Hey ya!
My feelings today are super confused, frustrated and down. Maybe its because of the conversation i had with hafiz last night. We chatted, its was good but at the ending it was kinda bad but good in a way. I guess we both had the same feeelings that we wont last long at all. Which is kinda sad, hate to admit that.
I can tell that he changed and he said he doesnt wanna take things fast he wants me to take it slow, so he wasnt like he used to be, close and ultra sweeet. And he doesnt wants me to be deeply in-to him. which is really kinda dissapointed that it came out from him. In a way, he actually cares about my feeelings when we ends this relationship.
After all that, i really dont know if he will still takes me out or hangs out with his friend like how we planned before.
Truth is all i want is to have a real bf & gf relationship. Do things like how normal couples do. Having little quarrel between us and say ILoveYou after that.. Have a sleepover. Stayover night outside. Go for LATE NIGHT MOVIESS!Lepak with bf/gf's friendss! and many many moreee~My relationship with zarrrin at first went reallly well. But after listening to what my sister said to me. Which are " dont take the whole thing seriously." I was actually dumb enough to tell zarrin that! He was hurt but he didnt tell me. And when we talked thru this whole thing, he said he was taking this whole thing seriously but after what i said to him, he was heartbroken and decided not to take it seriously as well. MORAL of the story, Think before you speak i meant think through the whole speech! And not say something real dumb like i did. But afterall, those sweet memoirs of ours will be remembered. To KRIS,I actually do envy you, not you YOU. but youre relationship. Like having little quarrels, funny & cute tho! Hope you both last longg. Same to all the people out there who are in a relationship. I cant wait to see Ida, craving for her hugs. Cause whenever im down shes alway there for me. I love you, SYG. Even tho im here and youre there but you knw if you ever need me i will always be there for you, girl.. Oh and hafiz knows which date i am reaching spore. I know i said i wont tell anymore. But i cant resist the temptation inside me! so i told him but not the time. Actually i want Ida / Hafiz to be there only.
TO YASIN : Thanks for asking. But i really dont feel like you & rasty to come and fetch me. Plus i will reach there
