the information around. Arghh. thinking about it makes me boil.

Oh and work yesterday didnt went so well for me. Worked half day and went home. Was feeeling sick and sad(?). And Rasty kinda guessed it right. i think that maybe one of the reason too. hmm. And i served a really irritating stupid unsensible teenagers yesterday.

First she said she wants a Large red(?) fanta. and Frozen Raspberry is red and theres large. I repeated and she said yeahh. So of course i served her that uh. Plus Large soft drink price are the same as the Frozen ones.

Then she was like thanks, turned around turn back and said oh i wanted a Large fanta not a Frozen one. AND since the prices are the same so no refund or anything just do another Large fanta for her la. BUT she also wants the Frozen Raspberry she kinda just assumed that i was gonna chuck it out but we usually take it or give it to anyone who wants it there. And she argued with me with really stupid question .

Customer : can i have that frozen raspberry?
me : No?
customer: whyy? *annoyed*
me: well i gave you the fanta you ordered. Plus you didnt pay for the frozen raspberry.
customer: arghh.. *walking away shouting* " youre just gonna chucked it out anyway .

Greedyyy, brainless and annoying customer.!

WHO SAID I WAS GONNA!?!? i gave it to Jess. stupid blonde.!

On my break i feel like shitt~ and i tears just start rolling down my cheeks? and Jess saw me and she told Lauren , and she asked if i wants to go home early. I told kuini and winnie before work that i was feeling sick. so went home.

Oh and i need a hair cut. long fringe :( I think im gonna keep my fringe short and long hair. Im going to cut it tomorroww. :) By kevin. Abit scary cause he is still learning to cut ppls hair. :

Im tired wanting to sleeep and sleeep and sleeeep. Mum half awake half sleep on the couch.. I think its because of the cold weather plus it just rained.

Shaik Fuad, things arent gonna be the same without you by my side. guess we have to endure and wish for the best. :) study hard to A's alright. And i will work hard. :) looking forward to meet you again. sweet memories of us will always be in my mind.

love you jab. miss you loads too. takecare.
*do eat but don eat too much at night* :D

iyaaa, i miss you! just miss the times when i was at your macdonald tonning. and you being "part of" macdonald too. hahahah. nice shirt you have there. :D All the talks . And yes when i go back spore. only the both of us should go somewhere far.! like you mention it that we didnt get to do that before. haiyaaa. i dont know la i miss the times. hahahh.

takecare and don stress to much on your schoolworks. i know you can do it. just relax abit sometimes ok. and i bet Adnand would love to accompany you.. hahahah.
Love you. <3

this is quite some time ago. but im just dissapointed in both of us. That we didnt make any effort. you might think i didnt. but you should know yourself the best. and talking to you is not like how we used to be. just cold and formalish kind. you started that way of talking so i guess i cant change it right. thought things gonna be different. but you still thinks that i dont care and i changed. well good luck to you, guess youre too busy with your new friends and bestfriend now. i doubt that youre gonna be reading my post. but i just wanna let it out. but i will still miss you. im not sure if you would or not.

2009-02-02T03:27:00.005+10:00

HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY, JAB.!

Happy anniversary b!. Even though its only 1 month but im looking forward in celebrating anniversary in years with you instead of months.. :D i love you and i had lotsa of fun at Wild Wild Wet today. Especially the Lazy Pool & The U - shaped Slide. And i wish i could fufil your wishes, but i cant i wish i could really but i guess its like what you've alway said "Its a Blessing In Disguise." :)

Im happy that he like the gift that i made + bought for him. Its a frame and have photos collage together and with tags on it. But of course with my bestfriend help as well, IDAAAAAA. :D Thanks Bitch!

And his friends finds it veryy sweeeet.! Honestly, i like it alot too myself. hahaha.

thicked skin bitch.

Its Just ME & Him.

2009-01-15T14:59:00.007+10:00

HELLO. :D

Posting PICTURES of ME & Him.

Not interested??

Than you can leave now.. BYEEE! :)

Hung out at Paris Park for the first time in the Afternoon and alone together. :D

31st Dec!! He came over to my place, after that went to Bedok corner to ida's family stall and have dinner and went to town to countdown. :D

I had alittle of alchol, and my face will be blushing red, i guess its good blood circulation? lols. -.-

Me, Jab, Tot ( left to right)
(Infront of Jab) An and Dani.

This picture was taken at my placee. :D

Me, Jab and An.

Outing with Nas and Insyirah. Both of his besties at Millenia Institute. Off to Dhoby Ghaut for movies.

Note: Not the Best pictures. But thats all i've got for that day. :((

And I dont have any picture of Nas and insyirahh!! :O

(He looks cute yet i look bad :(. )

( Gosh, i look so fat and tired. EWW)

OK! Thats all for now. Im fatigue from swimming and lack of my beauty sleeeeep. :(

Post more tomorrow or someday this week. :D

Night Night Peeps!

HALF UPDATES.

2009-01-07T02:39:00.002+10:00

Mondayyy.

Went to Bukit Batok to meet my baby after his soccer at school. And hund out with his friends. I finally met his Millenia Insitutude(?) bestfriend, Syirah Ultra cute girl! Had lunch and headed home with jab and met up his friends at Dobly Ghaut.

Went to KFC for dinner, baby treats.! Movie after that baby treats as well, watched Seven Pounds. Well at first i didnt get it and till the end i did. But Jab didnt we explained and he acted like he knew what was happening before we explain. -.-

Next went to Esplanade, to meet Syirahh boyfriendd, Dancerr. We sat around the dancer, not watching them but gamblingg. -.- 10cent for every bets for 21 points. i started with 30 cents and ended with 1dollar 80 cents. :D

OH OH OH!!! His friend Nas say Jab and I looks good together. :D

UPDATE MORE LATERR. OFF TO SHOWER AND MEEET JABBBB.

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2009-01-01T17:32:00.003+10:00

hellooos!!!

Happy New Yearr!!!!!!

Love 010109! The reason is that Jab asked me to be his Girlfriend, with his friends as witnesses and video-ed. And it was the first time i said ILY to him on 12.20am. :D

I wasnt assure of my feelings before for him the past few days. And as days pass the feelings in grows and i misses more and more. And i realised i actually no longer like him but love. The feelings i had was totally different to the one i had toward Roy. This was even better, it was real.

Good thing was he lost the bet we had. He felt in love with me first. And i also wanted a guy who like me more than i like him. hees! yay-ness.

Oh, i was off last night. I vomitted it was grosss. cause of the alchol(?). But weird thing is when i tispy/drunk, my mind is fucking clear so people minds wont be clear at all. I think i gulp down my drinks too fast but i was thirsty. :( hahhaha.

The good new had so far passed on to kris, my second sister and jab's friends who were theree.

B, iloveyou. thank you for looking after me when i was off, and not taking any advantage. LOLS. <3

Its killing me inside slowly...

2008-12-21T12:11:00.003+10:00

Brand new morning,

Magazine said that you should SMILE everytime we woke up, so we will have more of a positive reaction for the rest of the day.

But i just couldnt do it. For some reason, i feel the sour-ish feeeling inside me. It's horrible it makes me wanna cry out loud but its something i cant do anything about it. It felt horrible, of course.

You know what. I knw this is gonna sounds really stupid and really cheena for those who knws me well they knw that i will never say this kinda things.
I do want a boyfriend, but a boyfriend that i like and i feels comfortable around with. Its hard to find what im loooking for in Australia. And those that i wanted are always in Spore. Is it that hard to have a relationship that requires the basic needs in every relationship? I guess for me it is. Cause i never found one like that.

I want a double date. cause i wanna have a double date with my besties. they all kinda have a partner now sorta on the way.

Fad - Zaded
Iya - Wan
Ida - Ridzuan

And me = nothing. i thought i was gonna have something but i guess not. And they are going countdown with those guys. I knw fad ask me to join them, but i just wanna see if he willl ask me to the Countdown which hopefully he will. I can only hope for the best now.

I wanna cry out loud but i simply just cant. And its killing me. ...

Chalet this afternoon, not even enthusiastic about it. Family and friends will be theereee. Woohooo cant wait *sarcasm*

I just dont understand you.

Finshed reading Twilight. Gonna buy the second one New Moon. Im so addicted to it now. I wanna watch the movie. Might watch it alone.

Update more laterr.

2008-12-16T15:56:00.000+10:00

woohoo!

Actually plan to go to town alonee. But sulastri called at then very last minute so we went together. :D

Walked around Far East, trying to find the particular clothes that i wanted to get. I really HATE GUY CLOTHES! Cause they are so DARN PRETTY and girls one are just nahhh~ How i wish i were a guy sometimes. But i still love some of the GUY species.!!

OH on the way to bugis, i saw my friend's friend, AARON! I bumped him and he stared at my friend but he didnt see me. SO when i got into the MRT i bump him harder then he stared at me, blur blur and was like OH HEYYY!!! OMGAHH so funny. And i chatted with him. Then got off at CityHall we got into the same entrance, then we chatted and GUESS WHAT?! I DIDNT F**KING KNW HE LIVE SO NEAR TO ME! We chatted and chatted and totally forgotten to get off at Bugis thought i was going to Tamp. hahahah. then sulastri say SHANIE THIS STOPPP EHHH! Then the goodbye suck i just say "SHIT, BYEEE!" hahahah.

Then at Bugis, finally there is the one and only short that got what i wanted! GOT IT! :D so happy, shopped around for sulastri belts.

Went to bugis, saw Chu Xian at her working place, like those little hut that sell stuffs. Then went to the SWENSEN just because of my lovely AZHARR aka BAPOKKK!!!!!!! then i had ice cream there with sulastri, my treat :)
And also saw one of my primary sch friend as well, i dont knw her name :

Went in to SWENSEN i stared at Azhar then he was like OMGAHHH!! hahah then we chatted SUPER LOUD!!!! And he wanted to hug i say, "EH YOU WORK CAN HUG CUSTOMERS?" then he say “CAN LA CAN LA". We had the most retarded hug, worst then the one back in australia with Alric.

Then got a cute mly guy, well to my friend he is Gorgeous la. Then i ask my friend to intro to us uhh. More like to her. I swear she blush whenever she walked pass cause i laughed at her!! Im gonna ask for his no. from my friend and pass it to her, even thou she insist she doesnt want it. And i still SERIOUSLY find azhar DAMN FUNNY LOR. MISS YOU SIA, AZHARRR!!! I think so does Sulastri.

Azhar = Dancer, Singer, Lamer and Entertainment. You knw what Sulastri saidd, " If he werent that bapok, confirm got lotsa of girl go for him seyy.!!!"

Oh ROY, if you're reading this. I want you to contact me. I got something to say to you. And PLEASEEE be free this SUNDAY (21st Dec) or Mon (22nd Dec), even thou i knw it's your "family day" on Sun but hopefully you're free on Mon? Thank you LOVEY <3 ANd i miss you DARN LOADS. There are words i wanna say it in your face. :)

Ok CAMWHOREEED. PICTURES!!!!!

Hmm for some reason it’s not working. Upload tomorrow aights peeps! :D

r.a

2008-12-12T15:30:00.005+10:00

How i wish i can stop time.

And have more time spending with you; No obstacles; No worries.
Just me & you enjoying our sweetest moments.

How i wish i can study in spore.

AND YOU ARE DEFINATELY NOT CUTTTING THE QUEUE, SILLLYYY.

My Super hawt ROCKSTAR.

RANTING TIME.

2008-12-10T19:02:00.006+10:00

OH MY!

Why cant my day just get any better!?!

Connie's phone cant use it in spore cause she didnt auto-roam(?) it before coming to spore. So she wants to use my phone. Its cool with me. But sometimes i do get abit annoyed not like she dont get annoyed when i use her phone to msg!?

I swear i activate my free-incoming already. And her bf, Corey always call my phone i do understand that he misses her alot but i dont mind. but i just dont like it when people borrows my phone and read my incoming msg-es that my friend sent or just hold on to it like it belongs to yours! THAT IS JUST FCUKING ANNOYING!

For some reason my credit is all GONE!. And it happened when connie was chatting happily away with corey on the phone all the way from australia. I think i do have the rights to get mad or pissed off ?!

Of course i showed my black face! Guess what? She said ' i'm so stressed using shanie's phone. i think i should really get a phone asap.' YOU BETTER! Its not like i dont lend you my phone or anything and she really likes to complain to corey that i dont like her using my phonee. If i dont then you wont see me lending you my phone, damnit!

I just find it ridiculous that i cant be mad and she can when she used up all my credits?! LIKE SERIOUSLY FCUK LA!

And Of course ranting this shit to my mum wont help me at all. Afterall, she favours connie the most. So what's the point of really telling them stuffs when im angry/sad/down/stress. Its just useless. . .. ..

2 days ago. . ..

We had dinner at pasir ris. Mum were chatting happily with connie, as usual. And i told connie that Ida find her photos before pregnant are gorgeous but unfortunately they didnt heard the part when i say, ida said so.

So they asked me twice who said so, i was gonna finish my story then tell them BUT NO, they have to interupt and yell at me when i am fishing praising her! OHGOSH!

But the thing was, I WASNT EVEN ANGRY?! but they just have to say that im angry cause usually this kind of incidents i would but i wasnt that day. But mum just had to continues blabbinggg and blabbbingggggg! So i sat there and drink my Grass Jelly uh. Even connie had to ask mum to shushh.

Suddenly i do not knw only god knows came to mum talking about her really doesnt want to go to australia. And she said ' i really dont wanna go. Go to aust for what to see her faces' CBB! obviously she was refering to me. And i cant remember what we were saying and

I said ' duhh, of course i knw who you were refering to when you say to see her faces. No doubt that is not me'
Then she say ' its not just you , its all THREE of you'
I said ' You're just like daddy, whenever you say one of us you just have to involved the rest of the two down as well. you're no different to daddy.'

So connie added on to it. Guess mum couldnt take the pressure like how they were against me just before the feeeling! And she burst out crying?! Like seriously COME ON LA. Its really expected ok. She have to do that at least once everytime we come back.
And she said ' i never cried after i sent you all to the airport' MEANING we make her cry when we are in spore.
Plus she also said ' You guys never make me happy when you're back in spore, you do know you guys only comes back once in a yearr?? '
And she also added that ' I just quarrelled with someone else today and i already cried the whole day i really dont wanna talk and argue about this'

Winnie and kuini just sat there pretends nothing happened. At least they are smart they knew that if they were to speak they will be involved and be blame as well.

In the end mum said pay the bill and go. No No No, We have to find out whose fault and who to blame to. And the VICTIM IS ......

*DRUMM ROLLINGGGGGG *

ITS MEEE!!!! YAYNESS!!! I've been awarded, 'Making mum cried at dinner'. *APPLAUSE* ..

abt shanie foo

2008-12-09T03:07:00.007+10:00

hellloooooo people ~
k firstly this is not shanie .
i'm idaa, shanie close gf.

she doesn't noe i'm in her blog but i just feel i wanna type abt her this nyte/morning (:

firstly i wanna talk hw i start conversation wif her for e first time.
we were in e same pri school but we classmate when we're p5.
but wasnt close to her cos she very bery merry e ceenaas + very fierce. haha
she never smile one sia. -.-

bt when came to pri 6, we had a strict form teacher. one small mistake, one full writting foolscap for u. so one dae, shanie was punish nd i saw her at the study corner alone finishing her essays. i sat beside her nd say "still doing those essays?" we wasnt allowed to wait for frens when they doin their essays or we ourself will b punish as well. so mr adzri(that never get gd mood form teacher) saw me wif shanie nd asked. so i lied " oh nola, im waiting for my bro to fetch me" i waited for her to finish her essays nd went home 2gther wif her. talk2 like never talk b4. didnt noe she live nearby.

since der, we went 2 school 2gther, she with her purple bicycle (:
ask her along to hang out wif my grp(which i noe she doesnt click wif mly at that point of time) bt surprisingly, slowly she get along well wif us. nd i remember i found out she love e same sports as me, totally into it ; badminton. we used to hang out most of e time just to play it. i chose her to b my partner for our inter-class tournament. haha we won second LOL so proud of her.

hmmm after that..i just realise we have e same interest.
went in to train badminton 2gther in a club. but togther never last. haha
so for e first tme, when she's out to study at overseas, i realise like somthing amiss. till now we are close~ hahaha k shuddup.

she's damn good listerner
cn make me laugh forever
always understand situation
very patience !
n lastly, someone i cn rely on in e future

shanie, when u read this,

i wanna let ya noe, ur an asshole. ops wrong.
haha im very thankful ur part of my life.
even we are so called twins. watever my mom bought for me, she will make it two.
one for u one for me. ur always there when i nid u e most. never fail. we might get angry at e smallest things wif each otha, but u end up laughing at me whenver u see ma face -.- im very happy la ur part of my life. we cn talk anything nd not afraid to say. nd never worried abt secrets.

alamak gtg alredi. bro calling to eat. teehee~

shanie fooo ! wo ai ni !

My Love

2008-12-06T23:22:00.002+10:00

I know you wanna hang out with your clique as well. But i dont come back often, only once a year plus im not coming back next year or maybe the year after. Im not being selfish, but i would really appreciates if you could hang out with me more often. I've never felt like this before with you but now i felt it. *not in a good way*

And i think i saw him today! I THINK.. I hung out at Sunplaza park for half an hour thinking through random stuffs. and then walk back home, on the way home i think i saw him at the traffic lights. Cause i realised someone kept looking at me so i look at him. Coloured hair well he did dye his hair but then i dont think its that colour. Plus i dont think he is that fat. : lols. Well i thought it was him but im not too sure. Plus that guy got chubby cheek so does he. But really hopefully i could contact him sooon. God Bless. :)

That Hawt Geek Im Craving for...... Taufiqil Hafiz.<3

EH YOU!

2008-12-06T02:53:00.003+10:00

Ok.

My account got HACKED, BUT the pw and everything didnt changed. How did i know cause A told me my blog was dirty. Obviously i wont write that kind of stuffs?! Like WTF kan?! And i passed A my pw and everything to my blog and ask A to delete it. CB! I felt bad for that person who was involved..

And that previous post is totally BULLSHIT! Fcuk i feel so annoyed after hearing and thinking about it. ARGHHHH..

I should change my URL. OR Add password to it, like my friend's blog.

What a FCUKING DAY!

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According to the singapore law. It is an offence to how do i call it, Hack into ones account and writing nasty things if this were to happen again i can report to the police and blogger main they will be able to track down the I.P address and location.

I just cant seeem to find you anywheree.

2008-12-02T17:43:00.004+10:00

29th of Nov the day i left australia for singapore.

Tranfering to Sydney first. Saw the Opera Stage(?) in Sydney on the plane.

And then Off to Sporeee.

Brisbane - Sydney = 1hr 45min
Sydney - Spore = 8hrs 30 mins

Total =10hrs 15 mins!

Usually its only 8hrs Cause i have to fly down not up DOWN to sydney?! stupid sey.!

And i couldnt sleeep on the planeee! my back hurts like a BIATCH! Food was kinda awful except the chicken only..

I arrived at the airport so many chinese T.T me no like-y. :( Waited for ida for 30 mins, she went to city hall and get something. I felt really bad being mad at her cause she went to get the brownies. ILOVEYOU,IDA. well upload the pictures laterr.

First impression of Ida;

Got slimmer
more ladylike
still the same hair (i reckon)
still so short. LOLS

Kasturi;

Still the sameee.
know how to dress now better than before.
Awesome dancer as usual

Farhanah A.K.A Nanaa

Vain as usual.
Know the use of accesories. :D

Went out with Ida , Kas, Nana and her ex. Was gonna meet Zarrin but he went swimming so he couldnt seee my msg. Saw a really cute guy at EHUB! SO CUTEEEE. he works at the Slipper one. Sighh, i dont knw. I heard something and i wasnt very happy about it, wasnt angry either but just sad.

3rd Dec.

Stay home for abit, went to the post ofice and send the CD back to australia to corey cause he need that CD for work. He left it in there and forgotten to took it out and i have to send it as EXPRESS Post which cost me $36.70 for a bloody CD ! i only had $40 on me. Sighh.

Was gonna meet up with Nas aka Asshole who thinks he is a HITCH?! LOLS!, but he said he couldnt understand me? watever dude!

Went home had lunch watch tv, went on the internet webcam-ed with Zarrin. Then Iya came, and headed to Fad house. That silly girl who fainted, fall, fainted.. Reached fad house not long sister called and scolded me cause i locked the wooden door.! Mum gave us 2 sets of key that have the metal door, wooden door and the room keys! she didnt took its her business and she said mum didnt told her. -.- Than Iya said she will pass my keys to my sister which she have to go all the way from 200+ to 800+? IRRITATING LOR!

Today (4th Dec)

Went out for lunchh, saw so manyy poly students but didnt saw him.. i feel so down i dont know what to do in order to get in touch with him.. Sighh. I just cant seem to find you anywheree. And i really wanna meeet himm.

Oh one more thing. When i STUDY people cant seem to see it, When i DONT STUDY people just talk and talk about how i dont?! Where is the time i STUDIED and you dont talk about it?!

And of course i was fed up, mum and winnie telling me to chill when they were the ones who started FIRST! WTH right!? arghh and mum was trying to be funny but it totally not! Im trying to get over it. I think I'm getting weaker in emotion state.

oh i hated when people carrys Fake GOOD, you knw, nowaday there is so many fake Gucci, LV and so on. And they thinks that people cant tell well some cant but I CAN! arghhh so annoying.

Yay, meeting Zarrin this friday i think, he might be sleeping over hopefully. :)

CANT WAIT TO MEET GISELLLLEEEE! Connie is coming back today and mum doesnt knows. :) SURPRISE.

No pics of me!

2008-11-24T21:18:00.005+10:00

Hey new post !!! :D

Last Friday was a fcuking tired night. Connie went to Coreys and she wanted me to look after Giselle for a night. I didnt thought it would be that difficult! I had a Tough Night. T.T She just wont go to bed and i was seriously fcuking tired. I felt asleep on the laptop! After all the padding and feeding she finally went to bed at 2.30 and i have work at 10.30 the next day.

Slept over at My BOSS place!!!! Jason, Allie and Me stayed over. Dinner was DELICIOUS~ We had steak with mushroom sauce, salad and something else. Soup was Hot & Sour, and had orange and watermelonn~ gosh i feeel so BBLOATEDD after dinner!!!!!!!

Chatted for abit, played pool they got a pool table at their place. :D i knw!!!! hhahaha -.- Got piccas!

Their house is big and comfy and i went to their bedroom; master bedroom, they have 2 sink, bathtub and a shower its sooo big !! and a walk in wardorbe like a really walk in walk in! THUMBS UP!

Me and allie slept in his son's room! OMGSH im SO NOT A PERVERT but i couldnt resist it but i saw a PLAYBOY BOXERRR!!! OMGSH. Luckily he doesnt have Dolce & Gabbana Boxer if not i will go CRAZYYY~

Lunch was dumplingg~ pool and studyyyy. alright i cant be bother to blog anymore.. WAIT one last one.

I was late for my exam today. WASNT MY FAULT. i caught the 7.22am bus and usually reached the city at 8.05 but today i reached the city at 9.30 and my exams starts at 9! BLOOODY TRAFFFIC JAMM! and i still needs to travel to The Gap.. T.T

ok PICCAS TIMMMEEE~

Jason & allie. Jason's nose is bleeedinggg

The choco that allie's sister got her. :D

Pool TIME!

Jason and his "POSE".

Kevin's Turn.

He is born with that tongue. He lied to me that he cut his tongue when he was younger with a knife! scaryyy..

CLOSER LOOOK!

The RedWine i love! had it during my "study" time.

Jerrry and Kevin today (mon), he is sooo GAY. I swear he is GAY. and he seem like he doesnt brush his teeth cause its like yelllowish with the tartar stuck on it.

concentrating, btw kevin hates it when i leave him alone with Jerry. LOLS.

THE END

Piccas

2008-11-21T19:36:00.004+10:00

Heyyaas~

Went out on i dont know which day to have a little studyy. and everything was just too distracting. eg, i brought laptop there & friend brought NDS. Got photos for this post. Sue is a camwhore. and she took afew pictures. majorities of it is her, she use my phone to take the picture. :

Didnt study much, oh and i lost my USB! i think i post that already ?? hmm.

TODAY

Had my english exam. There are cheaters around me. Sue and the other internationals except Allie, Jason and John didnt cheat? they typed it into their electronic distionary. And Melody the bitch i dislike, got caught by the Teacher. and got her dictionary comfiscated. tsk3* and so did sue.

We all have to memorise it, what makes you so special that you can copy it from the dictionary!? I can say that i got the worst memory but i tried my hardest to memorise it. and i memorised only like half?? But so what at least i didnt cheat and got caught.. shame on them. *like i got any rights to say.

Met up with alex in the city with jason, kevin and john. Wow. sometimes i find him attractive sometimes i dont. but he was definately just now :) cause he went clubbing ast night thats why he was all dressed up. I asked him if i should have my hair short. but he prefer it long and like it how it is now. Went home together with him chit-chat-ed. Man i so wanna go taiwan he wore the LASCOTE(?) shoes. Omgsh PRETTTY! He is so well dressed but yeah.. He asked me why i dont like yellow skin (chinese), i said i do but i dont i would prefer brown/tan (mly kind). (refering to alex)

Saw Alric (james's bro) at FunHouse, i sweared he tries to tickle me but i turned around too fast so that "tickle" of his was fcuked up. I reckons that Jason, Kevin, and Alric would be better-looking if they will do something to their hair and the way the dressed up. alex is just prefect in his own way. well-dressed, his own kind of hair style not ugly tho.

I wonder where the fcuk did he went? its like no news from him at all? we lasted so long and for the last one more month he just dissappeared?! how sad is that. :( oh wells. how more can i do? Track him down? righhtt. :

Connie reckons it would be nice both length. idk uhh..

Me at the left top corner. see how hard working i am. HAHA. -.-" Infront of me is allie and the guy at the top right corner is kevin and than jason. And sue with the biggest head.

Sue and me with center parting fringe. How stunnning do we look?!

Jason coming out of Sue's mouth. LOLS.

The view outside our study cube. the city view. :D

2008-11-17T20:42:00.002+10:00

WOOOHOOOO another SWEET AS 12 DAYS and I’m back to Sporeee~

yeah yeah, I know i said I’m not gonna tell but not like YOU *only my close ones knows* know where i live or my no. plus i will have a new no. when i got it then i will post it. :)

NO SCHOOL FOR ME TODAY! WHYY?? :O *-.-"*

Cause last night storm was too big and it hit my school real bad. The trees were all over the placee~ and only the Grade 12 have to cause it was their final exams now. LUCKYYY~~
Apparently The Gap *north side* got hit really bad that they didn’t have any electricity through from yesterday till now, the power just got back. (8.57pm, Aust Time.) Well I live on the south-east side and everything is perfectly fine. :)
Hopefully there’s no school tomoro as well but in a way I do want to go to school cause I’m having my English exam this Friday. L and I don’t wanna fail it.!

Went to the movies with Kevin today, went to see SEX DRIVE! Sooo FUNNNNY! I laughed till I cried. And I got a pair of shorts at Target, only $12 and it’s casual but nice in a way. :D black. Very normal I would say.

Yayness. I’m getting a new laptop this friday I think it’s the one with the thumb recognition. :D happpy~

Handed my art in wasn’t what I expected to be. Oh wells. It’s too late to do anything now.

alrightyy school tomorooow. dunno what to update. Oh yeah, packed the house with connie today well majority of it was done by connie. hehehess.

alrighty ciaoo~

Updatess

2008-11-01T15:19:00.002+10:00

Hey..

I cant remember when i last updated my blogg. so i am gonna blog the latest stuffs.

SCHOOL STUFFS
I just handed in my art assignment but for some reason i dont have the satisfy feeeling in me. I got home economic as well but i dont even know what i have to do since Ms Leadle doesnt even explain it to us.

I dont know i wanna quit art and do hospitality but its not an OP subject. I need 5 Op's subjects to get into Uni. But i'm doing 6 right now. Connie thinks its a bad idea for me to quit cause they will need to pick out the best 5 Op's subject i've got, so obviously she thinks i'm gonna neeed 6 instead of 5 just in case i failed 1. :(

WORK STUFFS
Work last night was awesome! So many blooody Hotties!!!!! there were this table with guys who all needs a haircut but there only one that doesnt and he is gorgeous. his eyes are just o~m~g~! lols! He came and ask to pack away his leftover as takeaway. And not that im boosting or anything, i swear we were looking at each other last night. cause i couldnt concentrate cause he kept looking over and smiled at me. it was soo bloody distracting. And his friends ordered takeaway and they ask if i can be takeaway too. my god! how awesome if the hottie ask ! hahaha. Hopefully he will be back next friday. :D Oh plus he's not white, he is samoan-ish or some other not white aussie. yucks!

FAMILY STUFFS
Giselle's father is an ASSHOLE, he doesnt wanna sign giselle passsport thing. if he doesnt sign it giselle cant go overseas at all, my sister case it would suck big time cause she already bought the airplane ticket for giselle and her already...
But hey, THANKS to the Government these days.! they helped my sister to get that basturd to sign it! :D hahaha. but thru court. :s. God bless her.

MY STUFFS
To krisseh,
OK, bloody kris, i'm so touched about what you said in your blog on my bday.! But you definately made me felt reallly bad and gulity. Its true that you may not be the one i will be missing the most or talk to the most now or share my troubles. But we will still be bestfriend. and i will never forget you. :D And i still can go over to your house and play with your hamster. :D You can come over my house too, but no cat for you to play with but you can play with my niece! :D sounds good?

To michelle,
Yeah!!! we can bake chocolate cake again and cookie! maybe this time we should bake something different. maybe bake something you wanna bake long time ago and we can ask my mom if she knows how to bake it? yeahh?? cant wait! ILOVEYOUTOO!

Camp and PICCAS!

2008-10-16T13:54:00.008+10:00

Updates for CAMPP!

This camp is the BEST & yet the MOST PAINFUL camp EVER! I got SOO MANY BRUISES AND CUTS! This camp is all about leadership, ANZAC which means those soldiers back in WW1/2 fighting times and kinda see if you have the guts as well.

First day, got there had morning tea off to activities. There are balancing ones which i totally suck at it.! Tunnels and climbing over wall. Then off to SWIMMING!!! I jump off a 2 meters high board. but i didnt got the guts to jump off the 4 meters high one!
IRRATATING PART : My friend didnt know how to swim and she wants to jump so i jump first then she jump and she push me all the wayyy down into the lake without me catching breath at all! I swear to god at that moment i thought i was gonna die/faint! the lake is pretty eufffing DEEEP! I dont blame her but then she can flap so she wont get drown plus she pushed me down cause she was tired from swimming not because she was gonnna drown ok! i swam more than she did she wants to complain she tired?!
Headed to toilet and showered. then DINNER was YUMMM! Chicken Snitzel with cheesecake for dessert! :D Went back to cabin and chit chat. Jess.p YELLED at us wanting us to go to bed at 8PM?! WTF?! CRAZY! people go camp to stay up late and gossip she wants us to go to bed early?! Kassy said : " JESS did you forgotten to take your UN-BITCH PILLS?!" LOLS! And she went outside and cryy.. -.-" ... we all went to bed at 11 i think. Some irritating people woke us up at quarter to 5 which is 4.45am! when we are suppose to be awake at 6-7 am.

Day 2.
Had brekkie! bacon, toast, andd egg. Activities were super fun! we had to crossed a bridge which is like only 20 cm wide! we had to twist our partners in order to cross if we cant balance ourselves we will fall off the bridge and drop into the lake! THANK god i didnt!!! Went into this tunnnel.. that is when i got my bruises and cuts from.. its dark, dirty, muddy, stuffy and it concrete everywhere. But i love the activities!! :D

And then it was MUD PIT! we have a person lying on the stretcher and we have to carry that person across the obstacles in the mud pit, super deep as well like quicksand like that.! SOOOO FUNNNNNNN!!!!! And went for a quick swim and off to dinner. wasnt that yummy but dessert was. Chocolate mud cake! and off to the night activity. Same thing as the mud pit one. but this time we are going into the woods. There’s slope up and down! and i got more cuts! but Teamwork made us succeed the whole challenge.

Last day, went for Skirmish aka paint ball! in the morning. SOOO FUN. I got shot 3 times, 1 on my side boob, 2 on my face but with helmet on. And i didnt enjoy it at first cause i didnt got shot! and the instructor say whoever wants to get hit line up outside. i did. and i got hit 3 times! tummy, elbow and back! OMG, it hurts like a BITCH! but it was tolerable. after that i wanna get hit more! it hurts but you want moree! weirdd. the hit on my elbow started bleeding and you still can see the mark where the bullet hit. Awesome! hahaha. had lunch, mark around and listen to their goodbye speech and went on the bus and headed home.

Didn’t go to school today, whole body hurts! my arms hurt and i got bloody sleeve tan! And i put on weight not because of the delicious foods it’s because i created muscles. -.-

oh and i cam-whore with Giselle! Not the best pictures just woke up not long onlyy hahahaha

Oh and bloody pull another prank on me.. cbb! hahahaha. that boy is such an asshole! but still love that asshole aka Hotstuff!!! hhahaha! :D

Happy Birthday Michelle.

2008-10-12T20:43:00.002+10:00

Hey.

YAY. My family members plus connie's bf bought me a new phone. LG VIEWTY! yaynesss! i reckon this is like the best birthday presents every this year.. New phone, Airplane ticket and newer version laptop. WEEEE~

Oh ida, I love you la! you and yr idiotic-ness! hahhaha. Love those midnight calls! :) LOVEYA!

Weird thing, i missed Ida, Hykel and Fahmii ALOT SIA!!!! maybe cause i have been contacting them alot recently~ ilyguys!

Camp tomorrow!!

HAPPPPPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLLLEEEE~~~
Happy SWEEET 16.
Stay CRAZY, PRETTTY, SASSSSY, DAZZZZLING, LAMEEEE and many moree. !!
i dont even know if some of the words there exist or not.! ahhaha.
I love you, girl! i know you since primary 1 till now and hoping this will last longer. And knowing you in my life is the awesume thing ever, a girl who likes to bake cookie at night! -.-" and we can do more late night exercises at my void deck there. hahahah and youre so bloody damn lame la can!!! hahhaha. Lovey. takecare!

Relationships

2008-10-04T22:18:00.002+10:00

Hey ya!

My feelings today are super confused, frustrated and down. Maybe its because of the conversation i had with hafiz last night. We chatted, its was good but at the ending it was kinda bad but good in a way. I guess we both had the same feeelings that we wont last long at all. Which is kinda sad, hate to admit that.

I can tell that he changed and he said he doesnt wanna take things fast he wants me to take it slow, so he wasnt like he used to be, close and ultra sweeet. And he doesnt wants me to be deeply in-to him. which is really kinda dissapointed that it came out from him. In a way, he actually cares about my feeelings when we ends this relationship.

After all that, i really dont know if he will still takes me out or hangs out with his friend like how we planned before.

Truth is all i want is to have a real bf & gf relationship. Do things like how normal couples do. Having little quarrel between us and say ILoveYou after that.. Have a sleepover. Stayover night outside. Go for LATE NIGHT MOVIESS!Lepak with bf/gf's friendss! and many many moreee~

My relationship with zarrrin at first went reallly well. But after listening to what my sister said to me. Which are " dont take the whole thing seriously." I was actually dumb enough to tell zarrin that! He was hurt but he didnt tell me. And when we talked thru this whole thing, he said he was taking this whole thing seriously but after what i said to him, he was heartbroken and decided not to take it seriously as well. MORAL of the story, Think before you speak i meant think through the whole speech! And not say something real dumb like i did.

But afterall, those sweet memoirs of ours will be remembered.

To KRIS,

I actually do envy you, not you YOU. but youre relationship. Like having little quarrels, funny & cute tho! Hope you both last longg. Same to all the people out there who are in a relationship.

I cant wait to see Ida, craving for her hugs. Cause whenever im down shes alway there for me. I love you, SYG. Even tho im here and youre there but you knw if you ever need me i will always be there for you, girl..

Oh and hafiz knows which date i am reaching spore. I know i said i wont tell anymore. But i cant resist the temptation inside me! so i told him but not the time. Actually i want Ida / Hafiz to be there only. TO YASIN : Thanks for asking. But i really dont feel like you & rasty to come and fetch me. Plus i will reach there

GOOOD NEWS

2008-10-03T12:54:00.001+10:00

GOOD NEWS!

Good news to people who likes me and Bad news for people who hates me.

I bought my airplane ticket~ connie called me yesterday when i was at Gold Coast, she asked when i wanna go back spore and when i wanna return to aust. :D Didnt thought i will be able to go back spore. Told Syg this morning, i made his day. :D

Not telling which date or what time.

Hint* 24th - 30th of Nov one of those dates in between*
Catching Qantas instead of SIA :)
Reaching spore at night.

My mom doesnt know that i going back on that particular day, she thinks that im going back with connie on the 16th Dec. which she lied to her about that as well. she's going back on the 7th Dec. heehees.

Cant wait to see Mum, Ida, Taufiqil Hafiz and everyone. :D So excited!!!!!

INVITATION

Giselle's 1st bday will be held at Aranda Resort at Pasir Ris on the 21st of Dec.

CLOSE FRIENDS of mine will ONLY BE INVITED, not allowed to invited all my friend. SORRRY!

REJECTED CHILD

2008-10-01T17:18:00.004+10:00

REJECTED CHILD... who?

THATS MEE! :D* fake smilling*

Daddy brought a girl,Mel, home, cause she fought with her mum thats why we are keeping her for 3 days. And last night, connie's bf wanted to stayover but he cant cause Mel is sleeeping in her room. Plus they need their PRIVACY as well if he is staying over.. And winnie's bf stayed over cause he said he told his friends that he's not coming back home so they are gonna bring friends back home. Ok uh. Fair enough.

Then what about me? where the hell am i gonna sleeep? i usually sleeeps in winnie's room if Corey stayed over. But last night i cant sleeep in connie's room nor winnie's cause they are both occupied! that leads me to the LIVING ROOOM! For people who knows me well and in real life, they know they i HATE sleeeping aloneee! DAMNIT! :(

Connie asked winnie to make room for me to sleeep. But she said that her bf doesnt wants to means no. :( Connie got really annoyed and scolded her " She's your SISTER! And she have to sleep in the living room because he said no?! What kind of sister are you?!" I guess they need their PRIVACY too! I swear when i go back spore she's gonna sarcifies the room she is sleeeping in for me when i bring my friends to stayover. HA ! :P

Today i went out in the morning, met up with Sue and Allie and then headed to Indroopily :D to exchange my M white bouse for a S black blouse instead :D ! happy cause i really liked the black one. :) Oh yeah it's from Cotton On, there's one located at Orchard Rd too! And i went back to the City hung out at Tea ETC a bubbletea shop and then went to JayJay bought a prettty dresss. will take a photo of it for you guys!

Wearing the black blouse with short short tomorrow to Gold Coast. HIPEE HORRAY! -.-

Oh yeah, Syg onlined but i think he have to entertain his relative or something cause today is HARI RAYA! SELMAT HARI RAYA TO THE MLYS! How awesume. :D

Sun tanning.Piccaa

2008-09-28T22:24:00.005+10:00

Sun tan today, outside at my balcony with conniee. . :D I got tan, cause i can see my bikini line :s
And affter tanning i exfoliate my body lie in the bathtub, so shiok.

I think im going to Gold Coast this coming thursday. yay! In that case, i will get to wear my, Vogue sunglass :D

I love the singlet that hykel gave me. :D thanks boy! Oh yeah, i chatted with him last night. He made my day. But rimin/rasty pissed me off!! dont even wanna talk about it.

I MISS TAUFIQIL HAFIZ. :( i dreamt about him the other day, the story goes like this....
I went to look for him and he was with his guitar and i sat infront of him and he taught me how to play the guitar and he was holding my hand, Dont you find it weird that usually when we dream everything seems to be really real even the touching seem to be so real like its right beside you, only if i wish he were reallly right beside me holding my hands.... Afterall its just a dream.. The real touching will be start at the end of nov, hopefullyyy.

OOh have a look at my wallpaper on my lappy.

Was gonna put this one. but abit too plain not many pictures. and too many syg's face.

Million Thoughts

2008-09-27T20:41:00.002+10:00

Hii peeps.

Sorry for not updating for such a longg timee.

Ive been working and im freaking tired even thou i only worked like 17.5 hrs this week at mac and 3 hrs at another place for a friend.
Work has been rather busy cause i was put at rush hour time, (12pm -2pm).

I totally didnt have any time to spend my holidays. Its alway working, well thats what my friend said. I haven been to the movies at all. :( I only went shopping one day. Bought a white blouse and short short :D that cheer me up alittle from a problem that have been upsetting me alot..

If you did read my previous posts. I didnt mention about hafiz, like something happened on his side right? i dont knw. Its just that i still haven contact him since then. And connie ask me today, "do you ever think that hafiz might be dating a girl right now behind your back?". hmm im speechless, i dont even knw. God knws.

Yeh and about fahmi. OMG he read my blog. so embarassing? cause i said that he was cute in my previous posts? He's a nice guy, i got pranked by him and he got me good. Im gonna get him back when thought of one. hahahhh. Talking to him leads me back to the sweet time i had with hafiz and my previous house..

Oh and on friday, work at bardon was awesume actually, well for me. i brought my friend along, allie. cause coco is pregnant and she's pretty weak right now. so yeah. And i was serving this indian customer, and he said he wants chilli, and i said " we dont have sliced chilli but we do have sambal chilli. :)" and when i served him his hot chilli and they ask where i was from and chatted for abit. They called me and ask me to pack it into a takeaway box *BEST PART*, they said my attitude was really good plus my service as well. :D and they said they wants to open a restuarant and they would like me to work for them. ahahha :D i said " really?" they said "a sucessful rest have good service and workers :D" and they asked why i treated them with a polite attitude, i said " youre the customer, customer is alway right :D plus why wouldnt i treat you in a nice way? " Not that i am hinting anything at all, cause i reckons that im still far from good. That made my day.

I miss him lots. Hope everythings is okay and i will get back in touch with him sooon?

Bday Boy.

2008-09-22T23:11:00.005+10:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZARRRIN~ SWEEET 16

Will you guide me?

2008-09-21T23:19:00.001+10:00

sighhh.. Something happened to syg yesterday night. But i didnt ask much nor did he told me anything. Yesterday, i had a slighty fever, cause i feel sick and wanting to puke everything out! Lie down in my sister's room for 3 hrs watched "You Got Served".
Told connie that something happened to Hafiz. And all she told me was to give up on Hafiz. she said you hardly talk to him, you wont knw what he did. I dont wanna listen to her cause the last time i listened to her and cause my relationship with zarrin DOWNHILL.
That guy, Fahmi, the one i've mention earlier in the post. He asked me to be his girl for one day when i go back spore.. but i'm not sure tho. Ida my guardian angel / Advisor, Help me? lols. I knw her answer, "dont uh shanie, you dont knw what he will do to you right? alaa dont knw you uh. " - not too sure about the "alaa dont knw you uh" haahaha. :

Piccas and New clothes

2008-09-18T22:55:00.005+10:00

Heyass~

HOLIDAYS STARTING FROM NOW~ YAYNESSSSSSS!!!!

Went to a baby program with connie today. as usual she's late but we are not the latest~ hees. Was kind boring for me cause i dont have a baby. Yeah..

Went to the city after that accompany her walk walk. then went to BigW bought my white dress that i wanted. :D and i saw a pair of boxer, *ching* bought them! connie sponser me $10 total cost me $38.90.

Went to work after that, busy like hell for a period of time. i got only 5.5 hrs this week and 14 hrs next week :D

And yeah.. Pictures. Oh i reckon this guy is hawt and cute! fahmi_boi@hotmail.com i think he's like same species as zarrin kind. LOLS.

OH OH OH.. ok i was at FUnHouse with my friends and i saw this 3 samoans but i kinda find one rather attractive, hot body and pretty cool kid. I cant stop looking at them. i think the one i find it rather attractive ralised i was looking at them and they smile smile. AHHh~~ so hawtt! And i went to play basketball and they saw me coming and one of them was trying to show off. but they just suck at it. and before they left they yelled " EHHHH" and then they showed me a twist i turned around too late cause they were in the lift already didnt get to hear what they gotta say.

PICCAS

Happy Bday DADDDDY~

2008-09-16T15:19:00.004+10:00

Heelllooo, babes and handsomes~

Dad's Bday today~ going out for dinner laterrr. Stupid winnie. I was at her working place just now and she could've told me to buy the cake. now which is 3.21pm she called and asked anyone wanna come to the city early to buy the cake? Like WALAOWEI~ she said to us that she was gonna buy it in the morning now she ask one of us to get into the city early and buy the cake.. -.- Im over it.

Today was Home Economic Pratical Plus Theory work to be handed in. well didnt hand in theory cause i need to add more stuffs into it and will hand it in tomorrow :) Oh i burned myself when i was at the oven there i squard down and i lean my elbow there against the door of the oven, SIZZ~ OUCHHH!! :'( Graphic exam tomorrow.. :( sighhh i reckons that im gonna fail cause the picture looks complicated and you have to image that its cut off in the whatever way the teacher wants it to be like. Im screwed. God Bless Me.

Guess what?! my friend, James told me that he's gonna give me $160 for my bday present, i was like " dude, for real?" he said " for real for real" but i dont knw if he is really gonna. it'd be AWESUME if he did. He thought of buying me a phone but i said " I doubt that everyone is gonna pay that much for my bday present especially sue." :

Ate way too much yesterday, cause i was with winnie. If youre one of winnie's friend or her sisters you will put on SHIT LOADS of WEIGHTS~ cause she keeps buying foods and stuff it into your mouth. its good but bad for those who wanna lose weight right noww. :(

Well i knew this guy from friendster, he added me. He's kinda cute & hawt. He knows aikha andd hadi... Ida you should knw hadi.. But oh wells we chat and everything but i still love my babyboy~ :) He got a job interview today so ALL THE BEST! :D

I love Taufiqil Hafiz~ :D & Ida, Family members, Kris and my other loved ones~ The according (<-) aren’t according to my most favorites’ so no worries. LoveLove<3>

11 Bdays.

2008-09-10T21:13:00.006+10:00

Hey hey...

I guess no one is reading my blog... :( SADNESS/ NOLOVE!

Whatever la... Anyways, I got 11 bdays this month!!!!!!! -.-“ that lovely peeps are:
Ariel *16, Melody*19, Allie*18, Min*18, Joseph*18, James*17, Alric*16, Dad*49, Zarrin*16, Iya*17 & Yibei *19. I am super broke this month... I have been to parties every Saturday when i have to rush my assignments! And I got scolded by Yibei cause i didn’t went to her party and went to someone else... :(

I bought Allie a Heart necklace with blue diamonds along the side. Thank god that she likes it! :D she didn’t like what Kevin got her, told him not to get it cause its not her type plus kinda childish. It’s a blue heart bracelet. He got it in a rush, not like Allie is gonna kill him if he didn’t get her a gift in timee!! Oh well. And jay got Allie a HelloKitty WaterBottle? WTF? She is 18 ok! Buy that one? somemore force her to bring to school.. Poor Allie.
Ok I sounded like a bitch and critising the presents but seriously la, HelloKitty Bottle for a 18 yr old girl? Don’t you think it is alittle bit RIDICULOUS?!! She told me that too ok!!!! :

For my bday, No teddy bears thank you, something classy and nice and not something immature and childish : Best present ... MONEY! Cause I need them!!!!! :(

Enough of Bday thingggyyy~~

I did my english Persuasive speeech last minute and memorized it, and i got a C for it. Its really a shit grade, but thinking that i didnt let my teacher correct it and it was a last minute work somemore.. Its lucky that i got C alreadyy.. so thank god lorr.. But still very disappointed in myself, i know i can get better than just a solid C. But it was better than last term tho. I totally flunked last term englishh. :(

And just now i studied 2hrs on math. And i am going to school tomorrow to the library the whole day to study.. Exams starts tomorrow. Math exam on Friday. :( And i need to get started on my Home Economic Assignment and my ART :( i so wanna cry now okk!!!!!

Kevin told me some funny shat.. Not allowed to tell. but it was kinda GAY i mean SEXUALLLY GAYISH OKKK!!!! :

OHHHH. I misses SYG like fuckkk~~!! ahhhh *drop. roll. deaddd~*

PICCASSSSS

Melody's Bday Partyyyy.

The first pic was just me before the party at home toilet.. Third one was the 3 of us, all 16 this year ok, im the second youngest yet look like the oldest. : the one far to the right is Sue's sister, Sue is the one undernearth the 3rd pic, me and her.. Then me and allie and the last one was Melody and me..

I LOVEE MY BABYBOY!

2008-09-01T19:53:00.005+10:00

OMFG..

I still have the sweeet feeelings leftover from Saturday night.. syg was super ultra sweeet la sia~ I was webcaming with him at my friend's place.. and it felt like the first time we know each other.. And he said i love you.. well cause he hardly say it now.. so its pretty "awwww" when he says it. *blushingg*. And he actually said that if we broke up he would cry.. but who knws its true..
And i am super JEALOUS ok.. cause he went to Spore Poly to get awards which he doesnt even know what he got it for and he was bored so he started chatting with the girl beside him and he exchanged his no. with 2 GIRLS lehh. >:( walaooo! But he said he is jealous as well, cause on saturday it was my friend's 18 B'day party and i got molested. We were playing this game and have to close our eyes and stretch our hands out. and someone grabbed my collar and touch my boob, of course he apologise uhh if not i smack him uh! and i told him about it.. wahahahahah!

I love when your bf get jealous over something smallls but not alway la. if not i die uhh. i think i wil be the one who is alway jealouss.. :( or not..

I reckons that zarrin's bestfriend, Isma is like so fucking drop dead gorgeous can! and they look really good together like a perfect couple.. but they are bestfriend since they were young but who knows that they wont get married in the future right?? :)

Oh and i did my english Persuasive Speech today.. was so freaking nervous.. i ask the mean-est guy in my class and tell me about my speech.. he said its not bad but he wasnt attracted by my speech? maybe not interesting.. where got oral interesting and entertaining one?? Oh well, if i pass i am satisfied already :)

I slept at 1.15 am and woke at 6.30.. so tiredd~

I miss him shit loads. :( he is now at chalet.. having funn yet i am here feeeling miserable and stress. =.=

Oh i got movie to introduce, its a korean movie " My Sassy Girl" OMG its sooo funnny.. Must watch la!

Alrightyyyy. heres my horscope thingy.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer ( Sept 23 - Oct 22 )
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

The ones that i make it BOLD are the ones i reckons its true.

Victory is SWEET as!

2008-08-30T12:08:00.005+10:00

WOOTS.

slept alone last night. And woke up pretty early this morning at around 9 ish. and wanted to work on my english but my mind was BLANK~ i couldnt think of anything to write. Hmm.. was hungry but not hungry.. so i cooked mee goreng then i realised all i wanted was just fruits. and i didnt finish the pack of mee goreng.. And i only typed 72 words since 10 and its 12.12pm now.. LOLS. And i am presenting my Persuasive speech on Ernest Hemingway, "The Old Man and the Sea" on monday.. and no draft was handed in due to teacher dont have the time for it. i am so dead. i done my feature article on hemingway now its persuasive. AHHH~
After English its Home Economic, Art and than MATH assignmentssss! and than EXAMS! walaowei .. so packed :( well i think better than having N/O Level..

I am stressing over allie's b'day pressie. I do not know what to buy!! elephant necklace? she likes elephant i saw 1 and its $20 but the elephant is kinda small.. sighhh.. And her party start at 6.30 have to be there at 6 and i have to leave hse at 3 to get pressie. and then might go there early since i knw where she lives. hmm good idea. and she can help me with my assignments!!! wooohooo! Good idea.!

And someone pissed me off so badly last night, and i know that person reads my blog. TO that person " I forgive you already but i wont treat you as nicely as i used to. I am still very cut at you. so do not send any msg to me anymore if not i will blocked you even longer."

Tell me that i am not the only one who feels left out. :( KRIS!!! must answer this to me ok? hahhaha whenever i saw him online and didnt say hi to me i feels really sad, or if he goes online and then went off. i feels like he doesnt wanna talk to me but maybe it might be his internet connection problems righttt?? : Do you feel that way sometimes when your bf does that to you? sighh.

I guess i should be worried about my assignments than worried over this kind of stupid thinking. But you cant help it one right?!!!

I love you<3>

WAIT I GOT JUICY STUFFS! BWHAHAHAH...
About my english, i was having trouble at first to write, and shuan is from malaysia his english is pretty good and he likes to compare with me. and he was showing off, saying that he finished his english feature article in 10 mins! AS IF LA! Then i said " oh wanna help me out since you help allie out to write her introduction.." i can tell that he didnt want to help me! But i am just saying that to let him feels he is winning. Then i went home and i finished mine in 2 hours! and when we got our draft back.. I asked him how did it go.. he said " oh its pretty good.. blah blah blah." and we swap to read each other Teacher's comment.. hahahahah I win I win~ YEAY! and his comment was :
"shaun, this is good but youre not telling me about his philosophical approach towards his life and your introduction isnt quite right. "

Mine was :
" shanie, this is well-written. and you have handle his philosophical towards his life quite well. just make the changes and use the themes to enhance what you have written." :D

Winning over someone who like to compares with you, the feelings is indescribable. Man i sounded so mean, immature and up myself.. :(

Alrighty.. gonna get myself prepared for allie's partyy..

New Job.

2008-08-29T23:24:00.004+10:00

ello.

i think i have spider web all around my blog already.. :D

beeen super duper with schoool assignments and not enough SLEEP! And once again, im SICK~ but this time its HEADACHE not flu. Havent had a proper meals at all for the pass few dayss lost weight but not alot.. School = stress/assignments and new job = tired/stress. And when im tired i dont feeel like eating. :( And i am drown with assignments!

Ok.. this month like got so many freaking b'days ok! and plus 2 of them told me last minute and had to get them their present.. Im so broke ok..

Tomorrow, another birthday party, allie's BIG 18! gonna buy her a ncklace with an ELEPHANT. she likes elephant. :) so cute ok! sleeeping over.. hopefully i will be feeling better.

Oh my Alicia went around europe. she went to SPORE as well. She loved it! and we said that when i go back spore shes gonna join me. but i dont think its gonna happen tho. Ex leh the air ticket! But hopefully she will be able to..

OH, Does anyone know the this brand, Country Road?? if you do, what do you think of their lastest bag, its simple and nice.. i like their red and its only $50!! how cheap.!

And these few days, i kept thinking about hafiz alot.. which i guess its a good thing? :D and i felt bad cause i was flirting with alex on thursday. he waited with me till i start work and he was playing with me and sorta touching my hands.. and he kept calling me "mei nu" its kinda annoying means "prettygirl" and i scolded kevin for calling me this and i scolded alex as well. I think he is taking the advantage cause i told him that i used to like him..

And my new job at mac was fun but kinda shit and stress at the same time.. fun with my partner, matt and my crew trainer for the first day and shit cause i keep pressing the wrong button and some idiot order super fast and it was a long order and my crew trainer need to ask him to repeat twice ! and this bloody asian, i couldnt understand him he ordered " can i get 2 double cheeseburger .......bacon" i got no idea what he said after the burger and i think i made im repeat 3 times and he got angry? lols! i got chelsea to help me out and she did it! yay. oh btw shes really fake and shes a mixed american and jap but not pretty.Stress is because winnie is a PRO, i didnt knw that till i got into Mcdonald and my crew trainer told me.. and i have to do well too.. so yehh.. I dont like natasha cause she keeps interupting and trying to talk to matt, my partner in crew training for the first 3 shifts! And apparently she is a WHORE! : and shes only turning 16 this year same as me.. and shes a whore already! tsk3!

God bless me with my assignments and my new job. hopefully i will be better at it for the next shifts and not so many mistakes! Aman! <3>

Night night!

Stay AWAY from ME!

2008-08-21T19:35:00.002+10:00

Just so you know, i have been late for school 2 weeks in a ROW! *applauses*
I just cant wake up early at all! Its so hard.. :( i dont know how Hykel can do it, travel from Pasir Ris to Bueno Vista(?). hahah.

Winnie's bf bought her a new phone, the phone that she wanted.!! soo prettty~ Her ex bought her a phone as well when they were dating..

I had a graphic test yesterday and i kinda screw up the last qs. thats something i really regretted. Graphic is not something you can study for, its all about practising in class doing classwork. Or if you have AutoCad at home than you can really do well then.

I just dont like james anymore? whenever he calls me i will just reject the call. i just cant help it. He is such a LIAR and a BACKSTABBER! i just cant stand people like this. DONT TALK TO ME PLEASE. I WILL JUST BE A BITCH TO YOU, NO MORE NICE SHANIE....

sorry no in the mood the blog at all. ending here. ciao~

BITCHY STUFFS & MacDonald

2008-08-19T19:02:00.003+10:00

HELLO~

I am blooody LATE for school. And i got really angry at myself! I swear to god i was gonna wake up then for some reason i was thinkin " 6.30? still early, bus comes at 7.22" and i woke up at 7.30, damn!, went back to sleep again and woke up at 9.35! RUSHED to the toilet and get ready do my hair wear stocking cause its cold~ I reached school at 10.40 and morningtea starts at 10.40. LOLS!!! Attend only 3 periods cause i got double spares in the arvo.

Went to Jason's place half way through lunch since i got spares after that. Kevin asked me to join but didnt ask John to. cause i guess theres hardly anyone who like him now. He's dirty, untidy, rude, sleazyand lazy. YUCK! and he wont go to the barber, WHY? cause its too expensive to get a hair cut here it's only like what $25 for guys OK! It makes you look neat and presentable! and i think $25 is pretty reasonable! And yeah, stayed at jason's place till like 3.40 then left he sent us to the bustop cause he promised us. :)

Oh and I was really annoyed today, why? cause i dont like melody in the first place! and she wanted to eat my food, ok uh. but she only eat the choicken but not the rice as well. i was liked can you eat the rice as well dont just eat the meat. and i knows that i can eat like REALLY HAWT SPICY FOOD! and most asian there cant!. and she was like its sooo spicy! serve you right.! Im a bitch to her sometimes as well. i just DONT LIKE HER!

She's from CHINA!
Shes 19 and still in grade 11! when she suppose to be in Uni first year already.
Her english is not that good and she oftens try to compare with me! arghh!
She always eat other people's food and its like we are SUPPOSE to!
Some people are dumb silly, but she is dumb at common sense situation!
And she gives me a feelings that she likes to compare with me.
She got bad breathe :

WHATEVER!

Oh and about my rice, i had Vindaroo curry in it, its like the most spicy curry in the stall. And apparently James is good at eating spicy stuffs as well. and when he eat my rice he was like its not spicy and he ate the chicken and i said " i reckon the chicken is spicier but i think its nothing thou" he replied" really? i thought the rice was spicier!" SEE he does finds my rice spicyy! Just doesnt wanna admit! Fake cunt! I hate him as well. He cause conflicts between me and my sister, winnie. He is pretty bitchy for a guy! Tell lies that arent true and loves to exaggerate things! Plus he is FUCKING DIRTY! hes not good looking and he's chubby and when he talks dirty to me about some stuffs like describing its A BIG TURN OFF TO ME! I will tell him to shutup and youre disgusting. Its just wrong when he talks about it, it makes me wanna PUKE!! ok enough of him already..

OH OH! I confirm in MacDonald already, and i have to read a modules and take a quiz! The modules took me 2hrs 30 mins to finish it cause its so long, 7 Qs. third Qs got 26 Qs!!!*faint* and the quiz got 20 Qs. I got 3 wrong! oh well. You have to get at least 80% to pass and i got 85%! LUCKYY~ Now i have to wait for them to schedule my first shift! :D

MEOWW~

2008-08-17T18:09:00.003+10:00

Heyy.

Friday, work was awesume and extremely exhausted. Reasons why i was exhausted cause i was sick and it was busy. And i lost my voice so the Coco took over for me, and i was working in the kitchen with the dishes weird thing is i enjoyed doing the dishes which is totally abnormal for me cause i hate doing dishes.
Ate super slow and only had half bowl of rice during dinner time, and Jess *boss* make Ma poa tofu for me cause its soft and easy to swallow. how awesume is my boss and my dad doesnt even realised that i was sick and didnt even cared about me. I dont like telling people that i am sick of anything and wants their sympathy i want it to comes naturally for them to realised. BUT one bad thing is i cant resist the LOLLIES for some reasons they look so yummy and tempting. I had junks till i was like full! and guess what i put on 2 bloody KGS! FUCK LA.! Ok This week onward, less CARB, Maccas once a week, walk to the train station instead of catching the bus, drink plenty of water, NO LOLLIES/JUNKS! Hopefully i can resist those bloody temptations.!

Stayed home on Saturday had lotsa of bloody junks! and i feel EXTREMELY FAT! whee did i get so many junks, cause theres a HUGE Funfair happening right now in Australia, brisbane *where i live* and winnie bought lotsa of showbags for and we stole some off her. and its chocolate and lollies!!!!! The funfair is only once a year. and yeahhh.

Sunday. Went to the library, I was meant to meet kevin and Jason at 11 but i was an hour late.. hahahha and i was the one who said to meet at 11. LOLS. i know ay, blamee my alarm or blame myself, i set it at 9 but i forgotten to changed it to once instead of mon-fri~. hahahahh Silly me..
And we went to the library and Corey sent me off. sweeeet no need to buy bus ticket. And we didnt really studied. hahahaha!!!

Oh last night i cried in my dream, cause my dreamt that my mum and dad doesnt love me anymore and my mum became one of the aussie slut moms. And i wasnt loved by them. It was really sad well for me it is.. yeahhh. weird shits.!

Well right now i am sitting with connie in the balconyy. And shes like "Shanie. becareful now its chinese ghost month, shaniee i'm colddd~~ my face is rottennn help meeee..." I was like " they came out to eat.." " shutup! i like to say whatever i like!" "shaniieeee, i'm hungryyyyy~" i gave her the -.- i thought you wanted to say " im colddd~" LOLS!

alrightyy ciao. im going in now..

Bloody koreans

2008-08-12T21:49:00.002+10:00

Skipped school today, was on the bus on the way to school but then i was feeling really sick so i told kevin that i am going go back "home" and he said oh ok than i will go back to city too. And we ended up hanging out in te city till 4 plus from morning. Had my panadol do i think i feel better plus IceCream. Yumm. met up with sue at 2 plus, she lied to us that they were at GoldCoast. liar liar pants on FIRE!! -.-

Well went to play pool with jeremy, kevin and james. Jeremy shout*(treat)* us. and i only sinked 3 balls? Well truth is, i never played pool before.. yeahh.

Around 5 plus we met up with alex. and i headed home at that time..

Yesterday.

I went to the city, hung around kiosk and met up with alex and we talked about some stuffs and he apply into macdonald but he didnt get the jobb. SADD. and we went to catch the train, miss the one at 5.58 on purpose and catch the one at 6.07. Sat down and we sat really close and i can tell we are only really good friends. and on the train it was freaking crowded! and i bumped into him and i was kinda embarassed/blushed. weird! and we were standing REALLLY close. And soon it was my turn to get off and we were still chatting like theres no ending.. which is something good.. :) in that way we can never get bored.

Got off the train went to get Naan bread from indian shop. went home and went online chatted with sygg and went to get Oats cause i felt like it and went to KFC and this bloody korean almost knocked aman*sis's bf* down, he was carrying giselle as well. And we stared at her, and she look at us as if she wasnt in a wrong.. Bloody hell. Bloody koreans!

Alrighty i am super tired, night night peeps. <3

Friday & Sat Post.

2008-08-09T18:29:00.002+10:00

FRIDAY.

I skipped school on friday, i didnt felt like going to school. Well i did, but just not attending classes i went to the city to look for friends with sue. :) I know, BAD DECISION plus i am always late for school and i dont have the rights to not go to school. I promise i wont do it again. Shanie Swears upon Ida's life. ahahahahahaha!!! so mean! JOKES~. okok I swear i will not skipped anymore days in this TERM. okay?? :D

And i met up with alex but he was with his friends and i couldnt tell him what i wanted to tell, its a secrets between me and him as a GOOD FRIEND. :) Kuini caught me in the city cause i was clever enough to go over and say HI! she was like shouldnt you be in school? im calling your sister!.. nah i wont. heheheees She's AWESUME. Oh and i met my trainer alreadyy. :) shes, well nice, funny and tomboy-ish? :

Met up with kevin, headed to Krispy Kreme had a doughnut, GOD! their doughnut is like so FATENING yet SO GOOD?! make sense? and fresh. yumm~ And i saw a mixed blooded kiddo, asian and caucasian, so adorable. i want a mixed blooded baby too i told my friends and connie! and yeah, kevin left for work and me and sue when to sit outside and stare at peeps. hahaha.

Oh btw, did i told you guys before that Chinese are the peoples who critised the most! And every taiwanese i asked agrees with me. I have to be really specific cause they doesnt like ppls to call them chinese when they are taiwanese cause chinese = china. So i think i would rather be called a sporean then a chinese. :)

Went to work, it was busy but it was good. And coco kinda pissed me off alittle bit cause shes not elping much with the dishes or collecting them! And i got moody but i didnt vent it out. so its all good. She left early cause she wanna watch Olympic. She LOVES CHINA because she is from CHINA. And dinner was GREAT, YUMM! and i had half of my lady boss beer, her beer is light and i had 1/3 of my boss, his beer is heavy. But i wasnt even tipsy so it was all good. Was super duper BLOATED! Went home, rest and sleeeeeep.

TODAY *SAT*

Got kicked by kuini at the butt, cause they thought i was still sleeeping and they were trying to be quiet and when kuini was trying to pass through me i jump up and she shocked and started kicking my ass and i was laughing at her so hard. HAHAHAHAH.

And winnie spoiled her friend's *cameron* phone. And cameron asked whose bag is it, winnie said its aman *sis's bf* and he kicked afew more times. Of course winnie got pissed off and she placed a cup of ices in his bag and it melted and his phone drowned. And now cameron complained to the head manager, at the moment all head managers are on leave so no one should disturb the H.M. which mean the manager of the stall found out, he gave cameron a warning and if you gets 3 warnings youre FIRED. hahaha. SERVE HIM RIGHT. blehhh.!

And winnie told me that if she couldnt fixed his phone he will buy him back a new one, well its pretty cheap since its the Razor Motorola with the VGA camera. And i asked OHHH would you like to buy me one? *smile widely*. One of my button came off. She said "excalty its one of YOUR button came off not mine". I said " well im YOUR sister, wouldnt it consider as YOURS too?" she smiled and said " maybe i might later but not now, WAIT you can get yourself one when you work at maccas." heeehees. Oh welll. I think im a pretty good translator, cause i translate those from chinese to english. :D

HOT TOPIC.
And just now around 6 ish aussie time, my friend, Heikal from BEDOK TOWN, Ida's school told me that He LIKES me. his hotmail is heikal_river@hotmail.com if you wanna check his friendster out feel free to. Oh and he works at Sakura, Tampinese Safra they've got pretty yummy dessert there, went with Kris/Krisseh/Apple/KSP/EPPLA. :)

A note to myself about syg.
Got a feelings that i wont be talkin to him for a long time, like the last time. Cause he's busy with his assignments i dont blame him or wants him to feel bad on purpose. And i hate myself cause i alway thinks on the badside. Saw him online afew times but he always ended up offline right after he onlines, feeling that he doesnt wanna talk to me and put his statue "offline" or avoiding me?But i will have to remembered what he said " dont think on the negatives side uh, syg." .... And I LOVE HIM. :) The greatest thing you will ever learned is to love and be loved in return.

LONGGG POST

2008-08-06T20:58:00.007+10:00

Yesterday was alright.

Went to school earlier than usual but i didnt say that i was on time! *wink2*

Headed to GOALS class to LTC, but when i was outside i didnt feel right wasnt in the mood for GOALS i guess? Then went to my usual spot sat under the sun read my storybook from page 87 to 107. Than went to Home economic.

After MorningTea went to my new MathA class, i kinda miss the MathB class already.. sighhhh. And it was soo freaking easy ok(!), in the mathA class!!.

Oh and i checked my mail, i got the interview! But when winnie came home she told me that i dont need to worry about the interview anymore and i was kinda shocked and she said " CONGRATS, youre HIRED without the needs to worry about the interview. hahahah SWEET AS!

I told kevin he was happy for me but sad for him cause he applied for 4 times before he was hired so did Joyce his sister. they both applied 4 times before they got in. I am lucky because my sister recommended me so did james.

Today is good, 10 mins late for school thats a BIG IMPROVEMENT for me! Cooked in Home Economic, well i didnt really cook it the only thing i cooked is the eggs and my job was just to boiled it ! hahaha... damn i am gonna be a shit mum next time oh and yeah i made chicken caesar salad! Anyway, i stayed back after school to catch up on my graphic work. fully understand now even though its confusing and messy but i guess i wil be able to cope with it? GO SHANIE~!

Saw Kevin, Jason, Shuan and zhang zi(eww). But kevin didnt see me, cause he wasnt wearing his specs. He dropped his ice cream and he thought no one knows about it.. hahaha, well too bad I SAW IT.!

Caught the 385 bus, saw K.T on the bus, chatted and he was being kinda flirty. Oh well, hes CUTE :D! he's from NY thought he was from Papau New Guinea. He asked for a massage but i said i dont know how to. and he asked for a hug was kinda uncordinated but the second one was better, thanks to the bus driver, he suddenly brake and i went forward so we hugged each other really tight, hehees i dont mind :D. and we exhanged number and he couldnt spell my name. Hes doing a Jewellery business now. good for him. He got off the bus at Paddington / Paddo.

Kevin told me that alex was at Kiosk and asked if i wanted to meet up with him. And we did meet up with him. :D Saw Joyce, Kuini, James, joyce's friend, Alex and Winnie. Chatted abit with James, and he keeps saying congrats i know i got into Maccas and he said cant wait to work with you.. and blah blah blah.. Gave kuini her Bday present. :D went home with alex, we chatted alot and he said " we are good friends right, you will tell me everything right?" i said " yeh? go on say ask what you wanna ask.." he said " Are you going out with James?" me " HELL NO, where did you heard that from?" he asked me to shutup and say i dont believes in rumor so i wanna know the truth from you and he said Mathew told him, the problem is mathew is not even in my SCHOOOL and the rumors can spread till Kelvin Grove state high! And we chatted alot and explained why ppls think we are so close. And i said" cause sometimes i will link him and hug as a GOOD friend" he got"angry" and said " why dont you LINKED ME? or HUG?, arent we close?? or am i just pretending to be close to ya?" and i linked him to make him happy and me happy. but i did it for awhile onlyy. And i told him that i liked him before, and he now knows that alric, james and kevin would go out with me *bfgf* and he said if he joins into maccas it would be a 5 triangle, hahahah. cause alric, james, kevin and me will all be working in the same maccas and kevin, james and alric is all related as in blood. We didnt board onto the train when we got to the train station we waited for the next train cause we got abit of catch up to do. And the annoying thing is the feelings came back, i like the way we talked and flirt around and the he touches my hair. And i couldnt go to TAIWAN to attend his brother's wedding and he said " youre gonna missed out, cause i invited you so you would be my partner for my brother's wedding" and he got 2 houses in taiwan and we already planned which one we're gonna stayed. but now really depend on my dad's luck and if he've got the money for me to go back spore and taiwan.

Not that im being thicked skin or anything, if last year i didnt went back during october i might be alex's gf cause he broke up with her after the long night chat with him a few days before. And during Feb/March this year, he asked me to say "iloveyou" to him but i didnt. I dont know, arghh i hate this kinda feelings and he said that he wouldnt ask the girl to be his gf, he will let it happen eventually like holding hands and stuffs. And our hands bumped into each other and there was a prickly like you know how you can get shocked by touching someone else sometimes? yeah, that was the prickly pain. But i know that we will not happen cause we are just only good friends........ oww.. only miracle will works now.

Oh me and marcelle pictures :

Picture 2(No MakeUp) , Time was about 1 plus am, just got home, in my pjs. :D

A CALAMITOUS day.

2008-08-05T19:57:00.004+10:00

Today is a calamitous day.

Everything didnt seems to be the way i wanted to be or like it should be??

I changed my math class from B to A. And that new class of mine is just full of people with no brains? Those who think they are "COOL". And aussie just thinks that asians are clever so did the teachers! It weird that how i walked into the class and the most pestiferous guy just had to comment about it" Oh look, SHANIE is in our class now." Is there a ISSUE about it? WHAT I CANT DO MATH A? DO I HAVE TO DO MATH B????

The moment i stepped into that nefarious class, i regretted changing math B to math A and has never felt more scrofulous. i still do now. but if i do math B i will keep getting Ds and in math A i could actually get Bs or even better As. And the teacher, Mr Candy, yes Mr CANDY he was like " You got transfer from math B to math A this stuffs must be easy for you." We are learning STATISTIC?! I went to look for Mr McGavin *head of mathematics* to change classes and he thought i was grade 10. hahha. He is like my second favourite teacher? hahaha.I think i got a fetish for math teachers? hahahha. The only teachers i like are math teacher. :D

Was prettty upset today, I felt really stupid? and my friends can tell that something is not right with me? And kevin tried to make me smile it did work for awhile until i saw alex missed call. Then i realised that kevin wasnt quite happy about it. SIGHHH. I dont want him to like me? i just wanna be good friends(!!!) DAMNIT! I smiled when i saw winnie (my sister). wanted a hug but shes working. I wanted to hug someone close and tight but i have to feel comfortable with that person, Ida not here, mum not here, hafiz not heree & alicia not here.. I felt desolated. And i dont want JAMES TO HUG ME, but its rude to reject but since i feels uncomfortable i think its ok to reject right? plus he hugs me tight and really long even when i push him, he didnt let go? felt disgusted(!!!) EWWW~! Thinking of it make me SICK! WEUK!

Oh this is irrelavant to the topic above ^.
It randomly hits me, this is to syg,
I love you, do you love me? this is the msg that you sent me afew weeks ago, and it actually flicked me and wanted to reply "HELL YEAH, of course i do!" Now i wanna ask you the same qs that you asked me. " I love you, do you love me? *seriously*

Multi - Emotions.

2008-08-04T21:56:00.005+10:00

Baby,
I running outta breathe! I seriously do not know how to communicate with syg, i dunno what topic to talk or have a casual chat. and it seems likee we are DRIFTING APART, it hits straight through my heart. I am hopelessly devoted to you. sighhhh. And i seriously cant wait to go back spore. LoveYoo.

And James helped my to applied in to Maccas. Hopefully i can get in. :) *finger crossed*

And marcelle cant wait for me to be 18 so we can go clubbbingg~~ weewoo! And she told me that some Caucasian like asian eyes, cause it looks like almond shape, and its has a starting and ending point. cool shat~! And shes gonna put like makeup on me, she sucha a proffessional at beauty and fashion..

OHHH and my abang "ewul" he said he will help out with my airplane ticket back to spore. I checked and its $1438.06 how "cheap".

Hmm i swear i got more to tell. but i cant remembered.

Aww man, i am feeeling horrible/sad/unloved/depressed/condemm/annoyed
/frustrated/FAT. PMS-ing? cant be cause i just had my period. :(

Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday PICCAS.

2008-08-02T12:46:00.007+10:00

Hello earthlings. :D

Took some photos of myself for my art, and some zoom in parts and edited*contrast and add words ONLY*, will upload later.

Was super ultra mad at James on friday, he told winnie that I LIKE HIM?! MCM PHM! Winnie then told Connie, Conie finds it weird and ask me " Eh shanie, you like james?!" my replied was " WTF?! HELL NO!" please la! I did told him that I THOUGHT i like him cause we were so close that time but than i realised the most we could be is just good friends, cause he turn me off sometimes and when i look at him to many times i finds it digusting and wanan run away. LOLS. I realised people who go out without combing or style their hair really turn me off badly no matter how hawt you are it still turn me off!

Went out to the movies on thursday with james and kevin. OMFG, james look HORRIBLE when he straigthen his fringe and he finds it nice?! i finds it EWWW! but i didnt dare to tell him. : i watched Dark knight. :D its was alright.

Work on friday, was super tired through half way, broke a plate but they dont mind. Craving for chocolate so i went to the ventin machine and got some, not fresh taste kinda yucky..

On saturday, went out with marcelle and sophie, saw keira, damian and brooke. They're going to nathan's gigs. So we went walked around the cityy, and saw my friends, marcelle and sophie didnt realised that i got that many chinese friends. and headed to Southbank to get food. I bought Fish&Chips. Chatted about who is going out with who and who broke up with who and why. hahahahha. Then we remembered that nathan's gigs is around the corner so we went to Coordelia Street. And the gigs is soo GAY! its soooo SHIT! that was my first time to a gig show and i didnt know it would be that shit. And its nathan's turn we have to pay $10 to get in! WTF?! i so did not wanna pay but for the sake that nathan is the singer. Didnt expect he would be the singer. And we dressed like we are meant for shopping not to those hardcore music gigs. we left right away after he finished. Went back to the city and we sat opposite Casear a club, and there was a MEOWWW~ CATFIGHT! but the bloody bus blocked our view.!! so we went opposite hahahha, we are such busybody! Than sophie dad came and pick her up at 12.15am, headed home. Marcelle slept over, will upload some pictures :D on the next post cause now camera battery flattt. And she trim my hair and she said i look better without makeup :D

SUNDAYY went to church, but then no one was there, they went to the Wine Gallery, and my friend Baptist today. :D she is now officially a christian.

PICCAS~

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2008-07-30T19:12:00.002+10:00

Yesterday was alright. Hung out with marcelle and sophie the whole day at school, avoided the asians. Got molested by marcelle, she grabbed my boobs to prooof to sohpie that we are "lesbian partners" yehhh. maddy fouly thinks we are close we are alway together.. Loves hanging out with the girls, they remind me of the old days i used to have back in Grade 9. Time FLIESSSSSS

I seriously dislike sue now. she is so bossy, arrogant and thinks shes the one who incharge of us, she pisses everyone off its just that we haven say anything nasty to her. Oh well.

Todayy

Nothing much, missed out on goals, we are doing rock climing at the moment, fun for the new comers boring for the old ones.
I fell bad, ditching Kevin for James when i met up with him maybe cause we have something more in common and we speak english too, while Kevin usually speak chinese to us. And i could tell that Kevin was kinda bored and pissed off, cause i ditched him? i dunno. James told me that Kevin really likes me. BUT i just wanna be good friends i dont wanna be more than just friend and i dont intend to cause i really like syg. Kevin hinted me before that he wants a gf. And i replied “oh ok.. i dont fall for chinese guys at all. except Alex." : I would rather be straight forward.. And i felt really annoyed and stress cause james keep telling me those stuffs, and i was cut at him and he apologize. I went home after that..

And I really miss syg alots. I miss his face :D his cute face.!

Worst day ever. plus swollen eyes.

2008-07-28T21:21:00.004+10:00

The WORST DAY EVER.

Woke up late for school. caught the 385, the fucking bus driver is a PRICK. I last min pressed the bell to get off, and he could actually stop the bus BUT no, he drove pass and stop at the next stop. so me and the other 2 seniors walk back the school.

And during english, kevin asked me what my teacher wrote on the board and what it meant, and i tried to explain and my teacher was taking the attendant and i replyed rudely and Sue said " so fierce for what?" i didnt say anything to her. i was even more angry, and i tried to explain to kevin AGAIN, allie was talking to me but i couldnt understand what the heck she was talking about and i yelled at her " YOURE SO ANNOYING" then Sue said "wtf? so fierce for what?" Fuck i feels so bad, i wanted to go over to sue and give her a SHARP SLAP ACROSS HER FACE! And i apologise to allie and she said its ok shes not mad at all. All thanks to my fucking period, the moodswing and bloody sue.

And i bought the LONSDALE bag already, winnie say its common connie finds it ugly, i finds it nice and i like it and thats all it really matters. :D we quarrel and i cried. i cried lotsa of times today and i feels like shit now annd Swollen eyes. so yeahh. REALLLY WANTS TO SEE SYG ON WEBBY AND TALK TO HIM. But he went offline when i said hi so yeahh.

i reckon it was the worst day of the year so far~ theres MORE but i really don wanna talk about it.

Dichotomy

2008-07-26T12:23:00.004+10:00

My "every month bestfriend" came last night during work.. thank god i was prepared :D BUT i didnt know that i didnt have any spares one anymore. i have one more for the night but i didnt know i run out of them! and i had to wake up and go and buy it. I was at the shop and i got the pads and she didnt give me a bag. i said " Can i have a bag please?!" she's like "OH yeah, of course" and we both laughed. as if i am gonna hold that thing without a bag and walk all the way home for 15 mins.

And connie was kinda pissed off. LIKE WTF?! early in the morning and youre angry at me?! sometimes she had a small arguement with her bf i am the innocent one who she vents her anger at. And kevin called. Having dinner with him later, he ask if i wanna go meet him at 6.30 in the city, i said " yeah im going, dont wanna stay home. Connie is giving me a hard time as if i owe her money."

OH im having problem with my Art asssignments already which we havent even start on the task, but i have read through the task already.. Its about Dichotomy this term and through half the next term. I cant think of any dichotomy in my life. I was gonna do makeup. but than i cant cause its have been used before. I guess it will come to me eventually. god bless me. :)

sighhh.. i miss Idaa alot. :(

Oh yeah, i failed BADLY for my sememster 1. I failed, english and math and got a B for chinese for the FIRST TIME! and for Art from A to C. i cried when i saw my result. My dad was FURIOUS! And i seriously need tution. so i might go to those tutorial after school and read more books to improve my english.

Late Queeen.!

2008-07-21T22:49:00.004+10:00

OMFG.
I was super duper ultra LATE for school. Got there around 11.50am! when school starts at 8.45. hahahaha i knw i knw. but i was so tired and it was soooo COSY & WARM. Oh well, went to school and only attended math class, after that i've spares. heheh. I felt so condemm. :(

anyways went to the city with james and we chatted lotsa stuffs, they are all kept under the categery of "CONFIDENTAL" hahahahah. it was really an interesting convos we had.

ANDD i saw that cute guy yesterday on the bus at the traffic lights in the city! ahhh! and i told james about it, and he ask me to make a move. I was like "eh" not gonna happen, dont think i have that much confidentss! : And i saw him on the bus again today on my way homee.. hawtttttttttt. BUT my syg is Cute okkayyyy. <3

OH, kevin likes me! but he doesnt LOVE me, but he would go out with me thou. man i love james! he is sucha nosy beyotchhh. hahahhah! oh well.

gotta go to bed now, if not i am late againnn!

My Shatty Day, Allie.

2008-07-20T18:17:00.004+10:00

Woke up around 9 ish today. Woke up by syg msg. :D i was sleeeping in winnie's room and i think i woke kuini and winnie up so they stare at my when i turned around, i freaked out. was pretty hyperactive for the today and abit pissed off.

Woke up headed to the city, met up with allie, jason, john and alex at FunHouse. Then went to Sunnybank. Was suppose to meet up with Sue but she have to help her sister with the agent stuffs cause her sister just arrived today. And jas0n went off to meet his friends and left with Alex, allie and john. Had lunch waited for Sue and went back to the city. It bwas pretty much just having lunch there at sunnybank if we knew that we were just having lunch there i rather stay in the city..

Was pissed off cause alex and john were like living i their own world today, super UNORGANISE and Boringg. Told allie a secret today only like 2 people knows about this secret in australia. idaa knows. :D i have kept the secret for like 1 years plus already.. OVERALL today was kinda SHITTY. except for the last part when me and allie were shopping in David Jones i saw a white blouse! SOOOO GORGEOUSS! I really want it thou have been searching something like that for agess! but it didnt have the price on and i bet its expensive so i gave up plus there were foundation on it.

On the way home i saw this really OMFG guy. he is even more gorgeous than the one i saw at FunHouse the other day. He's definately not an aussie he must be a mixed blood guy. omg so cute cann. man i am sucha a BITCH, allie told me that i am a bitch today. I, Shanie, Agrees with what Allie said. Oh i was really rude today to my friends today was being a total bitch but they accepted it. They are worse than me at times. Its just that i am not in the mood for the WHOLE NICE-Y SWEET GIRL. My personality is kinda more to the bitchy type. Ida knows. :)

Oh when i reach home today, undress and put on my tracks and my jacket, while i was putting my jacket on i had a singlet on and my sister bf walks in, NO BIG DEAL REALLY, he was all embarass and said sry. I told him it was ok i wasnt like half naked or getting dressed. then connie got angry and said DONT YOU KNOW HOW TO CLOSE THE DOOR?! damnit! not like i am getting DRESSED!?! ARGHHH.

Oh Allie told me that she once was selected to get into Queensland Academy & Brisbane State High but then she rejected it. WHY? cause they wanted to check her family background before she is allowed to enrolled into that school. WHY CHECK FAMILY BACKGORUND? To see if youre rich or qualify. WTF RIGHT?! And 60% are all Asians, 20 - 30 % Indians and 10% Aussies. T.T Whatever.

No more MATH B for SHANIE! YAY!

2008-07-19T19:43:00.004+10:00

Today woke up super latee. around 2ish. heheh.

Had KFC for lunch. and yeah msg-ed james, he asked if i wanna go to the city but i cant be bother too lazy plus i already planned to stay home today and study for abit.
Looking through the pamplets that James got it for me from the Unis that he went, i dont have to do Math B to get into Bachelor of Interior Design. YAY! YAY! YAYY! OH BTW, my cousin said its healthy to say "YAY" cause it make you happy. SO YAY!

Connie say i am different when i talk to Hafiz, but i dont think so eh. Well she's different when she talks to Corey, WHY? cause he is her BF, THATS WHY! well i wont say hafiz is my bf YET but you talk differently when you like someone rightt? righttt? *agree with me >:( *

Oh my when i went online just now i saw hafiz online then suddenly disconnected i went back on he's offline.. sighh. Oh well he sent me this msg before i went online,

" A second without your agelic presence, makes me lifeless till e end of time. Your light shines on me during my darkest days. iloveu very much. muacks" So sweeet ok maybe to me uh. but for some reason i feel really down.

Happy Bday Syg. <3

2008-07-18T23:23:00.005+10:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO TAUFIQIL HAFIZ!!

Happy birthday to SYG! love you lots.

Updates for the last few days.

every since school started, shanie become more and more restless. And me and james is like TIGHT buddies now. People are assuming that we're together and its that bloody sue who keeps saying it and James's cousin, KEVIN WU! Sue wouldnt like it if i did what she did to me like assuming people as a couple. She would be extremely CUT at me. she's the kind of person that you cant be straightforward to sometimes and cant be judge or joke around. she would be reallly pissed off.

Went to FunHouse *arcade* to hang around, thats where mostly all the ABC hangs. They are like bloody nerds but yet so good at games!! they are mostly As students and all goes to Bisbane State High or Queensland Academy or Bisbane Boy College. In order to get into those school, you either have to live near the city / really clever / richh.

And i knows lots of ABC and clever peeps from james. And he showed me who's Leanna, which is a girl that his brother and most guys thinks that she is pretty, BUT james's brother Alric who thinks i am better than leanna. I realised james often ask me what i thought of those guys after he introduced them to me, like e.g, his brother, Alric. well he got a babyish face who is shit at speaking chinese and is addicted to porn. MY GOD he looks so INNOCENT but yet so "Dirty". And he would go out with me but thinks i would dumped him pretty fast and thats what i told james if i really did go out with him. Oh well. And Alvin's mom is back from taiwan which means he wont be hanging out with us anymore, a pretty/vain boy indeed.

I met Erica who is James bestie, first impression can be BAD. I judge her, but i didnt start first she did. I was looking around while waiting for james to arrive at the bustop and this girl *erica* caught my attention cause i saw her judging someone else. BAD! and i was thinking, " like you can judge her cause of her thick make-up?! and you have the most typical yet ugly hair band on your head" Moments later i saw james hugging her and he introduced me to her and i was like "SHIT" and i cant stop giggling, like dont you think its funny how sometimes when you judge someone and that someone happens to be your friend's friend?? yeah. didnt really want to chat with her at all.

Hung out with Alric, kevin, james, jason and jeremy today at FunHouse was loooking at kevin and jason dancing on the "DDR" aka Dance Dance Revolution. And FIRST time i saw this guy who is an asian who is INSANTLY CUTE! He was off the HOOK! Big eyes, tall, hawt, gorgeous hairstyle and clear face! PRETTY. Didnt dare to look at him cause you know how you can get all nervous and tight up when you saw someone who is like drop dead gorgeous?! but i stared for abit, whenever i look over somehow he will knows that i am looking at him.. ahhh~ and James's friend knows HIM! but they aint that close. so TOO BAD SO SAD. :( And alric was smilling at me today, i know he's trying to make a conversation but he just dunno what to talk about, me neither so we didnt really talk. Like he goes HEY SHANIE. pauseeeeeee. and we both stood there awkwardly and wait for james and kevin to get maccas. lols. I'm loving my after school life now. its awesume and its more social now unlike last time, sch, home, lappy, tv, sleeep and school.

Didnt work today, really wanted to go to church today, and i made up a excuse saying i have to babysit while my sister is out with her bf for dinner. And someone kept calling me but i didnt know who was it and when i called back he/she didnt picked up and when he called i didnt pick up. And when he/she calls again i pick up and it was JUSTIN! aka Justin Timberlake LOLS. he calls me Lexy *korean singer/dancer* aka sexy LOLS. he rolls pretty fast in school. He's cute i like him as a friend, he looks silly thats why. :D And he wanted to hang out with me but i couldnt cause im going to church. so too bad.

Oh and Sue's sister is coming to australia to study, same age as me but she have to go through a English Language School and she have to take a test to see which grade she is qualified to be in. how excitingg. :D

Alright going off. STILL sitting at the back balcony leeching off someone else wireless connection. remember its winter? IT'S FREEZING OUT HERE, ESPECIALLY IN THE FREAKING MORNING, smoke comes outta my mouthh whenever i breathe through my mouth..

WOOOOTS! BYEEE i am off webcaming with syg..

New skin. my virginity. :D and PICCAS

2008-07-13T22:51:00.011+10:00

QUOTE: The Grestest thing you will ever learn is just to LOVE and to be LOVED in RETURN.

Yesterday. Saturday.

Sighhh. woke up at 4 pm yesterday! went to bed at 3 plus. hahhahahah. i know i am a bigg fat pigggyy. and connie had a chat with me, about how i changed and doesnt study hard. and whatever i say or try to explain she wont believe. and i cried silently without her knowing, i cried till i felt reallly dizzy thought i was gonna faint at that moment. and i was really down that day and i went to my back balcony with my lappy the suddenly got wireless conection so HAPPY. then i told connie then we both sat at the balcony leeching off someone else connection.. LOLS.

Then chatted with james, damn he roll fast.. he broke up with his gf on last sunday and he had sex with his friend on that day.! and he got me a pamplet from UQ and QUT, Architecture. and bulding environment, engineering. I LOVE YOU JAMES! YOU ROCKK! he is like my closest guy friend. love him!

And i cried at night again. for some reason i feel very uncomfortable and insecure about myself. and i called connie then she was like WHAT?! then i said " nothing.." then she forced me to say. then i start cryinggg. hahhahahaha. then she said " your case easy la. telling me that you are fat when i am soo much fatter then you. what are you talking about.?!" then we laughed. i just have to let it out to feel good. she said " corey *sister'sbf* say why is shanie so skinny?" then i replied in my weird voice after crying " no uh. he is fat la thats why he thinks i am skinny. compare to asian i counted fat la." walao i dont have any confident in myself at all. and i dont think hafiz love me that much anymore. thats bad, he once told me try not to think about then negative side.

TODAY.

woke up at 1 plus. ok uh better then yesterday. BUT late for church already, so didnt go. stayed home and use internet. changed my blogskin! i searched for a longggg time i think is like the nicest one? oh well. and i need to put a CHATBOX in. KRIS I NEED YOUR HELP! and i wanna change the 4 picture at the side to my pictures. :D but photobucket is being a bitch, so sloww.

i made some grass jelly, mum sent us this powder 2 years ago. and i checked the date not yet expired so i boiled it and make it! :D smell weird but hope it taste good. :)

Just kena scolded by winnie cause i never return her multicharge and she started yelling at me. man i wanted to laugh out LOUD! ahahahha. and whatever i do i alway get scolding. like i dont pack my mattress when i sleep in her room or put away i get scolded. today i put the mattress away into my dad's room, she came to me and said where the mattress i was like i put it away then she say why. then i said i put away i also get scolding i dont also get scolding. what the heck right?! oh well. whatever.

OH OH OH me and ida had this most random, funny & AWESUME talk on msn. hahahhahaha!!!! so cheeeeky!!! oh and when i wanna lose my viriginty i want it to be special. i told ida this :

[-`▪Ñurul hãÑï€-]:.™ ♥ says:
actually i dont mind losing it to some i LOVE but i want it to be special
ida_ says:
yeap
ida_ says:
but to be safe la ok girl, not yet
[-`▪Ñurul hãÑï€-]:.™ ♥ says:
i want it to be like at the beach like staring at the stars then later have sex for the first time also nice.

hehehehhe. *hinthint* *wink*

Just had my dinner at 11 plus, macdonald. feeel fat! urrghhhhh.....

oh oh oh JOKE TIME!!!! Featuring Jaime the blonde and Relish.
My friend jaime. she is very blonde to be precise she's a bimbo ok. she looks like a barbie uhh.

she was telling her story " ...... omg i was so scared i thought i was gonna faint but i didnt know how to faint." LOLS. hahahahhahaha! ok dont think thats funny?

Here's one. Relish is black ok. they were talking about those fake tan spray and Jaime said " oh i never tried them before, have you relish?" Relish said " OH YEAH, I tired them b4!?!" *SARCASTICLY* and jaime said " Really? did it work?" Relish said " Jaime, I AM BLACK." ahhahahahah.. so ...stupid?

A picture of my niece. MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE.!!!

Tuesday, Thursday & Friday

2008-07-12T00:48:00.003+10:00

hmm.

Went shopping at Indroopily i think thats how you spell it on Thurday, anyway i got a pair of Jean(tube?) and a long shirt not excalty a shirt but yea. don't know how to explain it but yeahh. and slept over at my friend place the day before. OMG, my friend is like a tortise?! she walk super slowwwwwwwwwwwwwww and she takes like 5 clothes into the change room and when she comes out she doesnt want any of them. And she keeps walking into me and accidentally bang me and steps on my shoes. walao the FIRE inside me BLASTTTTTTTTT. But i couldnt bear to raise my voice at her, First she is older then me.. respect, Secondly, she didnt did that on purpose. Third, she looks really silly and stupid. :

Went to the movies on Tuesday, watched HANCOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hell yeahh!!! but i was feeling noxious and sick during the movie. WALAOWEI! somemore during HANCOCK movie! sighhh. and i was feeeling extremely HAWT! i really didnt enjoyed it and really wanna watch it againn. then went back to my friend home after the movie ended. we made our own dinner! and it wasnt the yummiest food i ever ate, but it was better then nothing righhhttt?!$!#$

And i realised, sunday is the only happy day in the week. Cause i spend half a day at CHURCH! :D no one scold me. no one nag me. no one is being sarcastic to me. no one ask me to do this to do that. AND most of all i feel LOVEDDDD. :) i dont even wanna go home ok! i dont feel that loved at home nor at school not even from hafiz... he's not that sweeet anymoree. ever sincee he started his poly after his first holis. feeels like he is treating me as a friend sometimes. and he sent "Good night!" i saw the msg i was like haixxx. adds in a "syg/hun/baby" would be really nice?!!!! But better then no msg from him righttt. :)

Today, Friday.

Work was rather busyyy!!!! man i hate sitting down. i cant sit too long my ass will be like really painful and i will start moving/figiting??around. nothin much about today..

alrightyy. ciao ciao~

New Post.

2008-07-06T00:10:00.002+10:00

BACKY BACK BACK. -.-

ok i cant remember the dates when those events i gonna tell you happened, but it happened.

First,
My friends Bday party. Kevin's & Jay's. 17 & 18 on saturday. bought an ipod, adidas tracksuit, and a nike shirt. Ipod from My sisters, and his working place friends and me. the other is from other friends at school.
And Jay's Bday presents are 2 packs of Glow In The Dark Condom and the other one is the same but with a Vibrator Ring in it. HOW COOL! and i chose it, my friend all scare/malu/paisey. LAME la. somemore i got those when i was wearing my school uniform in the city. LOLS. dont think that theres is anything to be ashamed about. I am not proud of it either. and got him a nike shirt as well and a Special Voucher we made for him, if he ever wants to go to the salon to cut his hair, he have to pass us the Voucher we made and we will give him the money. HOW COOL!

And the party was pretty fun. And i just found out that i know LOTS of thing on SEXUAL stuffs, eg. why girls bleed when they first have sex. I read that off my science book i think i read it off somewhere and i asked before. And after i explain to the girls WHY. and the boys start to think that i am not a VIRGIN. -.- COME ON LA! and the bday boy, JAY, held my hand and ask
"SERIOUSLY shanie, How many times have you done it with your bf??!" i gave him a stare and i say " i am still a euffing virgin for you information." GEEZ! do i seriously have a look that doesnt look like a virgin.

We cut the cake, i ordered the cake, a K and a J together and on the letter we wrote something on it. it was soo GOOD, i mean its so fresh cause i ordered the day b4 the party. hahahah. i know last minute! And they open up the presents and Jay was like WTH? CONDOM?!?! and we ended up open the pack with 12 in it. and we all took one. its a mixed one. i got the green one and its glow in the dark. and they said put it in your wallet it keep the money in. so i put it in my wallet, if i happens to meet any of you who is reading this blog you can ask me and i can show you if you want.

Hair, Alicia, PICTURES.

2008-06-11T19:16:00.008+10:00

Yesterday, i woke up early for once!, and but still late for school cause of traffic. THANKS TO THE TRAFFIC. Went to school, blahblahblah, during lunch went to COLES with sue, got cheesecake, tolerone and a sushi. got to sch by the time i finished my cheesecake, i VOMIT everything out. For some reason my tummy cannot handle it. and its lumpyy and WHITE. ewwww. hahahhaha.

Went to the city and look for my sister, she was very pissed off and i kena YELL at for nothing?!!? was kinda cut at her.. Then she went for Medicure to pamper herself abit and relax, while i HAVE to look after her baby for 1hr pluss. -.- i was pushing the pram and ppls were giving weird looks!? WATEVER! Went to look for Winnie to accompany to loook after giselle when i reached winnie working place, Giselle fall asleep alreadyy.. SO CUTEE! Whilee waiting for winnie to knock off i was playing her psp. SO FUN OK! the wormy bomb game. i will find out whats the name of the gamee!

Today, went to Marcelle's working place cause she need someone to be her "Doll". so i promise her i will be it. and she dyed my hair more to a Caramello colour! LOVE IT. suits me better. then the one before looks dull on me.. Her working place is so like, PROFESSIONAL!? then went back to school. reached sch around 1.25pm?

And i pass alicia's bday present from me and connie$100* she was so happy, cause she needed money and more clothes.she carried me and swing like carry caryy! STRONG man!

Was chattin with Ariel. shes cute, and funnny. After that i went to the city with alicia. she bought a Boots with the money we gave her. and hanged aroundd, saw afew HAWT GUYS. I asked her what she thinks of me, like my personality and stuffs. She said "cute, funny,silly.." and i said "nah not those like the bad side of me?" she said" You dont have a bad side.. wait youre SHY!, lack of confidence .." i agreee.. lack of confidence, and the sexier thing about a girl is their confidence. sighhhh... then she went to the bustop and waited for my bus to come, with me. She's sucha awesume friend, not because she accompanied me, everything she done and how she care for me. like super duper sweeet friend ok! love her. and i love you too, ida & kris.

Oh and Hafiz is going to UK at 23rd of June till 27th of June. And corey said " becareful, theres lotsa of hawt girls there!!!" see they are the ones that got me thinking of the negative side. And he haven't make it up to me. the time that we were gonna chat on the phone but then he had to go out cause of his friend. i think he already forgotten about.. i really wanna chat with him on the phone?? he used to often ask me to call him now he doesnt. maybe he's too busy with his life? sighhh.. i guess what ida said is right.

AND im kinda envy kris, cause her bf is like so FUCKING SWEEEET ok! its like a bf that everybody wants! not that i want him, like she said " he's yr bf and yr best friend." ISNT that like AWESUMEE!? sighhh.

Some pictureee! i was sick that day and connie asked me to do the dishes and i end up breaking it. here's a picture connie took :

And a PLAYBOY pouch, Corey*connie's bf* got for the 3 of us.

Sickk.

2008-06-08T22:31:00.002+10:00

YESTERDAY, went out shopping with Sue. Didnt went to the library. didnt studyy. Bought a dress! LOVE IT!! And meet my suji and a guy. then went for Karaoke and meet sue's friends. they got us alchol. and we went to Southbank sat there with our drinks and tibits. It was relaxingg. And i guess that's how i got my flu, sore throat, running nose and swollen eyes.

TODAY, went to my boss place for his son 21st Bdayy. It was kinda reallly AWKWARD? as i didnt know any of them, and they are like not very sociable kinda ppls, only friendly to their own relatives? OH well, not that i give a damn about it muchh. hugged Jesse, for wishing him happy bday and goodbyeee. hopefully he will be in spore when i go backk, so we can meet up. He's a air steward. Spore is soo far his favouritee placee.

DAMNIT, the trains arent working at Cleveland line. which is my line, my way to go home and to schh! now i have to freaking catch the bus to school, which ia alway super packed!

OK bye for now. really tired and feeeling extremely weakk...

YESTERDAY, TODAY, syg, bum, plans.

2008-06-06T23:50:00.002+10:00

YESTERDAY, didnt went to Art Extension, went out with alicia after school. we havent catch up for a longgggg time. and i really miss it! We went around paddington, cause she's going to check if anyone needs to hire a worker. Sadly the shop that she wanted to apply doesnt short of anyone at the moment..

We then went to the city, bought half a dozen of Krispy Kreme. feel like vomitting after eating it, its really good but really feeeling. Felt really FAT after i ate like 2? :s We walk around the city and wanted to get Gelatimiso Ice cream, the Q was all the way outside the shop, and we find it really cause there's hardly any Q for Gelatimiso Ice cream normally. Then we realised it says " Happy Hours, 50% off ! " THAT'S WHYY! Q for it, and saw the a guy i know from churchh.he couldnt recognize me at first, till i smile widely and he was like " YOURE SUE'S FRIEND rightt?" i said " yeh". Took him awhile..
AND there's sooo many freaking sales around!! and i saw some winter coat that i really liked!!

TODAYY, woke up extremely early cause winnie woke me up.. thats why.. went for math, and english. i was really concentrating on my math and i only had one question i didnt understand SO FAR. ahahhaha. thats good. you knw, for me. Then went to the city during morning tea cause i've sparess. and i bought the skirt, i liked it. connie got "no comment" on it. then went to work after that. was on the bus some old lady infront of me were talking about how packed the bus were, i was gonna give up my seat to her if she stands infront of me. I ended up giving my seat to her. Arent i a nice girl?? :D

Work was okk. My boss invited me to his son's 21st Bday, and he's gonna introduces me to a guy. hahahha. he's 18? fit, tall, big eyes and drives a BMW!?!! at what age, 18?! a BMW already.. probaly their RICH parents bought him. My boss bought a LEXUS car for his son first car, and he crashed it and he bought another LEXUS for him. rich ppl..rich ppl.

AND AND AND, i was realllly HAPPPPY like HAPPY HAPPY, recieving the offline msgs from sygg. it was sweet and random as i havent got it from him for AGES! but we hardly talk that much. and it felt likes we are just friend talking plus add alittle flirting in there. sighhh.
But i think i really have developed feelings for him. no matters what he do, it will affect my mood. like the tiny-est thing can affect my mood. BUT I STILL LOVE HIM.
i dont want to ask for the 3 words from him, i want him to say it naturally and actually mean it. as i think it might be kinda hard.. oh well. i will get over it? ...............................not??

And my bum hurt alot when i sit down. and i hate sitting down now.. i dont know why..

my plans for the weekend :

Saturday : Library, movie and "Gathering"
Sunday : Jesses's 21st bday. Study
Monday : Churnside/Indooporily to buy Everlast bag with alicia. movies. study.
Tuesday : back to school... T.T

James. Lunatic monkey.ImSelfish. PICTURE

2008-06-04T21:25:00.004+10:00

Today, latee againn. whats new?!

didnt really felt like talking to james at all. wasnt cut at him or anything just didnt felt like talking to him. It was freaking funny last night talking to connie, i hardly laugh till i cried these day, i actually drop down onto the floor and laughh like a lunatic monkey! LOLS!

At lunch today i was laughing, well frankly i can almost do a split. so i play with them this game i used to play when i was young. like sicssor paper stone. i went all the way down and i was shocked that hardly anyone can go down that low, and they all play sport?! oh well.

Was thinking alot today and i think i am SELFISH? like hafiz studyed so hard for his exams, i think he deserve to play as much as he want during his holis and not spending time with me. oh well. i dont know. but i do LOVE him :)

And i am kinda gross out by this guy who likes me. oh well. he gave me this "muacks" thing i rejected him and said they are sealed for my bf not for anyone. HAA! and he likes to call me "syg, dear." GOOSEBUMPP.!

OH i bought this really PRETTTTY earpiece today, its GREEEN! LOVE IT!

OH OH OH today connie and i took some picture but only 1 is nice. gonna post..!

yesterday, today, my goal, syg issues. sighhhhh.

2008-06-03T17:02:00.005+10:00

Yesterday, Late for schoool. was raining cats and dogs, so waited for the rain to get smaller then go to sch. dont have an umbrella. need to buy one sooon.
Went to sch just to attend english class, didnt felt like attending any other classes. Handed in my homeworkk. feels happpy. :) i am a weird shit. i am so gonna push my english mark to B-/B/B+, then slowly to A if i can.

Waited for james during period 7 then went to the city with him and kevin to the city afterr. went to Maccas where my sister's works, looks for Kuini and headed to the Arcade, Kuini's friend Jeremy thought that i was going out with kevin?!! Its like a NEVER GONNA HAPPPEN thingg. after arcade kuinis's shout me honey black tea and sushi. :D then went back to my placee. and yeahh. FINISHED MY MATHB ASSIGNMENT!!! so happy.

TODAYY.
Late for sch againn. Re-doing my home.economic works againn. nothing much happen today at all. Tina gave me one of her usb that she doesnt need. she have 7 usb all 1 gb. :O.
And James got a GF~ I chatted with him just now i starts off with:
"Hi, i am james, i still have feeling for my ex, but i still love my gf. i have feelings for both of them, sryforthat. imaBITCH."
He got so cut and said " im not in the mood right now SO FUCKOFF shanie. ure a bitch you know that?!"
what a fuckhead! It was a joke. i hardly say any harsh thing to him. fine whatever. and during lunch the bell went and we have to go to class. he pulled my bag and said go to class, and my friend, Sue said " OOO are you both going out?!" he replyed "KNN". Sue was cut and said "Cant you handle JOKES?! JEEEZZ!" sighhh. saddd.

OH OH OH..
i actually know what kinda life i want to have in the future.

To be a sucessful, Architecture / Interior Designn.
Get married, and honeymoon at Spain, Hawaii, Switzeland & Italy
To have a house near the beach / lake.
Live in Spore / Australia. most probaly australia.
To have a family. with min 2 kidss. :D
A BMW / Lexus 4Wheeldrive.
A Merc sport car. :)

SO GREEEDY i know. only if i become successful in what i want to be in the future then i will have those someday.

UPDATEE

Chatted with connie, suddenly winnie popped out questioning about what i said to James. like seriously COME ON LA! it was a joke rightt? cannot take it isit?! SISSY. so sensitive. So.. GAY! then connie asked winnie " why are you siding james?" i even told winnie that i said "SRY" right after i joked. whatever la seriously. I check my computer and guess what?! JAMES is talking to me, apologising. I ignore it, like i give a damn muchh! *roll my eyes*.

Saw hafiz talking to me. i was happy and now i am really depressed. told him i miss talking to him and stuff and he said :

(¯`·¸•´¯)❤ ļƒîq.ŁøvЭЯō¢k▪.;[- `▪ŦαüƒıQīŁ нағız]:.™ c (¯`·¸•´¯)❤ hãÑï€ ❤ says:
ahahah. let me get myself clear 1st.
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this week got exams.
(¯`·¸•´¯)hãÑï€(¯`·¸•´¯) - ƒîq.ŁøvЭЯō¢k▪ ŦαüƒıQīŁ нағız says:
i knw
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next got chalets and pits.
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whats new.
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3rd week, i mayb go UK with friends.
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that's new.
(¯`·¸•´¯)❤ ļƒîq.ŁøvЭЯō¢k▪.;[- `▪ŦαüƒıQīŁ нағız]:.™ c (¯`·¸•´¯)❤ hãÑï€ ❤ says:
lol.

Sighh. no time for me AT ALL. you tell me, should i be down anot.. and during that time i will have my exams. so i guess its ok? And for some reasons i am really annoyed that he doesnt have anytime for me at all. and i dont really wants to talk to him at all right now, oh btw he isnt talking to me either. SIGHH..very pathetic can?! *weary eyes* cannot even chat for like what 10 mins?! forget it lahh. rather him not talk to me for the whole term then talking to me bits by bits.
And i doubt that he even visits my blog noww.

WELL i guess i should be worried about other things then worry about this stupid things.

Friday, Saturday & Sunday

2008-06-01T17:29:00.002+10:00

On Friday, woke up early!!! wasnt late for schh! and it was raining, i threw my umbrella away cause it flipped over on thursday night it was soo embrassing. Lost my Usb on the BUS! sighhhh. My mathB assignmnent is in there, my Home economic Information is in there. i almost went CRAZYYYYY ok!!!!! Skip Art went to the city with sue and suji. Then went back to sch at 3 to meet Marcelle and we bought some chocolates and went to her placee. we got dressed and took lotsa picturees!!! And went to Fashion Paradee! it was kinda bad not what i expected it to be like. they said it was so much better on Thursday then Fridayy. Well Sleptover at Marcelle's place.

On Saturday, woke up at 6ish, marcelle need to work. Reached the city at 8am. Look for winnie cause she was workingg. then chatted with her while she is working till 10.10am went to catch the bus to meet Sue and Allie. going to Allie house. she taught me how to do my MathB Assignments. I get it!!
Then later sue was gonna go to church and i went to the city with her to look for Marinda. And marinda asked if i wanna go to the church too. Got a feeling that sue didnt want me to go, cause when marinda asked me she answered for me and said" oh she said she's gonna go home", i said " ok why not. never been to the chinese church b4." HAA! stupid B****!
I love the church! I was really happy! and it was FUNN! someone commented me that i was prettty :D and cute :D! it was a LONGG day reached home at 11.

SUNDAY, stayed home was gonna do my MathB but i remembered i lent Shaun my MathB Assignment Sheet and he didnt return! was irratated, told allie and she type out for mee. awww! ty!! Chatted with this guy, and he confess to me that HE LIKES ME. he said he cant stop viewing my pics and he's 21 mly. he calls me "syg, dear & sweety" i asked him why do you call me that? its weird?! he said other ppls cannot call you that meh? i say got uhh. then he said i wont call you that, but he still did. WELL i still LOVE MY HAFIZ BABY. :) wonder hows he's doingg. :)

Winter arrives.

2008-05-29T22:38:00.006+10:00

LETS SEE..
MON - LATEE
TUES - LATEE
WED - SPARES PLUS 5 MINS LATEE
THURS - LATEE

I seriously cant wake up, you knw why? FIRST, its so warm and cosy in the morning snugging under my blanket and its COLD! SECOND, lack of sleeeep. THIRD, it's WINTER man! what do you expect?!

Today was SUPER DUPER COLDDD! i regretted not wearing my scarf. Plus its raining noww. Even more coldd~ Was shiveringg today.
After sch Art extension, we have models in to pose for us to draw. there's 2 models. 1st was so-so, 2nd was chubby? it was so boringg. and theres hardly anyonee! cause everyone went for the Fashion Parade, i am so going tomorroww! Going over to Marcelle's place tomorrow and slack till Fashion Parade starts.

On Tuesday, i was laughing till i cried. My teacher was doing something reallly stupid! cant stop laughing...

IDA'S BDAY ON TUESDAYYY! I LOVEEE YOUU!! AND YOU KNW I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED MEE! EVEN THOUGH I MIGHT NOT BE BY YOUR SIDE, BUT IN SPIRIT I WILL.

Late. moody. Art. sporean. bored

2008-05-26T21:52:00.003+10:00

Today SUPER late for sch. left house at 8.40 when im suppose to be in form class already.
Take my own sweeet timee. For some reason i was kinda moody, till i sat in the train the lady smiled at me in a really sweet way, i got really SHY!? and smile back. was happy for the half morning..

Did my art abit. Need to bring a pilloww. waited for james and headed to city, he treat me GELATI, Rum and Raisin! I think my favourite is Rum&Raisin. so nice okk! better than mango. Then meetup with my sister, bought food home and waited for the freaking bus for 1hr plus!

Then my friend allie, she introduced me this guy who is a SPOREAN! but he lives up at the Gold Coast uh. so we chat only, hes 17 and he is like super lame and thicked skinn! Add him up in friendster. and yea. a really boring day. i got nothin to blog about now. Goonnaa do English hmwk now. night night ppls! xox.

Art. Movies. Mariyln Monroe!. Weird.

2008-05-25T20:51:00.004+10:00

Today went to sch, reach there at 10! the train was super late...! Reached sch, do ArtArtArt. Then went to get FAIRY FLOSS! and a sausage roll, it was ok.. not that great. Then went to get Rum and Rasin Gelati! It was sooo FREAKING GOOOD!

Hang out with marcelle after the Art thingyy, went to the city and watch a movie, Maid of Honour. I LOVE it!! i reckon its goood!! and this lady is a freak? she dresses like Marilyn Monroe ----> *ONLY GOT HER SIDE VIEW!*

And wwe overheard her saying that guys often ask for her number when she is sitting down eating, or ppls wanting to take a picture with her! WHO DOESNT?! she is euffing hilaries!

Marcelle and me went off to Best & Less and we found something rather INTERESTINGG!

Umm, Marcelle with a Double D size Bra? LOLS!! isnt she HAWT? she have blue eyes. OHYEAHH!

Andd me holding a Size 22 Granny UNDIE! when i wear size 10? LOLS!! ewww!

We headed home after the movies, we cant stop laughing from the conversation we overheard and the movie, Glow in the Dark Thunder BEADS! EWW.. LOLS!

I went to the train station and lotsa ppls have been giving us weird looooks!! cause its sunday we were wearing our school uniform and we looks like a total freak? wearing uniform on sunday!? someone came up to me and ask me why?? i said " its open day when parents come to our sch and explore and learn more about it." they were like " OHH thats why!" i was like yeahh.. keep walking now :D! hahahhaa..

Giselle. weight. random guy. sch

2008-05-24T22:51:00.002+10:00

Today woke up a couple of times, woke up from giselle crying. naughty girl, doesnt wanna sleeep. woke up at 11am i think. Do housechores then use lappy to watch some movies. watched 'Just Friends" its sooo FUNNY! , "Beowulf" pretty shit "Jumper" not bad, "Stardust" and " Ratatouille" love it! :D

I think i put on weight, kim say my bum got perkier and and boobs got bigger?. wonder if thats good or bad. and yehh babysits for 4 HOURS, she had been a goood girl so its okk. :)

Chatted with SYG on msnn... he said brb but i knw he will be goneeeee..
Some guy added me and my sister, he asked me if i going back to spore anot, i said "yeh for holis", and he said" so i can meet you like that." and i said " i dont remember me promised you that i will meet you." ... OH btw he's 26, chinese. :s and connie sorta knw him. she didnt like him so she forced me to delete and block him. well i dont really care so i did.

Well i am going to bed sooon, going to school tomorrow at 7.30am. yawnnn! its sunday tomorrow btww. might be meeting james at the city to muck around for abit.. :)

Night2 ppls. <3

Worklink. Mr Quaid. Mly private part. Sex. Work. Syg.

2008-05-23T23:06:00.002+10:00

This morning from period 1-3 went to the workline experience program, damnn the presentor was so worked up when he talks. and he sounded like a salesman instead. hahahah well then later he admit that when he was in UK he worked as a salesman. MAN i cant wait to June Holis to attend the workline programs experience which mean i get to experience architecture/ interior design workk for 5 days straight. :D and i have to dress like one too?! so interesting ok! but i amnot too sure if i have any clothes that are suitable. gonna buy apair of heels. :)

And during Art, i am attracted to my ART TEACHER, MR QUAID! he doesnt looks good at first but after awhile he is actually rather quite attractive.! He helped me out with my clay*its so freaking hard to shape it!* , and yeahh.. and going back to sch on SUNDAY, yup sunday. hahahah. open day, parents will come to the school and visit well my class will stay in he classroom and do our sculpture. not for the parent for ourselves!.

Hung out with Marcelle for abit after school, and left for work. Work was ok, slept for awhile b4 things get started. And i was chatting with Coco about mly ppls, her husband is a malaysian. and we were talking about mly guys have to cut away that the skin on their pirvate partl, and she asked me if i had "ahem" with my ex's or my bf. LOLS. James was talking about somethings and it kinda assume that i already had sex. and i told him i havent had sex yet. he said i look like i have. LOLS. Do i look like i already did it ? Anywayy work wasnt busy. and i am super tired, i am alway tired everydayy. AnD i got praise by my boss in the car on the way homee. the feeling is like so SHIOKK ok! hahahahaha. Going to bed sooon.

AND AND AND I MISS SYG. :( i am always here for you if you need me. :) loveya. xox.

Smile. Art extension. tired. saturday. james

2008-05-22T21:45:00.004+10:00

LAlAlA~ i was early todayy. :D met james on the bus. smileed for some reasons.
Did my Art, Mr Quaid use my example :D and i can start my FINAL BIG SCULPTURE already~~ went back during lunch and guess what, some ppl doesnt have a habit of PUSHING their chairs in and my mini sculpture hit the chair and it CRACKKK! sighh. i need that mini sculpture as my example for my final piece ehh! i like almost cry ok!!
Ok, as for my Art extension it went prettty well. i was pretty much like a loner there but i was very productive today, and concentrating on my own work without others distractingg.. CLAPS for shanie! and i like the print i did.. it was nice. and some ppls came over to me and ask about my watch. the red one. *ida should knws, cause you wore it for awhile. remember?*

Am very fatigued okk! reach home around 8.30. left house at 6.50am. oh yeah the 385 bus went past my bustop! what a FAGGOT!

OH OH OH, this saturday going out to the library and study, alex and jason is gonna be my tutor. well jason alway have been my math tutor as he sits beside me in classs. cantt waitt!! :)

And james is so cute, he was asking me questions and he said i am his top best friend list. :) and he's gonna miss me when he graduate. awwww! I WILL MISS YOU TOO! :)

"Study Day". Angelina Jolie. Broke.Ideas for Background.

2008-05-21T21:12:00.006+10:00

Didnt go to sch today, so called "Study Day". Stayed home, dad off-day today and yesterday. Was thinking about going to school today to do my art sculpture, final piece one!! but i woke up like reallly latee 11 plus. puff not going then.. was feeling lethargic the whole day. oh btw i slept for 12 hours. yeah babehh!

Lappppy the wholeee dayyy. And was reading the celebrities gossip. OMFG i didnt know Angelina Jolie was pregnant and its a TWIN*girls*. DAMN~ she still looks stunning and HAAWWTT. LOLS.

Wasnt very productive and efficient today, and keep procastinating my work. sighh. i doubt that i can get an A for my math this year, which mean no LV bag for me anymoree. And i doubt about next year too. And when i get into Uni, i will have to get it myselff. -.-

Oh "GOOD" news, i am brokee. yes, broke as in no money anymore. .. and i cant do my math cause i dont understand it. and winnie always seem like she know it and can do it, but her answers are alway wrong and her advices are useless. i tease her about that. HAHAHAHAHAH.

felt like talking to syg on the phone today. miss him. and him being sweeeet. silly him. :) loveya.

I WANT TO CHANGE MY BACKGROUND, ANYONE ANY IDEAS OR SUGGGESTION? :D

Ida slim down alott sia. i like it slighty fattier? More COMEL! :D she is still but more to pretty. :) OH OH OH wanna check out ida family??? here's a pic. and a pic i create of me and ida. BWHAHAHAHA. *kris send me your pic then i will do one too :)*

ok for some reason its super ultra small. dont knw why..

Hmwk. Nerd. Ida's bday. blushing. europe. sleeep.

2008-05-20T22:40:00.004+10:00

YESTERDAY.

Oh yesterday i wass like a NERDD. i start doing my hmwk at 5.45pm till at night 11 plus. I did my, english poetry table thingy, english previous task organiser, home economic research and my art sketching. ALOTS ok for one day! Was SUPER FATIGUED.
AND AND i eye-ing on this book called *i think*"EVERYONE WORTH KNOWING", creator of "Devil Wears Prada". realllly want it!!
And the other day i question the nerd in my sch, Neil, i asked her " hey neil, how many books have you read in your life? "
she said " about 10 000, who knows more or less."
i said " damnnn." LOLS!

TODAY

Oh Oh OH! ida said her brother's enagement was a sucess!! And ida's bday coming i really wish i could be there to celebrate with her. :( i love you girl. :D
Sch was okaayy. LATEEE for schh. Hung out with Marcelle all day today and even after sch with james for awhile at the city then at 4 plus off to meet marcelle. she cant spell my name -.- she spelled " SHAINE" when its "SHANIE", how i realised? cause she draw a smiley face on my leg with my name underneath it..

Elliot poked my waist today while i was talking to marcelle, and i totallly BLUSHED! and marcelle was teasing me.... -.-

Yeah, we both planned when we grow up earn enough $$ we are gonna buy the 2 mths train ticket for europe and travel all over europe! SWITZELAND HERE I COMEEEE!
My back hurts like helll! and my bum hurts too, cause of my school shoes, wearing heeels then the tense your arse then i walk alottt. and fall asleeep on the trainn.. so embarassing?! ok i am like realllly tired.. going to sleeeeep now. ciaoo~

Sister's issue, feelings, childhood & caucasian link?

2008-05-18T21:07:00.001+10:00

SATURDAY 17th MAY 2008

*connie issue*
Yesterday went out with connie, and we were quarrelling all the way to coles. sighh.. is there one day without quarrelling/scolding from them? she said i dont talk to them, dont do housechores, and so on.. I do talk to them, they ignore me. I dont talk to them i get scolding?! i do housechores they cant see it, when i dont do it they said i just sit at home doing nothing. What am i suppose to do? They just cant see what i have done, they can only see what i havent done. And i have to go sch and reached home around 5ish, bath, dinner, hmwk and surf the net. by the time its 11pm. Sat and Sun is the only day i get to sit at home relax.. but they expects me to do the housechores. i dont mind doing it, but you dont have to force me to do it.

*winnie issue*
Never borrow her stuffs. NEVER. i used her mouse, and when i returned it to her, the mouse wasnt working for awhile and she was complaining about it and saying "whatever lands in her hand will be broken/spoiled." and guess what in the end THE MOUSE WORK!! cb! and she is soo rude okay, she likes to act big infront of her friend? i cant believe my life is from PERFECT to IMPERFECT! I seriously wanna go back spore. cause whenever i have problem like that, i go to ida house/play soccer/little indian with ida, sugy, kas and other mlys. sighhh.

And i dont get it.. If my dad have any Qs wanting to knw about me, why wouldnt he just come straight to my face and ask? Why does he have to go around and ask my Connie?!? She have her own problems to deal with, and its not hard to talk to me, i wont get angry or anything!? man.. seriously i want to move out when i turned 18/20.

chatted with syg on the phone. for some reason i have a weird*bad* feelings talking to him now. i dont know it feels different and they way he talk also changed. And i dont miss him that much as i used too. sighhh.. maybe just for now not for longg. Probaly i have been busy and he have been busy too. thats why. sryy if youre reading this.

Today *Sunday 18th May 2008*

Woke up at 7am thought today was monday almost rushed to the toilet and get ready, and i asked myself if i have sch today why did i went to bed so late last night. Its SUNDAY today, go back to sleeep! hahahhah.. woke up at 10ish. wash the clothes, did parts of my art hmwk.

And i edited photo and stuffs all by myself! WOOHOOO! claps for shaniee!! :D
i downloaded Picasca. and join photobucket. :)
Chatted with james and he likes to call my name "Shanii" i corrected him and said " Damnit its SHANIE *uniquee* not "SHANII" *simple and plain*. he replyed "your name, my spelling :)" Damnn.. SHUT DOWN!

Connie asked me a Qs today " shanie do you still have feelings for zarrin?"
I said " No, i just find him.. hawt. thats all."
Connie " okayyy."
the weirdest conversation that happened today.... I think i have turn into ida. :s *curious? come and ask me. :)*

I viewed Dominique profile *kris you knw who it is :)* just now, CHILDHOOD memories flashback. Man i miss those times. she's a eurasian. we used to dance, sing, play teacher, treasure hunt, SOCCER, catching, share our lollies, critising others! hahah, ROLLERSKATE!, blow bubbles, climb to the top of the playground, write letters to each other *even thou we live in the same block!*, make friendship band for each other, jump on the bed!, hide and seek & block catching. i think thats all. she is my bestfriend when i was young. dont you think my life will definately involved caucasian? connie MIGHT be together with corey. he is requesting for a baby, sounds weird but yeahh! hahhahaha. currently at sch, Marcelle is my best friend, polish mixed aussie. wonder if i will marry a caucasian? and my aunt live in Cananda. i live in australia. my ancestor are mixed.
hmm. maybe you dont think there's a link with caucasian in my life, but i thinks so.

Love / Hate?

2008-05-17T12:03:00.003+10:00

Thurday 15/05/2008

As usual, school.. chatted with alicia during our spares. she is doing yoga now and she said she would ask me to join if i didnt live that far away. i said yehh! i would love to it! everyone thinks that she's doing yoga for mitch, so she would be more flexible when they have "ahem", they havent done it yet. After sch Art Extension. It was a really happy day for me, cant stop laughing! cant remember what it is. catch the bus to city and catch the train. And opposite the platform there were 2 man a woman they are the biggest hardcores! The guy1 was banging against the lift door using his head?? Trying to proof that he's tough!? LOLS! didnt know why he was doing that till his friend came out of the lift. His friend had a bandage on his nose, LIKE A BIG BANDAGE! he seems like he doesnt have a nose! The guy1 was smacking the woman back, *she was wearing a halter neck dress ewww* and the woman was say "OUCH OUCH OUCH", he was pinching and smacking her back!? they were making lotsa of noise it was soooo ANNOYING i seriously DESPISE those kind of people and guys who beats girl!

WAS happy till i reached home, went to winnie's room cause everyone is in there. so i said " i'm gonna join yoga. :D" they just stared at me like i didnt say anything and talk about something else. it hurts but it didnt matter till i was at the kitchen, HARSHH words came out of that of that b*****connie* mouth. i seriously went to the opposite side of the room which is the living room and sat in that corner with my lappy. i cant wait to move out. i told james, there's no one i can talk to at that time at all except him. he asked me when if i wanna move in with him when he moved out of house. i seriously like LOVE to ok! cause i will be outta the house.

FRIDAY 16/05/2008

It was alright today, didnt missed my bus. :D everyone left for basketball compeitition, i was soo bored somemore got spares, alone.. but i chatted with this girl who is abit boyishh. she is RICH!. when she was born her parent didnt cared about her, they have to travel around for their business and she was left with her nanny till she was big enough. and she stay with her parent AWHILE only.. till she was 7. and she was alone looking after herself. CRAZY RIGHT?! 7! she said she had no choice and she didnt mind. She said she doesnt have a kind of special love feelings for her parents at all! cause they were never there for her, and she have her own house to live in by herself back in china. she travel to places, like she just tell her parent she wanted to go spore, her parent buy ticket for her and she can settle everything herself after that. oh btw she did go to spore and she said spore is so far the best country she ever went. WEE~! How sadd. SO we should be lucky that our parents do actuallyy cares for us! SO stop complaining and appreciates them! :)

And work was okay, busy but they didnt come all at once! so it was smoooth. there's a new band in our club and the costumer love them, i like it but not LOVE. sighh.. i really dont like staying at home or even go home.. I dont HATE my sisters, its just i dislike them alot now.

*and i feels alone. and i feels like there's no one there for me except for james. where is he when i need him. i knw youre busy with studies, a msg from you would be really nice and apreciated. and i knw ida and kris will be there for me but they hardly online, now that the both of them have bf i gues they have the own stuffs to be busy with and wouldnt give much attention to me. the feelings inside me is killing me. someone help me please. i need my "drug" to be insert back into me againn.*

Good day / Bad day? you tell me!

2008-05-14T20:18:00.003+10:00

Oh woke up saw syg msg. happy :D then suddenly my phone keeps vibraating, its james waking me up.. Today left hse at 9am, i've got double spares, class starts at 10.05. i went to catch the bus and it was infested by irratating bitches and a guy who thinks he's soo cool and he's gay and i could totally tell! sighh.. i reached cutural at 10.05!? late again uhh! then i just missed the bus, so waited for like 10 mins then reached sch around 10.30am class finish at 10.40 no point going to class. then had math during morning tea. then spare during math class.

I went to the library to print something out and guess what? I LEFT MY 1GB USB THERE! i am so forgetful these days. i found my planner at my teacher table she kept it for me cause i left it in class. luckyyy.

OHOH during english today, I DID MY ORAL PRESENTATION ON AUSTRALIAN IDENTITY. Bloody shuan didnt be prepared so i have to go before him was meant to be after him, oh well either ways i still have to do it. i think i did quite well except for some errors but still.. and it lasted for 3 min 20 sec, actually more than that but kevin stopped the stopwatch earlier for me :D Thanks DUDE! well i return him a favour, by correcting his accounting oral presentation slides and teach him the pronouce words.

And "xx" keeps critising other ppls presentation, even though "xx" is slighty better then them doesnt mean "xx" can be so rude! i really hate "xx" personality. Well i am better then "xx" but i dont see myself sitting there critising other ppls oral even though they cant pronouce it. what a *****!

OH a joke here.. we were doing the clay work and keira said "its getting HARD" and Marcelle started cracking up laughing so me nathan and keira stare at each other for 5 secs then we started laughing too.. Get it?? getting hard??? it means the guy Ahem erects... hahahahhahah!!!

Ugly SHIT!

2008-05-13T22:13:00.008+10:00

Woke up latee again, and i still catch the same bus as my teacher. they waited from 7.20am - 8.40am! i reached there around 8.25am.

Art was sooooo FUNNNN!!! we made clay mascot againn and i am pretty happy with my work. we were all wearing jumper cause its cold, not really but still! And i went up to marcelle and smack her butt, i have clay on my hand so it with leave my handprint on her butt and she SMACK my BOOOOB soooo HARD! it hurts like a BITCH! and i wack her back and we were tackling each other, we looked like LESBIAN. LOLS!!!

Math was rather good. i was actually answering Qs, thats not like me usually i just sit there and keep quiet. I am pretty loud today even in Art too.. hmm WEIRD * in a good way* :).

Oh and did my art abit during lunch, and took some photos of my canvas, just to show you peeps i knw you will think its UGLY but this is organic and its the task. here it is:

And i went to Target and shop for 2 hours to wait for my sister to finish workk.took some photos:

Ok, you tell me WHO THE HECK WILL BUY THIS UGLY BOOT?!?!?!?! SERIOUSLY!

WTF?! 80s ENOUGHHH! ARH GOO GOO~~ LOLS

THERE'S MOREEE.:

WTH?! For some reason it reminds me of Monster Inc.

FLURO! WHO WILL BUY IT?! I KNW, THOSE WHO THINKS THEY ARE SOO COOL.. I DOUBT THAT ANYONE HAVE BOUGHT IT, SEE IT'S STILL FULL EH. HAHAHAH!

And i got new undies so i am throwing out my old onees! yay! And bought a new pyjamas for Giselle.

Chatted with RedD kinda like the songs he compose, and and he said he will make one for me!! cant wait to listen to ittt!!

And also chatted with this new guy called Kelvin, he thinks i am mixed blood, chinese and indian.. cause i look dark thats why.. -.- , my sister's ex said ABC. Only if i wish i were a mixed. sighh.. i think i am going to bed sooon.. very tired. and i haven chat with syg for awhilee but i msg him this morning, that msg is meant to make him smile, if he didnt that would be pretty dissapointing.. Love you. :)

SIGHH.

2008-05-12T23:00:00.005+10:00

Woke up late this morning but i still manage to catch the same bus as my math teacher and sorta abit late for school but its okay. :) at least i got go to sch righhttt?

Period 1&2 : Graphic.
teacher got operation, so relief reacher take over, she's a graphic teacher too but she is the OLD version one? as in we draw it instead of using the computer -.-

Period 3 : Art
Relief teacher againn. Dunno where Mr Quaid went.. but wont be here for the whole week, no inspiration for my new task this term. my first mascot was ok but that was for fun didnt plan to do that shape, but he didnt threw out mine. he threw about 70 -80% of the class work away? guess i was lucky?

MORNINGTEA~~
Sat around with the boys, just chill.. RINNGGGGG! Home Economic. sighh. boringgg!

Double ENGLISH. :)
i kinda like english, but not really if she didnt think we are that STUPID. like we can READ! nvm. she lost my final draft, thank god i got a spare one!

Aftering english, LUNCHH! stayed in the library to help sue with her english draft. I cant help other but i can help with my own draft, i can but not all the time. even at art i can do mine cause i know what i wanna do, ppls will ask me to help but i dunno how to help, cause it actually mean something to you but its hidden inside the work that you created. and yea, this girl kinda like to show off her art work to me? sighh. like i have not enough stress already?! BUT too bad Only MY CANVAS was displayed in the class, so take that!! lame! Dont even bother with her lah, waste my energy.

James told me that i am a bitch sometimes and say really harsh thing witout realising. You dont tell me then i will never know or realise! say uh not like i will eat you! he's scared when i gets angrry he said i look scary? cause you can totally tell when i am angry. :) but i try to relaxx now.

SOME GUYS ARE SO PETTTY CAN! arghhh!
Sisters are a bitch sometimes. :(

IDA is a bitch, she wont tell me what happened during her date must wait till i go back spore?! thats ages AWAY! :( * :o. dad just gave me $50 :)*

And syg is really busy with his sch stuffs so i wont be bothering him at all. but i love you. you take care dont stress yourself too much rest okay. :)

Oh I LOST MY PLANNER/ ORGANISER. SIGHHH. THE ONE MICHELLE GAVE ME. SO PRETTY OK!

Happy Mother Day!

2008-05-11T22:22:00.002+10:00

HAPPPPPPPPPPPY MOTHERS DAYYY!! * I love you mummy! even at times i am rude to you but i still love you in my heart. muacks!*

Stayed home today, i made Honey black tea with pearl at home!! it was quite successful. me and connie finished it all. yummyumm...

Finished my english final so nothing to do, have to do the planning sheet thing, finish home economic hmwk. AND today i found my sister sliver gold ring where she lost it at my dad's friend place but it happen to be in our room in the new house. she lost it twice and i found it the both time. FREAKKKYYYYY!

And i had the cheekiest conversation with zarrin today. like isma said "he never takes relationship seriously" cause what he said to me just prove that he is not serious with his current relationship. pity for that girl.

Sister *winnie* bought DOUGHNUT home againn!! so yummy but sooo fattening! confirm put on weight these days.. doughnut brand is Krispy Kreme, if you have watch Shark Tales before, there's a part where he bought "krispy kreme" for lola as breakfast and gave it to her at the counter where she works.
OHOH and i feeeels soooooo clean, nice and neat. cause i shaved and moisture my whole body and put power onnn! smells soooo niceee! smells like my niece cause she is using my powder. :)

I wonder how did ida date went! I am yawning already going to bed now.. nightnight! xox.

Date. Nervous / Not Nervous?

2008-05-10T12:02:00.007+10:00

Yesterday morning i was SUPER ANNOYYYEDDD! WHY : James msg me if i want him to be at Cultural centre cause i catch my bus from there instead of the city, well its just one stop away. and i told him not too, really NO POINT of going to cultural when we are gonna meet up again on the bus and its 1 STOP AWAY ONLLYYY! I was freakking tired and he came to cultural and he gave me a fright, i was soo cut! and i didnt talk to him and he wanted to sit beside me but i put my bag beside me! BLOODY HELL! the feeeling was HORRIBLE afterward! wanna smack him okkay!!

Ohoh i asked sue if she has any mastercard or visa, but she said she dont have any BUT johnathen doess! went to look for him during morningtea and ask if i can borrow his mastercard. and he said YESSS!! BEST LAHH!! so happppy! cause i really like that thing.

Work was alright, not so busy but not quiet.. and i like serving more then taking orders. and i think i am getting better at it, cause i talk to the costumers now, and i can never get the grannys and graandpa's jokes! soo not funny?? and was feeling abit sick during work felt like vomittng and Coco thinks that i am pregnant!? LOLS! and she said "gosh youre not even 16 yet and your pregnant?!" the point is i haven even had sex, how can i be pregnant?!

sighhhh... i think i am having moodswing uh.. i was hyper and the next moment i was really annoyed/sad.

TODAY

had a dream that i quarrel with my second sister.. what's new?! i told her and we kinda act like we are quarrelling.. LOLS! not going to the fun fair at Mcgregor. sadd, oh well... didnt chat with syg much at all!! sighhhhhh.. alalalalala~ cheer up! :)

Walao connie put giselle on my bed, *giselle is naked really for a bath* then she suddenly peeee! GREAT!! Winnie's friend, kuini bought a dozen of different kinds of doughnutt!! YummYumm... wasted one whole day just sitting at home watching movie and laying arounddd..
feel like talking to sygg.. today was kinda awkward we are not like ourself? like they way we chatted in msn. sighhh.. i guess he's really busy? F*** la.

OhOh! ida is dating noww.. HAHAHHA.. She told me that she is really nervous, then i said "nervous? scare he kiss you involving tongue? LOLS" she said she still wants me to be the first one to kiss her involving tongue! LOLS.. very disgusting lehh!! she call her tongue the " Virgin tongue" LOLS!!! so cute la Ida.. then i said "its ok he can have your "Virgin tongue", i can have your virginity!! i will use dildo to have sex with you!!" hahahhahahahh!! Then the guy hold her hands infront of all her friends uhh.. they haven't officially date yet, i dont knw i find it super sweet and cute! somemore its IDA, really happy for her. :)

I wonder if i meet hafiz for the real date will i be like SUPER NERVOUS? hahhahaha.. Hope not la.. the feeling very uncomfortable and dizzy.. hahhahaha..

I really starting to hate talking to winnie?! Like seriously! she is rude la! then if i talk to her rudely back i get scolding from both sister?! WTF right?! I guess because they are older then me, so they can talk to me in any manner they like? want me to respect them, then they should start showing me some respect first!

OMG.. Kris and her bf is already 9 MTHS?! so lonnggg!! ok i am over it. hahhaah.

No i didnt.

2008-05-08T23:49:00.002+10:00

nothing much happened, didnt attend art extension due to too many hmwk and assignments to rush and lack of sleep. :( sighh.. My friend said i wagg too muchh! but i dont! SERIOUSLYYY.
And i finished typing out my Final Draft for my englishh and sent it to her alreadyy.. pheww~

chatted with syg abit today, was kinda cutee but he didnt get the part about my friends. but itss okkkayy.. and he was really cute.. DUN WAN TO TELL YOU! *shy2*. hung up cause he want to sleep longer *around 6ish pm here, spore 4ish pm*, wasnt feeling well.. poor thing. edited my english draft abit then fall asleeep and i sent a msg to my friend which totally doesnt make sense! i went back to the "Sent msgs" and checked cant stop laughing, i didnt get it myself!hahaha..
Connie woke me up to ask me finish my hmwk, then i said half an hour more, then they started SINGINGG! great, woke up straight awayyy.. then syg ask me to call, but then i was in the middle of my sch work so i said call him later, but after bombom he said something caught up, cause his friend's ex was grabbing her face, so he went to help her and he will make it up to me. :) Why so guys are just sooo abusive??! GODAMNIT!!
OHOH, my left leg got a FREAKING HUGE MOSQY BITEE! like super big bigg. connie was saying i was pinch by ghosts?? i said it doesnt hurt, its ITCHYY?! and she said i keep talking in my dream these few nights, wondering if i had nightmares.. no ehh, usually when i talk in my dream i will wake up after thatt.. but i didnt realise this timee.. WEIRDDD!! hahahaa
Ok lahh byee bloggy i wanan goo to my LalaLand, they are waiting for me there. :) , -.- lame.

SMILEE** Happy Sweet16 Ping2*

2008-05-07T18:48:00.005+10:00

*HAPPPPPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY Kris/appley/KSP!/Ping2! Sweeeet 16 ehh!! Some stuff are LEGAL now.. bwhahhaha!! Love you lots! Takecare. May all your wishes come true~ muacks! xox.*

hehehe.. late for sch AGAINN~
got double spares in the morning so i woke up at 8 thinking, "hmm, still got lots of time, take my own sweeet timee lahh.." then i lie in till 8.55! rush to the toilet waited for winnie to come out, finish bathing and everything checked the time,9.35! Late already uhhh. then slowly uh..

Packed my lunchbox, took the bread out, thinking "ehh i thought daddy just bought the bread last night why suddenly afew piece gone already, remember when i open still got the first piece bread lehh." then packed everything then i turned around look at the floor, 4 PIECES lying on the floor! hahhahaha. i throw 2, put back 2 just hope *its cleann*. :)

Oh was chatting with james and jason.. then i forget what happened suddenly talk about my bf? then they said they wanna have a look at hafiz's picture so i showed them my wallpaper then jason said " looks like kevin" i say " oh PLEASE! my bf eyes is like bigger and prettier??! **and can actually speaks better english and doesnt watch porn all the time!**

Dad picked me up from school today, i dont like it when its a suddenly pick up.. planned to go to city with jason, james & kevin then later meet up with alex to go home together.. but i cant, apparently they waited for me 1hr starting from when my sister send me a msg. sighh.. then have to go with dad.

OMFGGG i tear out this page, not telling you *wanna knw ask me*. But too bad it need Visa, Mastercard,Amex? or Creditcard. siann, its sooooo prettty okk!! really sad lahh.. when dad come back gonna ask him if he have any of those card i just mentioned. or i might ask them to send it to spore then ask mum to send it to me. ** ps: i ask my dad about the card, he said he doesnt but only mastercard but then no money inside, he said alot of problem if put money inside the card. sighhhhhh! walao feels like crying uhhh!*

OH OH OH!! i knw what to givee syg for bday pressie?? hahhahahaha! and still thinking for otherss :( sryyy!

ANNDDDD i think my second sister really got ISSUES with me okkk!!!! ARGHHH! i swear that sometimes i really wanna punch her in the face sooo hard!!! And she must have comments on certain stuffs! as if she dates HAWT guys like that.. cb!! She thinks she is sooo "GOOOD". irratating uhh.. and i was happy this morning BUT she just have to ruin it!

syg cute cute! i like i like!!

2008-05-06T16:19:00.008+10:00

OMGGGG!!! i knw who James likes!!!! MY SISTER! bwhahahahha!!! *i checked my sister's inbox. LOLS! *wink** He thinks my sister is pretty cause we had this conversation b4.. waaoohhhh! hehehehhee!

Iya just now send me this video, siala watch already heartpain uhh! poor thing uh.. Matreppp!!

YAWNNN~

today first thing woke up saw syg msg!!! :) his msg sounds like he wanted see who will msg who first in the morning! nvm its CUTEE :D

Took 30mins to get ready!! doing my hair and my facee! heheheh..

waited 50 mins for the bus! everytime late one uh!! so irratating. And was late for sch uhh.

chatted with james today, he wanted to tell me something but he couldnt he said it will affect me, my sister and kuini.. and its about someone he likes.. he said its killing him not to tell me! aww i wanna knw! he said if he told me everyone will be pissed at him and soo onnn.. i dont get it? why would i be pisssed?! nvm.

And today got chinese test and i totally forgotten about it!! bwhahah well steven helped me out! hehhehe.. counted cheating alreadyy.. but its okk! :D

Oh and i found out wy my tongue so pain already, its UCLER! i didnt know that ucler can grow on tongue.. sighhh so toooot!

And i just realise that, if i have a bf, ppls tends to not talk to you, cause you've a BF! WTF lahh?!?! got bf then cannot chat with me?? thats LAMEE! whatever uh.. Its not like i will die not talking to you! and if you're reading it, you will knw that person is YOU!

OoOoOoOoOoOoo~ CAMWHORE just now when i reached home.. Took 3 posting 2..

Picturess ::

LAZYYY FATTTTYY MEE!

2008-05-05T13:35:00.005+10:00

WEEE! stay home the whole day yesterday and probaly today as well.. tooooo lazyyy~! SAD i knw..

Dad's working friend came over last night and sleepover, she*17* missed her last train. she lives soooo far away!!! she was soo shy! and i was chatting with syg on the phone last night, i told him that she was really shy and when i walk out of the door she heard me she was even MORE shyy!! ahahahhaa... she had a shower then had a smoke with my sister, and she start showing us her bf pictures, her myspace and we chatted alott! its like we have known her for years, and we shared a spoon to eat the pasta that my dad made for her.. Her eyes are sooo COOOL! when she is angry her eyes colour is GREEN and when she is depress its GREY when she's normal its BLUE. how cool is that!?!? she was depress last night and her eyes turn grey, cause she was telling us about her bf*18*.

Hmm her bf is 18 and she doesnt trust him, my bf is 19 and i am 16? how? BUT i trust him :D WEEE~

And i felt bad about last night when talking to syg.. i dont knw. i knw he wants to sleeep but then i want to say a proper goodnight b4 he goes to bed.. and i got abit irratated.. but i still called him and said goodnight. didnt wanna talk to him was really annoyed. *sighh i guess its mood swingg.* And i really wanna delete all the stuffs i have wrote about him when he was disssapeared, i dont like it when he mention it, it embarrassing and stupid! see i told you what i have wrote back then and then when i go back and read about it, its reallly stupid.. :(
I told him about my haircut and i said i got post in my blog and thats what he said, " i read your blog but its all about me when i was gone.." i dont knw if thats suppose to be good or bad.. i was kinda hurt ? sighh..

OHH i was sitting down and i lean forward and i reveal my undie and i didnt knw and XX asked me " is that hotpink Calvin Klein youre wearing now is real?" i was so shocked and stare at XX, and said "how you knw i am wearing that?" XX said when you lean forward it sorta reveal it.. and there were a guy sitting at the back too, he was giggling.. HOW EMBARRASSING?!
Oh i have a pic of the "xx" person, not the best picture but a preview of how he looks like.. *he kinda likes to follow me and its really annoying, he buys me breakfast at maccas if i said i am hungry.. i feels bad about it, but he wont let you pay for it.*

DAHH DUHHHHH~~

OKK, here for my ping ping! BEST LAHHH YOU!!! help me make my bloggy until like that.. WEE!! thank you babe!! i will try and buy something unique and nice for ya okkk..?? or i blanja you eat when i go back ok?? happy3! 2 more dayss.
And thank you ida for making that pic :D

Mum.

2008-05-04T13:55:00.002+10:00

Hmm.. mum is going to china soon and i think its winter there.. mum cant even take winter in aust, wonder how is she gonna take it there.. i dont even knw that she is going till last night she was chatting with my sister. AND she is going soon! waa i also wanna goo.. :( Update more later.

Sweeet? yes or no?

2008-05-03T23:45:00.002+10:00

yesterdy was super busy at work, somemore i work alone.. T.T All the plates were used up.. when i collected all i told my boss i dont know where to start! ahahhahahaah!!
had dinner went to boss's place and stayover then msg syg and fall straight asleep, like 1 mins after i msg syg.. missss him sooo much can! then woke up saw his msg, first thing wake up smile big2 already! They send me home but no one open the door for me cause CONNIE was still sleeping at 11 plus. so i follow back with them to working place, some girl couldnt come for work so i takeover her uh.. sighh prepaid low. :s cannot msg... cannot call...

Reached home, went straight to bathroom and have shower then chatted with hafiz.. sighhh i like it how we chatted today but then he said
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yeah. and i dont really like being all those sweet3 honestly."

sighhh i dont like being tooo sweeeeeeeet but once in a while its really nice.. suddenly got the kind of sour feelings in my heart.. and we are not talking now :(

We chatted and said when i go back spore my first date will be at Ice Skating!! hahahah so he can hold my hands. so cuteeee! *heart melting* :D we have been chatting way more before he dissapeared.. and thats really good. :) i miss him uh. * kris and ida dont be jealous, I MISS YOU TOO*

*LAZY TO POST ALREADYYY*

Aww, Arghh, :(

2008-05-01T22:33:00.003+10:00

hmm.. chatted with syg on the phone to 2.30am.. then went to bed at 2.50am woke p at 6am.. so tireddd!
Told xx that if he was a girl, it would be awesume then i can show him my new undie which is in my bagg, cause was gonna go my boss's hse and stayover after work but cancelled. He tried to go through my bag, i just told him" you go through uh, you go through then dont bother talking to me anymore.." he didnt dare to touch it then.. hahaha! he keep telling me his testicle hurts, no offence i dont give a damnn!! if it was syg i will but i dont care if it was you! its mean but i seriously dont need to knw it. find it eww? and he tried hugging me today like side hug which means his arm will be on top of my boobs, i find it uncomfortable cause he said i got nice butt and boobs for my height and size.. not i thicked skin or what like i think hes taking advantage??Oh and he keeep staringggg at me.. was super annoyed ok! i ask him what is he staring at he just stareddd and stareddd! arghhh..

Skipped home ecnomic, actually wanted to call syg and talk, but then i guess he was busy cause no reply from him.. then went to sit around the sch and draw. not in the mood for art at all! all i draw soo ugly uhhh.. i think uh.

but then chatted with him during art extension, my friends thought i was checking the guy on the field.. LOLS as if i would lor! my friend brother leh!! ewww!.
I like talkking to syg uh, but i dont knw if he realised that we didnt talk anything its just those basic common things. Abit sad i want a moree interesttinggg topicc uh.. he seem busy all the time.. maybe cause he haven been on for a long time and i want him all by myself??? walao SO SELFISHHH! *slap myself!*

Going to revise my math now, half asleep in class today dont think i learned anything.. sighhh.

*note to self: STUDY HARDD , STUDY HARDD!! *

Jainee's Favourite

2008-04-30T15:21:00.010+10:00

OMFGGG!!! SYGG IS ONLINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was sooooooooooo happpy!! wanted to go to bed but then i couldnt!!! omgggg i love him cannnn! sooo happppyy!!! bwhahahah!!! love you heaps!

Ida is talking to me rightt nowww! and she said am i over-reacting?! i think sooo tooo! but i cant help it, the people surrounding me is adding their comments into my head and make me confused.. i dont wanna be like that, i am totally not that kind of person, usually i am cool with those stuffs, but now i am OUT OF CONTROL! ida thinks it my puberty causing me to be like that.. i think so too! :(

WOOT! first thought when i woke up, check the alarm clock. SHIT i am lateeeeeee for sch it's 10.18 by the time i reach sch will be like 12? so whats the point of going then since i am soo latee for school.. lie around for an hour thinking about lotsaa of stuff, what if blahh blahh blahh, then blah blah blah.. *Punch my face*

I dont feel anything bad gonna happen leh. instead i have this positive thinking.. which is goood right?? what if there is really something wrong what can i do? cry?? IFF*hope it never happen* its really silent break then i guess studyying hard is my next step then.. and to get over things.

there's this malay fortune teller, he is SO TRUE MAN! just by cuttin the limes he can tell you everything.. he said i cant be with dark skin people.. our relationship or blah blah will be badd.. if i really wanna date malay, its javaness people.. BUT i love black people,*some only* they are soo funny and fun to be with and mostly malay are sooo attractive can, their eyes.. ahhh~~ Like IDAA'S eye so big and scary at times but so cute lahh.. i still remember my first crush was malay! hhahahah.. my exs are malay my bf is malay. how i wish i am a malay, but if i changed into malay then i have to sacrifices alot of things uh, no drinking, no pork, must pray? i dont mind not having them or to do it. The most happy thing is to be with your loved ones right?? maybe i am still tooo young to say this kinda things.. maybe when i grow older, then see how things go thenn..

OHHH last night, my syg*ida* tried to change my blog skin she said it was tooo DULL, i dont know how to change this kinds of blog thingy.. And ida help me do this pic : *his face very dark uh,BUT still cute.. :)*

Went out to buy some food and bought stocking, its soooo euffing cold in the morning! Bought KFC for dinner, dad cooked some fried rice.. YUM YUM... havent ate for the whole day only drank "Boost" im not sure if spore have the "Boost" it a smooothie healthy drink stall. If they have it get "Jainee's Favourite" *MY FAVOURITEE* or "Mango tea Martar" * CONNIE' S FAVOURITE* i think thats how you spell it.

Miss HIM truck loads. :(

Longing for You

2008-04-29T19:09:00.003+10:00

what a day. slept for only 1 hour then go to school already, was rushing my english draft end up teacher say send to her also can.. shouldve't take my own time uh. now that its done i guess i am more relax, in a way.. didnt do my nails today, keep falling asleep on the bus and train..
Reach the city, went to buy stuffs , on my way to the train station got 2 girls ask me what sch i am from then ask me if i wanna be their friends. i was like EH?, so weird ok!

Reach home and eat smack my lappy and its on! haahha..
Sister had a talk with me so did bTaz.. they think hafiz is having a silence breakup with me.. i dont want a silence breakup uh! i dont want this to happen ok! i am sooo scared and confused felt like cryingg. i ask bTaz if i should write a long letter then pass to the person that knows hafiz. i wish that his lappy is down so that he couldnt use it, thats why he never go online. hopefully is that reason uh.. my heart is like breakingg sia.. i feel horrible right now, lack of sleep, stress on my english& worry about hafiz and me. feeel like i am gonna break down for the very first timee.

My feelings right now are, scared, confused, like i am gonna faint soon, miss him like hell.. just online sooon or msg mee "i love you" i also happy can. :(

But i do have trust and confidence that he's just busy, maybe the people around me just make me confused. but i know you all care for me. i think i shouold just wait another week or 2 to see how things go..

Hmmm

2008-04-29T00:49:00.003+10:00

LATE NIGHT UPDATEEEE~
i feel so like damn HAPPPY CAN~~ cause this guy just added me in friendster happens to be in Temasek poly in the Engineering block! which is same as HAFIZ*syg*! and he told me that his friend find hafiz CUTE! LOLS! my syg is CUTEEE like like like MEE~~ hahahahahha...

And was compliment by my sister. We were talking about leg. then i ask her is mine a nice leg? funny i knw. she wouldnt tell me! i asked if its bad or good then she said "since when i wont say bad stuff straight away?!" SOO its something good. then i said "tell me uh at least i dont have to look into the mirror every morning thinking my leg is fat or big.." Then then she said" you have good leg, i just dont wanna tell you ok!" SOoOoOo HAPPPY~! but then would be even more happy to share it with syg. :) waiting for you to go online! muacks!

Today woke up.. get ready, all set to go and guess what? I CANT FIND MY SCHOOL SHOESS!!!
I search everywhere but i just cant find it!!! weird kan? then i just went back to bed... lie around for like an hour then can sleep.. thinking about HIM wondering where the f*** he is la seriously...
Woke up around 12 ish, surf the net till like 4 plus then get ready and went to the city and meet my second sister.. Then i saw BRATT!!! the guy who i used to work there with but he works at the bar i work at the rest. miss him loads can! he is sucha a funny guy and fun lor! at least better then the one right now sooo LAZY one!!!
Went to the chinese rest and eat with my sister friend, Kuini and her sister too.. I dont quite like kuini's sister sshe kinda like i dunno how to explain just dont like her la!
Alicia msg me and said " Its her Bday tomoro, remember to get her a lollypop and a nice bday card and have to accompany her the whole day cause i havent hang out with her for AGESS! i miss her and she miss me too :) *i think so* hahahahha..
Connie was kinda rude sometimes.. cause i was standing between her and winnie then when she was talking to her i was sorta in her way? and she push my head away and hard! she finds it funny?! i find that EXTREMELYY RUDEE! then she like half hugged me.. i was really annoyed!
My bday present to alicia is, i am gonna buy all kinds of lollypop flavour for her and a nice card, and tomorow me and connie will get her a " Juicy Coutour" bag. so good right cause she have been nice and helpful toward us.. so maybe she deserve a present like that from us. :)
These day just cant get my hand off my lappy.. :( i should ban myself from using it!
Oh didnt get my nails done today doing it tomorow after sch..! will take a picture of it.:)

SAD HOPELESS STUPID

2008-04-27T18:11:00.006+10:00

UPDATEDDDDDD!!!
Aiyo i cant concentrate on my freaking englishhh draft, and its due tomorrow!! i havent even started! maybe only like 2 LINESS!! *slap my face hard2, OUCHH!* I told kakak about hafiz didnt online for 2 weeks then i told her what i think, maybe he knows new girls at chalet then she said "maybe he's busy with his new gf right now" GOSH SHARPPP ARROW JUST SHOT MY HEART.. *faintt* i realise that now i have type all this and when i grow up become more mature, read back what i have type i will feel extremely stupid. but this is how i feels, like most parents alway say" WE ARE TOO YOUNG TO HAVE A BF." its ok for a guy to have a gf cause their mentally stronger then girls. sighhh.. thinking of skipping english tomorrow.. goshhhh i am soo hopeless... And i should be going to bed RIGHT NOW! if not tomoro cannot wake up again, BIG EYEBAG! *Miss talking to him man!* ;(

SIALA..
shanie super duper sad OK! Heres the story:
I was thinking about hafiz alot, so i ask taufiq, his advice is that i go and ask his friend where he is uh.. well i did i msg "Anthea" hafiz sorta best girl friend.. Then i check friendster just now, no new msg, but i see the " Viewed" thingy in friendster, she viewed me back WITHOUT replying my msg! WALAO... If you dont wanna tell me at least reply me like" oh sorry i dont know what happen to him".. something like that uh.. why ignore sia! CB! i was furious when i saw she viewed me without replying my msg..

Then chatted with SYAFIQ about it.. starting to have negative thoughts. which is totally not a good thing which means i wont be able to concentrate on my studies. F*** la!
Cause after he went to the pasir ris chalet he never online anymoreeee!! i was thinking maybe he saw new girls at chalet so he decided to dumped me. :( I've this feeling to give up already..
I am sorta like in Sulastri situation as she told me that zarrin was ignoring her. well at least she live in the same country as him, can msg him & can call him..

Isnt it weird that your ex current gf is talking to you about your ex, and what happen between the both of them?? Like i need to know?! but maybe she needs someone to talk to, and know more about him.. Find out yourself uh, i found out myself when i first know him and get together with him.. i have my own problems already with my bf, i dont need more un-necessary problem to be involve in my life! ARGHHH!

And these few days i feel like i am talking to myself even thou there is "Syafiq, taufiq2, Nas & Kris " to talk to me, but i still want a real life person to talk to... like my sister, she is too busy with guys and her baby, no time for me anymore.. and hafiz is gonee.. but its ok i still have KRIS to talk to.. but i still need LOVE ok!

Oh my sister make a deal with me today, i was talking about those branded sale to her when i was back then in spore. then i said mum was gonna get me this "Guess" luggage bag but then i felt guilty and i told her i dont want it anymore and left.. then she make this deal, the deal is:

*REQUIRE an A IN MY MATH*

Guess bag and a Guess luggage bag.
The Louis Vuitton Noe bag that i wan.

Well i chose the LV one cause i already have a Guess bag. Luggage bag..hmm not like i alway need a big bag.. beside i will use the LV more often if i got that one. So must work EUFFING HARD lor this term, i go do Math A easier like that get an A easier BWHAHAHA..

And i am getting my nails done tomorrow, connie gonna pay for it she was in a happy mood and said " shanie tomorrow go do medicure i pay." SHIOK, doing the gel french manicure.. $80 EXPENSIVE leh.. well she's gonna pay for it so ok uh.. Gel one can last for months and it cost around$100 plus in spore to do it.. cause its still new to spore.. so exciting but i loook so down in real life.

Note to self: SHANIE YOU'RE HOPELESS! NO WONDER YOUR BF LEFT YOU WITHOUT TELLING YOU! STILL WANNA BE AN ARCHITECTURE?! HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO BE AN ARCHITECTURE WHEN YOU DONT EVEN WORK HARD! HOW TO GET INTO UNI! YOU ARE ONE BDH KID!!!!!

Its Him.

2008-04-26T19:46:00.007+10:00

BORING~
Stayed home the whole day, just playing with my lappy. i cant figure out how to use photoshop, i wanna combined picture together but cannot. SOMEONE HELP ME? PLEASE.
Everyday go online, hoping to see him on. But it dissapoints me everytime. :(
I viewed this girl profile, and i absolutely LOVE her pics man! her link is http://profiles.friendster.com/31847991 , gotta check it out, her house is HUGEE, i meant like WOAHHH! she lives in Jakarta.
Just marinate the chicken now its it the oven heating! soooo hungry!!!
My boss said i slim down already. maybe cause i have to wake up early in the morning and didnt get to eat much.
Going offline soon, gotta do my english draft! AHH! i dont know how to explain Sporean Identity, so i might just do the Australian Identity.. Spore mixed races how to explain. :
Oh and if you did read my previous post about me and her shit, this the photo we took before i headed to the toilet! : *CAUTION: NOT FOR THE WEAK HEARTED PEOPLE!, R21, INVOVLED NUDITY!!*

And more pictures of her, one is before she had her needle she is sitting in a baby chair SO CUTE! the other one is just, " WATCHA LOOKING AT?! WANT A PIECE OF ME?!" *Look at her finger?*

Alrighty going off now.. tata. <3

Addiction.

2008-04-26T01:20:00.003+10:00

Today woke up quite late.. 12 plus! Its public holis, Anzac Day. Boring~ the whole night was kicking the cat away from me.. lie on my leg, so irratating! hmm.. ate mee goreng , 2 choco cookie 2 white choco cookie for lunch. yum yum!! then went to work, Jam! cause of the footy game. Broncos VS "dunno what team". late for work.. but never mind my boss are nice people.
Work wasnt busy, cause of the game, onnly grannys and the regular costumer came.. dinner was SUPBERBBBB!!! the fish was AHHHH~~! soo damn delicious can! my boss make it SPICY TOO! DOUBLE BONUS!! I LOVE SPICY FOOOD CAN!

Hmm.. i need my drug myy lolliee! :( without "it" i will die.. my addiction. you know what i mean, IF youre clever enough.. :)

I wonder who reads my blog. Leave your name on the taggyboard alright! :D

Its sad when my dad comes home, then me and my sister stay in the computer room, i used my lappy she use hers then dad is alone. feel reallly bad about it but i dont know what to talk to him about.. Any advice ppl? :( I hope mum would come here soon.. apparently connie said "mum is coming during Dec.." soo when we go back spore we got a place to stay, then after we go back *aust* we rent the house out for a year then when the time we go back *spore*we can live in our own hse again..

Where did you go? :( is yr lappy down? or cause of sch start?. its actually good that we arent talking for 2 weeks cause in that case i can know my feelings toward him. and my feelings toward him is undescribable. :D miss you truck loads!

BORING DAY

2008-04-25T00:48:00.002+10:00

Nothing much happen today, went out with Marcelle. and this morning i realise that i lost my weekly ticket! damnit! i have to buy one again.. went to Art Extension today... it was alright, got compliments from my friends about my drawings..finished at 7pm..

OMFG where did the hell did hafiz dissapeared too?! I misss him truck loads!!!! :(
And i think my hair look much better when its up. just have to add the white hook earring!

After and Before:

Alrighty that's all. too tired to blog..

Accident Happens

2008-04-24T00:10:00.003+10:00

Today skipped home ecnomic, no mood to attend and i didnt do hmwk. before i got to sch i caught the 385 bus, gosh! so many indians! they talk so loud and the indian ascent is sooo annoyinggg!
During lunch, have a little secrets talk with james, didnt expect he will tell my sister some parts of it cause winnie came to me bombarted with questions.
During graphic i got bitten by an ant twice on my right butt! DAMN it hurts like a bitch! :s

Went out with family today dine in at this chinese rest. and when we are on the way to carpark we were at the traffic lights there and suddenly we heard this " BANG BONG" sound, we turned around and saw a lady collapsed on the escalator her body and head were twisted to the right, her kids were screaming and crying. its sooo scary! everyone just crowded around her and someone try to touch her but the security guard stop that person from doing that. so scary can. connie thinks that she wont be alive. cause she fell from the top of the escalator to the botton of the escalator! not long after the ambulance came.

Dad missed out on the exit to Ipswich and we have to go straight to the next exit and it was sooo scary cause it's all dark and eerie and we have to drive through this bridge, man i hate that bridge soo unusual! we left the city at 8.40 went back at to the city at 10.40 cause we have to exit and its the only way back to Brisbane then back to Ipswich. reach home around 11.15pm soooo tired!! YAWNNN! I am so tired right now and had a glass of wine too. so i might fall asleeeeep anytime.
OHHHH and and and i am not going to school tomorrow! cause its cross country and friday is Anzac day which is public holis! yay! going out with Marcelle that crazy bitch tomorrow to the city! might take some photos with her, might not cause of my ugly childish hair! :( i look sooo died in the previous picture i post.
DAMNNN what happened to hafiz how come never online, i guess there's problem with his lappy. finally downloaded Itunes into my lappy. currently favouite song is " Sexy can I - Ray J".

Emotion baby.

2008-04-22T16:40:00.006+10:00

It have been a hectic for the past weeks.. moving house.

I love moving house its just the packing and unpacking part i hate, the best best part is when you get to move into a whole new environment. LOVEIT! even though we havent found a house yet but currently living at my dad's friend place. It takes 1 hour train ride to city and 30 mins from city to my school. so i wake up around 6am catch the 6.47 train.. he offered his whole hse to us for they stay till we found a hse. isnt he a nice guy? he's phillipino, his cousin, Jude *he was born in aust* , he is euffing funny! he's pretty big size but he is same as me, scare of the dark! HAHAHHA! and when i sleep alone i dont close the door, and he doesnt close the door either! And yea that happens during my holisdays which is only 1 week and 2 days! Time pass sooo FAST can! one blink and sch reopen new semster.. :s

I dislike my job at the moment as a waitress.. not my type i guess.. i wanna work at Target or Big W.. Like packing, arranging stuffs soo much better then taking ppls order.. seriously! But i dont knw how to tell my boss leh.. cause they are soo nice to me but i just doesnt like working there maybe i will help them out when i have no shifts on friday IF i get the job at Target or Big W. my friend Alex will be applying with me to save money together so when august if i save till like $3000 then i go taiwan.. IF la.. $3000 no easy $300 yeh! haahhaha..

Oh yea.. Giselle shit on me.. i felt something slimy and wet and i look down and saw giselle shit is all over my cardigan. SO DISGUSTING CAN! i told my sister take a picture it last longer then i open the diaper and took a deep breath didnt expect to be that smelly! then i ran straight to the toilet and vomit after my sister took the picture! soo ewww! and she grew bigger again..

And i fall off the bed the other day.. reason is because me, winnie and kuini were sleeping in one bed and i like to wrap myself with my blanket then when i tried to turn to move in alittle bit but i was stuck with my blanky, the next second i was on the floor.. everyone woke up and start laughing reallly loudly! so pain thank god my lappy wasnt on the floor if not FINISH!

Oh and one more thing, EMOTION. i felt really left out with my sister now, cause i used to be really close with connie but now she is kinda close to winnie again. and winnie is being a bitch to me nowaday. i dunno i went and sat on the floor and tears start rolling down my cheek. i dunno why and my friends, the international ones, i used to alway hang out with her* but now me and her* isnt that close anymore and we hardly hang out. i know that she have more friends now, maybe she prefer her new friends then me. was realy sad about it. feels lonely sometimes during lunch time.. :( and i am not close to alicia anymore maybe because she have a bf she is alway with relish? maybe.. but i am really close to marcelle now, at first i thought her name was " myself" ! hahahah!!!

AND AND AND last night 21st April i had a hair cut and dyed my hair. its a BIG CHANGE! lotsa of different comments from my friends.. some say : looks cute, look nice, look innocent and not mature anymore. look like 12 not 17.. LOLS.. connie cuts my hair at night and it was too dark cause we went outside and cut and my fringe wasnt straight and i didnt realise that this morning and when i reach sch my friends was laughing at me it hurts my feeeling and i breakdown. now i knw her* feeling when they were telling her constantly about how her hair style doesnt suits her. GUYS are such an ass sometimes.. and why are girls so SENSITIVE! arghhh!!!!

Oh and about my art i got an A for my practical. and was chosen by other Art teacher to display it in the library i think its five student include me in my class got chosen only. really happy about it, but cant seem to be smilling lately. :s

a preview of my hair, not the best photo but just took it to put it up.. ignore the eyebag. i think i like my previous fringe better or maybe i should wait for it to grow longer abit. whatever!

Hmm

2008-03-31T01:02:00.002+10:00

Nothing much today.. woke up and chatted with hafiz straightaway... wee~ then slack until 2 plus then go and study for abit only! very dissapointed! i cant get the function thingy right in math! i am sooo died! Got a feeling that i am gonna fail my math! mean $70 will be gone, its a deal between me and my second sister. hahhahahaha. to motivates me to study very hard but sadly its not working..
I think its winter already but it caant be cause its only going to APRIL which mean it should be AUTUMN?! since autumn is soooo cold will winter be colder and SNOW?! wee i hope it snowed it happens once in brisbane before! i am wearing winter clothes now at home already.. :s it's nice~ i love winter! :D
i was pushing the bin out just now and i like to stare at the sky if there are lots of stars if not i wont bother and just now the sky were full of stars stare at it for 10 mins and saw 2 shooting stars, it feels like youre floating if you really concentrate and put your mind into it~ i just feel like grabbing them but i knw thats not gonna happen! Shanie you should stop dreaming and get real and do some REVISION! And came back into the house feel much more warmer but still cold. Dad came home soon and play with the baby for awhile. AND hafiz was being sucha a sweeetie today, later when he reads it he's gonna talk about it, start doing his "thang"!
About sch, i signed up to go to the University to check out the Architexture thing on Tuesday but the problem is i have to get to sch by 8 which means i have to wake up early and i have to wear home clothes, Decent clothes! i have no idea what i am gonna wear.. headache! and not sure if i wanna go to sch tomorow and ask Jason to teach me math, well he's really good but sometimes i just don't get it cause its in chinese and my chinese is super duper ultra LOUSY! i am gonna marathorn tonight to buck up my math and home encomic, coffeeee here i come! By the way, hafiz don't worry too much, youre first in my heart! i don't want you to be mad at me! aAt least we shared something that they don't get t share with me! SMILE ok! Hope you get well soon :) saya sayang awak byk!

Pheww

2008-03-29T17:54:00.002+10:00

So tired today.. and its only half the day gone. woke up at around 9 ish went out at 10.50..

it was a cold morning i was thinking of wearing a shorts and a jacket with my black tee inside, then i look into the mirror i find it weird cause i was wearing a black short so i changed it and wore my jacket and short. then i forgot to take my black tee. remember i only wearing my jacket nothing underneath it. then when i reached my working place, went to changed and realise that i didnt bring my BLACK TEE! walao then i have to work wearing my puma jacket. and its WHITE ok! serve serve serve, everything went well until when the stupid fork drop and before it hit the ground it hit my JACKET~! AHHH~! then got a ugly stain there! :( Then kim my boss told me that tomoro is the last day Brat is working here.. kinda sad cause we alway disturb each other and he's fun to be with, cool guy. Kim send me home. and yea...

At around 6 ish.. went up to Mount Cootha and see this earth thingy, like ppls will switched off their electricity at 8pm for 1 hr. Winnie and her friend drop us there and went to find for a parking lot then they didnt came back for 2 1/2 hrs! and we were FREEZING! i wore a white jacket for winter one and a FBT short! my leg was soooooo cold and connie have to wrap the baby up so she is nice and warm and connie didnt have a jumper or anything to keep her warm.. what a good mother! we were really cut at her, we tried calling umpteen times to her phone but she didnt pick up. Obviously she didnt have her phone by her side! Seriously what's the point of having a phone when you dont use it?! JESUS.. talking about phone.. lead me to hafiz.. it gives me a feeling that whenever i ask him if i can call him to have a chat he didnt reply me answer well sometimes he did.. i knw his phone need a new card in it, and he have to borrow his parents phone if i wanna call him.. its just that we haven talk on the phone for ages! and i really miss it. :(
and yea back to my sister, and when she call us back she said she went home to get her phone and to call my eldest sister.. so we went into the shop there to get HOT CHOCO! YUMMMY! connnie bought it BUT we have to wait for half an hour for it! we were thinking since we already waited for winnie for 2 1/2 hrs at the bus stop out in the cold what is half an hour in a warm place?! and took some photos we update tomoro.. and yea headed back home once we got our hot choco! yum yum.. and my leg hurts :( And i didnt went to my friend's bday party. cant be bother cause there's no bus there or back i wont wanna waste my money taking the cab home its sooo euffing expensive to catch a cab home in aust! Woosh~

Ok bye i gonna watch tv.. Jurrasic Park here i come.. Weee~~

No one see it.

2008-03-28T11:28:00.011+10:00

Last night was euffingg bored la.. watched "Gameplan" and "Train of the Dead". I am kinda really pissed off at myself cause i knw exams are coming and i cant concentrate, whenever i pick up the book 5 mins later i close it.. :s and i can only study at sch cause if i don't knw anything i can ask the teacher straightaway or the prick sitting beside me.. Sometimes ask my second sister she teach me like never teach me like that cause her answers are wrong and infact i got the answers right. i don't knw how she got Bs for her math last time.. Maybe she learned it in spore during Sec 3 then when we came over here, they teach that same chapters again.. And here are the pictures of giselle in the clothes that my sister bought and the tiara i got her:

Today

Walao i just realise when you do something GOOD no ones see it or know it, BUT when you do something WRONG.. they just ROARRR at you! like just now, i washed my plate and connie said" after washing it place the rice cooker into the other sin." i washed my plate then i CLEARED the bin but when i come back i was gonna put the rice cooker into the other sin. and she just said" I ask you to put into that sin right! you just cant be bother to listen what i said." CB.. i was gonna do that after i cleared the bin ma.. not like she gonna use the sin and wash her plates! then i cleared the bin that one she cannot see uh! SEE you do something good no ones see it and when you didnt do the right thing they just .... forget it la..

And just now i took a sip out of my dad's drink, well connie bought it and she heard me "slurp" then she yelled "stop drinking dad's drink can!" PLEASE LA.. just 1 sip will have any different plus it still left more then half cup! then she went to the kitchen open the fridge and check and said "Daddy got drink so much already meh?" WALAO for fucksake la ONE SIP ONLY WILL MAKE A BIG DIFFERENT MEH! then i said" ONE SIP ONLY LA!" then " Yesterday leh never drink meh." Waa HOT UH! i said " Never la!".. Sickening one leh! She's heating the curry she forgotten about it and when she smell the burned curry smells she said" OH shit the curry." then not doing anything about it.. then say "Shanie go and turn the fire off.." she's not even breastfeeding the baby and she want me to do it.. a very shit morning to start with..

Anyway, Alicia is coming over at 5.30 to babysit my niece from 6pm - 9 pm while we all go out for dinner, Seafood buffet at Morton Bay~ YEAY.. i guess the only thing that makes me happpy now is to look forward for tonight.. update later to tell you what i ate! BWHAHAHHA =.=

UPDATE TIME!

hmmm.. the buffet was alright.. not the best the variety of food are very limited! And the place is not at Morton Bay it was at Mercure Hotel, would love to stay there for a night.. how good is it to babysit, alicia earn $50 for like 4 hrs and $20 extra for dinner.. so shiok right?! yeh sister's bf send her home. gosh the way to her hse is like soo WOOOW~~ confusing! so many left and right turns after we drops her off at her house it our turn to figure out how to get back on the main road! hahahhaha we kinda lost our way.. then when we reached the main road we realise that the exit that we just exit is soooo far from where we entered..hahahah well at least we found our way out.. went to BP.. i told him i wanted soothing sweet with honey for sore throat.. he came back with 4 bars of it with 2 differents brand.. i was uh? i say 1 not 4.. he said he didnt knw which one i wanted..LOLS!! then he taught me how to control the panel of the manual car.. so fun can! he was driving then i put my hand on the control thing and he put his hand on mine felt weird but who cares! then i was changing it and see the different... fun sia! well theres no cars on the road so its ok for me to do that.. my mine is soo blank.. dont knw hafiz will online anot.. talk with penguin told him that i am addicted to this drug called "Taufiqil hafiz". really miss him suddenly and hes not online.. dunno if he will be online tonight.... :( and i am bored.. everyone went to bed already.. dad just reached hm. haix.. i need someone to tutor me for math! i cant get a C ! i wil feel really super ultra stupid and have to do Math A! then if i do Math A i have to get an A for it, which i think i can cause its so easy apparenlty..

I love you and miss you. And you knw who you are and i love you too appley so dun be jealous..hahahahhahah!

Finally

2008-03-27T12:51:00.002+10:00

26 March 2008

ahhh~ *as in a relaxing tone*
Reached school at morning which is 10.40, spares for the first 2 periods can't be bother to go to Home Ecnomic. Went to Art block staightaway after signing in at the office. Supisingly to see so many ppls were there to rush their work. I got my canvas and everything out on the table waited for Mr Quaid attention and all he said to me was " Shanie where did you get the leaves from?" i was shocked when he asked me that, thought i was gonna be in trouble cos you cant tell if hes gonna yell at you or not.. well i said " outside my hse?" he said" get more of those and paste it on the other canvas so it seems like they are connected together and youre DONE!" woohoo~~ all the morning tea, lunch , spares and easter holis, finally i am done with it. It feels gooood. :D

During graphic i was rushing my desktop thingy and jess and i were talking about how cool if theres a ear piece that is bluetooth to your ipod or mp3. well i saw it on the Definitely, Maybe movie that the male actor have the earpiece and there werent any wire need to be plug into your mp3. I want one of those, and jess said ipod is inventing a earpiece that is something like the bluetooth one, if you blink twice it pause the song and wink once with your right eye it change the song or wink left to change back to the previous song. and close both eyes for 3 secs to off it. how weird is that, but cool in a way. But the problem is i cant wink!so no use of having the wink wink earpiece. hahahahah..

And larrissa is a chick that used to be in my sch but she left, apparently everyone hates her so she just had move down to her dad which is at the coast. Anyway jess said that last year during christmas holis there was a news about a father who killed her daughter after raping her and the father happens to be larrissa's dad and her younger sister. How sick it that?! father who rapes their own daughter! walao IF my future husband raped my daughter i swear i will cut his dick off man! eeyyyerrrr!

Reached home and no one was home.. so went upstair changed into my shirt and shorts then clear my bowl from my room and i was sooo retarded when walking down the stair for some reason i was so uncoordinated then my left leg trip over my right leg and i jump down the stair, walao so close to dropping the bowl and you knw if you jump down froma distand height your foot will hurts right, mine was OWWWW~ hahahaha. then dad came home chatted for awhile and went to my room.. boring night and time pasesss sooooo slow late night!
then chatted with hafiz, didnt talk much kinda dissapointed. I didnt wan him to do anything when i told him i was having weird feeling and that we werent talking much.. i just want him to say "ily" when i say that, well i didnt tell him that or what i wan him to do and he just said he wanna go off to bed. And when he went offline it makes me feel like i am pressuring him mayb i did but i dun think i did, and it makes me feel guilty and why alway guys make you feel guilty and like its your fault?! and i told him about "Vous êtes celui que j'adore." it means "your the only one i adore." but he didnt bother to go and look for it, theres a translator in http://www.dictionary.com/ .. well then i said nvm. forget it. BUT when we say that we actually want you to go and do it it just that we didnt wanan say it straight.. well thats my point of view..

27 March 2008

Block exam starts today, well i have to go to sch today but i didnt well its not that important today so i didnt, everyone went out in the morning, sister went to the mum and baby program today, and she bought baby clothes last night just for the mum and baby program thing cos they have a photoshoot today. And last night she bought the clothes for baby and she didnt check the price or the brand and when she paid for it, te dress was $60 plus and the shirt was $30 plus and the brand is GUESS! she said its very pretty but she didnt realise its Guess. cos of pretty la so expensive if not pretty can smack er already la! the outfit is pink and the shoes are pink and i got the baby a tiara and its well sliver with pink butterfly. so prettyy and cutee can!
I realise something today whenever i have spares on the first 2 periods or dun hav to go to sch, someone will accidentally wake me up one leh and it not like 10 plus it 8 plus! not that i mind its just that i need my beauty sleep la.. not much for today cos its only afternoon now.. update more later.. anyway its a long post.

well here are some photos of Giselle, tortured by her MUM & ME :D :

*not forcing the baby to take pic at all :*

*Gosh i look umm.., You look at the baby so like cosy and warm kan?*

where got 3 mths baby so big one but cute right?!

its charcoal on her butt so we can print her butt..LOLS but it doesnt look cute at all when its printed out on the paper.. :s

test.

2008-03-26T14:54:00.000+10:00

i'm being such a nice awesome gf ever. i helped shanie with her blogskin even though my backbone's hurting!

love me for that beyotch.

XOXO.