Sunday, December 21, 2008 '
Its killing me inside slowly...
Brand new morning,Magazine said that you should SMILE everytime we woke up, so we will have more of a positive reaction for the rest of the day.But i just couldnt do it. For some reason, i feel the sour-ish feeeling inside me. It's horrible it makes me wanna cry out loud but its something i cant do anything about it. It felt horrible, of course. You know what. I knw this is gonna sounds really stupid and really cheena for those who knws me well they knw that i will never say this kinda things. I do want a boyfriend, but a boyfriend that i like and i feels comfortable around with. Its hard to find what im loooking for in Australia. And those that i wanted are always in Spore. Is it that hard to have a relationship that requires the basic needs in every relationship? I guess for me it is. Cause i never found one like that. I want a double date. cause i wanna have a double date with my besties. they all kinda have a partner now sorta on the way. Fad - ZadedIya - WanIda - RidzuanAnd me = nothing. i thought i was gonna have something but i guess not. And they are going countdown with those guys. I knw fad ask me to join them, but i just wanna see if he willl ask me to the Countdown which hopefully he will. I can only hope for the best now.I wanna cry out loud but i simply just cant. And its killing me. ... Chalet this afternoon, not even enthusiastic about it. Family and friends will be theereee. Woohooo cant wait *sarcasm*I just dont understand you.Finshed reading Twilight. Gonna buy the second one New Moon. Im so addicted to it now. I wanna watch the movie. Might watch it alone.
