Sunday, December 21, 2008 '

Its killing me inside slowly...

Brand new morning,

Magazine said that you should SMILE everytime we woke up, so we will have more of a positive reaction for the rest of the day.

But i just couldnt do it. For some reason, i feel the sour-ish feeeling inside me. It's horrible it makes me wanna cry out loud but its something i cant do anything about it. It felt horrible, of course.

You know what. I knw this is gonna sounds really stupid and really cheena for those who knws me well they knw that i will never say this kinda things.
I do want a boyfriend, but a boyfriend that i like and i feels comfortable around with. Its hard to find what im loooking for in Australia. And those that i wanted are always in Spore. Is it that hard to have a relationship that requires the basic needs in every relationship? I guess for me it is. Cause i never found one like that.

I want a double date. cause i wanna have a double date with my besties. they all kinda have a partner now sorta on the way.

Fad - Zaded
Iya - Wan
Ida - Ridzuan

And me = nothing. i thought i was gonna have something but i guess not. And they are going countdown with those guys. I knw fad ask me to join them, but i just wanna see if he willl ask me to the Countdown which hopefully he will. I can only hope for the best now.

I wanna cry out loud but i simply just cant. And its killing me. ...

Chalet this afternoon, not even enthusiastic about it. Family and friends will be theereee. Woohooo cant wait *sarcasm*

I just dont understand you.

Finshed reading Twilight. Gonna buy the second one New Moon. Im so addicted to it now. I wanna watch the movie. Might watch it alone.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008 '

Update more laterr.

woohoo!

Actually plan to go to town alonee. But sulastri called at then very last minute so we went together. :D

Walked around Far East, trying to find the particular clothes that i wanted to get. I really HATE GUY CLOTHES! Cause they are so DARN PRETTY and girls one are just nahhh~ How i wish i were a guy sometimes. But i still love some of the GUY species.!!

OH on the way to bugis, i saw my friend's friend, AARON! I bumped him and he stared at my friend but he didnt see me. SO when i got into the MRT i bump him harder then he stared at me, blur blur and was like OH HEYYY!!! OMGAHH so funny. And i chatted with him. Then got off at CityHall we got into the same entrance, then we chatted and GUESS WHAT?! I DIDNT F**KING KNW HE LIVE SO NEAR TO ME! We chatted and chatted and totally forgotten to get off at Bugis thought i was going to Tamp. hahahah. then sulastri say SHANIE THIS STOPPP EHHH! Then the goodbye suck i just say "SHIT, BYEEE!" hahahah.

Then at Bugis, finally there is the one and only short that got what i wanted! GOT IT! :D so happy, shopped around for sulastri belts.

Went to bugis, saw Chu Xian at her working place, like those little hut that sell stuffs. Then went to the SWENSEN just because of my lovely AZHARR aka BAPOKKK!!!!!!! then i had ice cream there with sulastri, my treat :)
And also saw one of my primary sch friend as well, i dont knw her name :

Went in to SWENSEN i stared at Azhar then he was like OMGAHHH!! hahah then we chatted SUPER LOUD!!!! And he wanted to hug i say, "EH YOU WORK CAN HUG CUSTOMERS?" then he say “CAN LA CAN LA". We had the most retarded hug, worst then the one back in australia with Alric.

Then got a cute mly guy, well to my friend he is Gorgeous la. Then i ask my friend to intro to us uhh. More like to her. I swear she blush whenever she walked pass cause i laughed at her!! Im gonna ask for his no. from my friend and pass it to her, even thou she insist she doesnt want it. And i still SERIOUSLY find azhar DAMN FUNNY LOR. MISS YOU SIA, AZHARRR!!! I think so does Sulastri.

Azhar = Dancer, Singer, Lamer and Entertainment. You knw what Sulastri saidd, " If he werent that bapok, confirm got lotsa of girl go for him seyy.!!!"

Oh ROY, if you're reading this. I want you to contact me. I got something to say to you. And PLEASEEE be free this SUNDAY (21st Dec) or Mon (22nd Dec), even thou i knw it's your "family day" on Sun but hopefully you're free on Mon? Thank you LOVEY <3 ANd i miss you DARN LOADS. There are words i wanna say it in your face. :)

Ok CAMWHOREEED. PICTURES!!!!!

Hmm for some reason it’s not working. Upload tomorrow aights peeps! :D

Friday, December 12, 2008 '

r.a

How i wish i can stop time.

And have more time spending with you; No obstacles; No worries.
Just me & you enjoying our sweetest moments.

How i wish i can study in spore.

AND YOU ARE DEFINATELY NOT CUTTTING THE QUEUE, SILLLYYY.

My Super hawt ROCKSTAR.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008 '

RANTING TIME.

OH MY!

Why cant my day just get any better!?!

Connie's phone cant use it in spore cause she didnt auto-roam(?) it before coming to spore. So she wants to use my phone. Its cool with me. But sometimes i do get abit annoyed not like she dont get annoyed when i use her phone to msg!?

I swear i activate my free-incoming already. And her bf, Corey always call my phone i do understand that he misses her alot but i dont mind. but i just dont like it when people borrows my phone and read my incoming msg-es that my friend sent or just hold on to it like it belongs to yours! THAT IS JUST FCUKING ANNOYING!

For some reason my credit is all GONE!. And it happened when connie was chatting happily away with corey on the phone all the way from australia. I think i do have the rights to get mad or pissed off ?!

Of course i showed my black face! Guess what? She said ' i'm so stressed using shanie's phone. i think i should really get a phone asap.' YOU BETTER! Its not like i dont lend you my phone or anything and she really likes to complain to corey that i dont like her using my phonee. If i dont then you wont see me lending you my phone, damnit!

I just find it ridiculous that i cant be mad and she can when she used up all my credits?! LIKE SERIOUSLY FCUK LA!

And Of course ranting this shit to my mum wont help me at all. Afterall, she favours connie the most. So what's the point of really telling them stuffs when im angry/sad/down/stress. Its just useless. . .. ..

2 days ago. . ..

We had dinner at pasir ris. Mum were chatting happily with connie, as usual. And i told connie that Ida find her photos before pregnant are gorgeous but unfortunately they didnt heard the part when i say, ida said so.

So they asked me twice who said so, i was gonna finish my story then tell them BUT NO, they have to interupt and yell at me when i am fishing praising her! OHGOSH!

But the thing was, I WASNT EVEN ANGRY?! but they just have to say that im angry cause usually this kind of incidents i would but i wasnt that day. But mum just had to continues blabbinggg and blabbbingggggg! So i sat there and drink my Grass Jelly uh. Even connie had to ask mum to shushh.

Suddenly i do not knw only god knows came to mum talking about her really doesnt want to go to australia. And she said ' i really dont wanna go. Go to aust for what to see her faces' CBB! obviously she was refering to me. And i cant remember what we were saying and

I said ' duhh, of course i knw who you were refering to when you say to see her faces. No doubt that is not me'
Then she say ' its not just you , its all THREE of you'
I said ' You're just like daddy, whenever you say one of us you just have to involved the rest of the two down as well. you're no different to daddy.'

So connie added on to it. Guess mum couldnt take the pressure like how they were against me just before the feeeling! And she burst out crying?! Like seriously COME ON LA. Its really expected ok. She have to do that at least once everytime we come back.
And she said ' i never cried after i sent you all to the airport' MEANING we make her cry when we are in spore.
Plus she also said ' You guys never make me happy when you're back in spore, you do know you guys only comes back once in a yearr?? '
And she also added that ' I just quarrelled with someone else today and i already cried the whole day i really dont wanna talk and argue about this'

Winnie and kuini just sat there pretends nothing happened. At least they are smart they knew that if they were to speak they will be involved and be blame as well.

In the end mum said pay the bill and go. No No No, We have to find out whose fault and who to blame to. And the VICTIM IS ......

*DRUMM ROLLINGGGGGG *

ITS MEEE!!!! YAYNESS!!! I've been awarded, 'Making mum cried at dinner'. *APPLAUSE* ..

Tuesday, December 9, 2008 '

abt shanie foo

hellloooooo people ~
k firstly this is not shanie .
i'm idaa, shanie close gf.

she doesn't noe i'm in her blog but i just feel i wanna type abt her this nyte/morning (:

firstly i wanna talk hw i start conversation wif her for e first time.
we were in e same pri school but we classmate when we're p5.
but wasnt close to her cos she very bery merry e ceenaas + very fierce. haha
she never smile one sia. -.-

bt when came to pri 6, we had a strict form teacher. one small mistake, one full writting foolscap for u. so one dae, shanie was punish nd i saw her at the study corner alone finishing her essays. i sat beside her nd say "still doing those essays?" we wasnt allowed to wait for frens when they doin their essays or we ourself will b punish as well. so mr adzri(that never get gd mood form teacher) saw me wif shanie nd asked. so i lied " oh nola, im waiting for my bro to fetch me" i waited for her to finish her essays nd went home 2gther wif her. talk2 like never talk b4. didnt noe she live nearby.

since der, we went 2 school 2gther, she with her purple bicycle (:
ask her along to hang out wif my grp(which i noe she doesnt click wif mly at that point of time) bt surprisingly, slowly she get along well wif us. nd i remember i found out she love e same sports as me, totally into it ; badminton. we used to hang out most of e time just to play it. i chose her to b my partner for our inter-class tournament. haha we won second LOL so proud of her.

hmmm after that..i just realise we have e same interest.
went in to train badminton 2gther in a club. but togther never last. haha
so for e first tme, when she's out to study at overseas, i realise like somthing amiss. till now we are close~ hahaha k shuddup.

she's damn good listerner
cn make me laugh forever
always understand situation
very patience !
n lastly, someone i cn rely on in e future

shanie, when u read this,

i wanna let ya noe, ur an asshole. ops wrong.
haha im very thankful ur part of my life.
even we are so called twins. watever my mom bought for me, she will make it two.
one for u one for me. ur always there when i nid u e most. never fail. we might get angry at e smallest things wif each otha, but u end up laughing at me whenver u see ma face -.- im very happy la ur part of my life. we cn talk anything nd not afraid to say. nd never worried abt secrets.

alamak gtg alredi. bro calling to eat. teehee~

shanie fooo ! wo ai ni !

Saturday, December 6, 2008 '

My Love

I know you wanna hang out with your clique as well. But i dont come back often, only once a year plus im not coming back next year or maybe the year after. Im not being selfish, but i would really appreciates if you could hang out with me more often. I've never felt like this before with you but now i felt it. *not in a good way*

And i think i saw him today! I THINK.. I hung out at Sunplaza park for half an hour thinking through random stuffs. and then walk back home, on the way home i think i saw him at the traffic lights. Cause i realised someone kept looking at me so i look at him. Coloured hair well he did dye his hair but then i dont think its that colour. Plus i dont think he is that fat. : lols. Well i thought it was him but im not too sure. Plus that guy got chubby cheek so does he. But really hopefully i could contact him sooon. God Bless. :)

That Hawt Geek Im Craving for...... Taufiqil Hafiz.<3

EH YOU!

Ok.

My account got HACKED, BUT the pw and everything didnt changed. How did i know cause A told me my blog was dirty. Obviously i wont write that kind of stuffs?! Like WTF kan?! And i passed A my pw and everything to my blog and ask A to delete it. CB! I felt bad for that person who was involved..

And that previous post is totally BULLSHIT! Fcuk i feel so annoyed after hearing and thinking about it. ARGHHHH..

I should change my URL. OR Add password to it, like my friend's blog.

What a FCUKING DAY!

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According to the singapore law. It is an offence to how do i call it, Hack into ones account and writing nasty things if this were to happen again i can report to the police and blogger main they will be able to track down the I.P address and location.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008 '

I just cant seeem to find you anywheree.

29th of Nov the day i left australia for singapore.

Tranfering to Sydney first. Saw the Opera Stage(?) in Sydney on the plane.

And then Off to Sporeee.

Brisbane - Sydney = 1hr 45min
Sydney - Spore = 8hrs 30 mins

Total =10hrs 15 mins!

Usually its only 8hrs Cause i have to fly down not up DOWN to sydney?! stupid sey.!

And i couldnt sleeep on the planeee! my back hurts like a BIATCH! Food was kinda awful except the chicken only..

I arrived at the airport so many chinese T.T me no like-y. :( Waited for ida for 30 mins, she went to city hall and get something. I felt really bad being mad at her cause she went to get the brownies. ILOVEYOU,IDA. well upload the pictures laterr.

First impression of Ida;

Got slimmer
more ladylike
still the same hair (i reckon)
still so short. LOLS

Kasturi;

Still the sameee.
know how to dress now better than before.
Awesome dancer as usual

Farhanah A.K.A Nanaa

Vain as usual.
Know the use of accesories. :D

Went out with Ida , Kas, Nana and her ex. Was gonna meet Zarrin but he went swimming so he couldnt seee my msg. Saw a really cute guy at EHUB! SO CUTEEEE. he works at the Slipper one. Sighh, i dont knw. I heard something and i wasnt very happy about it, wasnt angry either but just sad.

3rd Dec.

Stay home for abit, went to the post ofice and send the CD back to australia to corey cause he need that CD for work. He left it in there and forgotten to took it out and i have to send it as EXPRESS Post which cost me $36.70 for a bloody CD ! i only had $40 on me. Sighh.

Was gonna meet up with Nas aka Asshole who thinks he is a HITCH?! LOLS!, but he said he couldnt understand me? watever dude!

Went home had lunch watch tv, went on the internet webcam-ed with Zarrin. Then Iya came, and headed to Fad house. That silly girl who fainted, fall, fainted.. Reached fad house not long sister called and scolded me cause i locked the wooden door.! Mum gave us 2 sets of key that have the metal door, wooden door and the room keys! she didnt took its her business and she said mum didnt told her. -.- Than Iya said she will pass my keys to my sister which she have to go all the way from 200+ to 800+? IRRITATING LOR!

Today (4th Dec)

Went out for lunchh, saw so manyy poly students but didnt saw him.. i feel so down i dont know what to do in order to get in touch with him.. Sighh. I just cant seem to find you anywheree. And i really wanna meeet himm.

Oh one more thing. When i STUDY people cant seem to see it, When i DONT STUDY people just talk and talk about how i dont?! Where is the time i STUDIED and you dont talk about it?!

And of course i was fed up, mum and winnie telling me to chill when they were the ones who started FIRST! WTH right!? arghh and mum was trying to be funny but it totally not! Im trying to get over it. I think I'm getting weaker in emotion state.

oh i hated when people carrys Fake GOOD, you knw, nowaday there is so many fake Gucci, LV and so on. And they thinks that people cant tell well some cant but I CAN! arghhh so annoying.

Yay, meeting Zarrin this friday i think, he might be sleeping over hopefully. :)

CANT WAIT TO MEET GISELLLLEEEE! Connie is coming back today and mum doesnt knows. :) SURPRISE.