Tuesday, August 5, 2008 '
A CALAMITOUS day.
Today is a calamitous day.
Everything didnt seems to be the way i wanted to be or like it should be??
I changed my math class from B to A. And that new class of mine is just full of people with no brains? Those who think they are "COOL". And aussie just thinks that asians are clever so did the teachers! It weird that how i walked into the class and the most pestiferous guy just had to comment about it" Oh look, SHANIE is in our class now." Is there a ISSUE about it? WHAT I CANT DO MATH A? DO I HAVE TO DO MATH B????
The moment i stepped into that nefarious class, i regretted changing math B to math A and has never felt more scrofulous. i still do now. but if i do math B i will keep getting Ds and in math A i could actually get Bs or even better As. And the teacher, Mr Candy, yes Mr CANDY he was like " You got transfer from math B to math A this stuffs must be easy for you." We are learning STATISTIC?! I went to look for Mr McGavin *head of mathematics* to change classes and he thought i was grade 10. hahha. He is like my second favourite teacher? hahaha.I think i got a fetish for math teachers? hahahha. The only teachers i like are math teacher. :D
Was prettty upset today, I felt really stupid? and my friends can tell that something is not right with me? And kevin tried to make me smile it did work for awhile until i saw alex missed call. Then i realised that kevin wasnt quite happy about it. SIGHHH. I dont want him to like me? i just wanna be good friends(!!!) DAMNIT! I smiled when i saw winnie (my sister). wanted a hug but shes working. I wanted to hug someone close and tight but i have to feel comfortable with that person, Ida not here, mum not here, hafiz not heree & alicia not here.. I felt desolated. And i dont want JAMES TO HUG ME, but its rude to reject but since i feels uncomfortable i think its ok to reject right? plus he hugs me tight and really long even when i push him, he didnt let go? felt disgusted(!!!) EWWW~! Thinking of it make me SICK! WEUK! Oh this is irrelavant to the topic above ^.It randomly hits me, this is to syg, I love you, do you love me? this is the msg that you sent me afew weeks ago, and it actually flicked me and wanted to reply "HELL YEAH, of course i do!" Now i wanna ask you the same qs that you asked me. " I love you, do you love me? *seriously*Labels: never felt more desolated
