Wednesday, July 30, 2008 '

Click Click.

Yesterday was alright. Hung out with marcelle and sophie the whole day at school, avoided the asians. Got molested by marcelle, she grabbed my boobs to prooof to sohpie that we are "lesbian partners" yehhh. maddy fouly thinks we are close we are alway together.. Loves hanging out with the girls, they remind me of the old days i used to have back in Grade 9. Time FLIESSSSSS


I seriously dislike sue now. she is so bossy, arrogant and thinks shes the one who incharge of us, she pisses everyone off its just that we haven say anything nasty to her. Oh well.


Todayy

Nothing much, missed out on goals, we are doing rock climing at the moment, fun for the new comers boring for the old ones.
I fell bad, ditching Kevin for James when i met up with him maybe cause we have something more in common and we speak english too, while Kevin usually speak chinese to us. And i could tell that Kevin was kinda bored and pissed off, cause i ditched him? i dunno. James told me that Kevin really likes me. BUT i just wanna be good friends i dont wanna be more than just friend and i dont intend to cause i really like syg. Kevin hinted me before that he wants a gf. And i replied “oh ok.. i dont fall for chinese guys at all. except Alex." : I would rather be straight forward.. And i felt really annoyed and stress cause james keep telling me those stuffs, and i was cut at him and he apologize. I went home after that..

And I really miss syg alots. I miss his face :D his cute face.!

Labels: Love is just a game to you

Monday, July 28, 2008 '

Worst day ever. plus swollen eyes.

The WORST DAY EVER.

Woke up late for school. caught the 385, the fucking bus driver is a PRICK. I last min pressed the bell to get off, and he could actually stop the bus BUT no, he drove pass and stop at the next stop. so me and the other 2 seniors walk back the school.

And during english, kevin asked me what my teacher wrote on the board and what it meant, and i tried to explain and my teacher was taking the attendant and i replyed rudely and Sue said " so fierce for what?" i didnt say anything to her. i was even more angry, and i tried to explain to kevin AGAIN, allie was talking to me but i couldnt understand what the heck she was talking about and i yelled at her " YOURE SO ANNOYING" then Sue said "wtf? so fierce for what?" Fuck i feels so bad, i wanted to go over to sue and give her a SHARP SLAP ACROSS HER FACE! And i apologise to allie and she said its ok shes not mad at all. All thanks to my fucking period, the moodswing and bloody sue.

And i bought the LONSDALE bag already, winnie say its common connie finds it ugly, i finds it nice and i like it and thats all it really matters. :D we quarrel and i cried. i cried lotsa of times today and i feels like shit now annd Swollen eyes. so yeahh. REALLLY WANTS TO SEE SYG ON WEBBY AND TALK TO HIM. But he went offline when i said hi so yeahh.

i reckon it was the worst day of the year so far~ theres MORE but i really don wanna talk about it.

Labels: the worst is yet to come

Saturday, July 26, 2008 '

Dichotomy

My "every month bestfriend" came last night during work.. thank god i was prepared :D BUT i didnt know that i didnt have any spares one anymore. i have one more for the night but i didnt know i run out of them! and i had to wake up and go and buy it. I was at the shop and i got the pads and she didnt give me a bag. i said " Can i have a bag please?!" she's like "OH yeah, of course" and we both laughed. as if i am gonna hold that thing without a bag and walk all the way home for 15 mins.

And connie was kinda pissed off. LIKE WTF?! early in the morning and youre angry at me?! sometimes she had a small arguement with her bf i am the innocent one who she vents her anger at. And kevin called. Having dinner with him later, he ask if i wanna go meet him at 6.30 in the city, i said " yeah im going, dont wanna stay home. Connie is giving me a hard time as if i owe her money."

OH im having problem with my Art asssignments already which we havent even start on the task, but i have read through the task already.. Its about Dichotomy this term and through half the next term. I cant think of any dichotomy in my life. I was gonna do makeup. but than i cant cause its have been used before. I guess it will come to me eventually. god bless me. :)

sighhh.. i miss Idaa alot. :(

Oh yeah, i failed BADLY for my sememster 1. I failed, english and math and got a B for chinese for the FIRST TIME! and for Art from A to C. i cried when i saw my result. My dad was FURIOUS! And i seriously need tution. so i might go to those tutorial after school and read more books to improve my english.

Labels: I do love you too

Monday, July 21, 2008 '

Late Queeen.!

OMFG.
I was super duper ultra LATE for school. Got there around 11.50am! when school starts at 8.45. hahahaha i knw i knw. but i was so tired and it was soooo COSY & WARM. Oh well, went to school and only attended math class, after that i've spares. heheh. I felt so condemm. :(

anyways went to the city with james and we chatted lotsa stuffs, they are all kept under the categery of "CONFIDENTAL" hahahahah. it was really an interesting convos we had.

ANDD i saw that cute guy yesterday on the bus at the traffic lights in the city! ahhh! and i told james about it, and he ask me to make a move. I was like "eh" not gonna happen, dont think i have that much confidentss! : And i saw him on the bus again today on my way homee.. hawtttttttttt. BUT my syg is Cute okkayyyy. <3

OH, kevin likes me! but he doesnt LOVE me, but he would go out with me thou. man i love james! he is sucha nosy beyotchhh. hahahhah! oh well.

gotta go to bed now, if not i am late againnn!

Labels: Te amo

Sunday, July 20, 2008 '

My Shatty Day, Allie.

Woke up around 9 ish today. Woke up by syg msg. :D i was sleeeping in winnie's room and i think i woke kuini and winnie up so they stare at my when i turned around, i freaked out. was pretty hyperactive for the today and abit pissed off.

Woke up headed to the city, met up with allie, jason, john and alex at FunHouse. Then went to Sunnybank. Was suppose to meet up with Sue but she have to help her sister with the agent stuffs cause her sister just arrived today. And jas0n went off to meet his friends and left with Alex, allie and john. Had lunch waited for Sue and went back to the city. It bwas pretty much just having lunch there at sunnybank if we knew that we were just having lunch there i rather stay in the city..

Was pissed off cause alex and john were like living i their own world today, super UNORGANISE and Boringg. Told allie a secret today only like 2 people knows about this secret in australia. idaa knows. :D i have kept the secret for like 1 years plus already.. OVERALL today was kinda SHITTY. except for the last part when me and allie were shopping in David Jones i saw a white blouse! SOOOO GORGEOUSS! I really want it thou have been searching something like that for agess! but it didnt have the price on and i bet its expensive so i gave up plus there were foundation on it.

On the way home i saw this really OMFG guy. he is even more gorgeous than the one i saw at FunHouse the other day. He's definately not an aussie he must be a mixed blood guy. omg so cute cann. man i am sucha a BITCH, allie told me that i am a bitch today. I, Shanie, Agrees with what Allie said. Oh i was really rude today to my friends today was being a total bitch but they accepted it. They are worse than me at times. Its just that i am not in the mood for the WHOLE NICE-Y SWEET GIRL. My personality is kinda more to the bitchy type. Ida knows. :)

Oh when i reach home today, undress and put on my tracks and my jacket, while i was putting my jacket on i had a singlet on and my sister bf walks in, NO BIG DEAL REALLY, he was all embarass and said sry. I told him it was ok i wasnt like half naked or getting dressed. then connie got angry and said DONT YOU KNOW HOW TO CLOSE THE DOOR?! damnit! not like i am getting DRESSED!?! ARGHHH.

Oh Allie told me that she once was selected to get into Queensland Academy & Brisbane State High but then she rejected it. WHY? cause they wanted to check her family background before she is allowed to enrolled into that school. WHY CHECK FAMILY BACKGORUND? To see if youre rich or qualify. WTF RIGHT?! And 60% are all Asians, 20 - 30 % Indians and 10% Aussies. T.T Whatever.

Labels: That Pretty White Blouse

Saturday, July 19, 2008 '

No more MATH B for SHANIE! YAY!

Today woke up super latee. around 2ish. heheh.

Had KFC for lunch. and yeah msg-ed james, he asked if i wanna go to the city but i cant be bother too lazy plus i already planned to stay home today and study for abit.
Looking through the pamplets that James got it for me from the Unis that he went, i dont have to do Math B to get into Bachelor of Interior Design. YAY! YAY! YAYY! OH BTW, my cousin said its healthy to say "YAY" cause it make you happy. SO YAY!

Connie say i am different when i talk to Hafiz, but i dont think so eh. Well she's different when she talks to Corey, WHY? cause he is her BF, THATS WHY! well i wont say hafiz is my bf YET but you talk differently when you like someone rightt? righttt? *agree with me >:( *

Oh my when i went online just now i saw hafiz online then suddenly disconnected i went back on he's offline.. sighh. Oh well he sent me this msg before i went online,

" A second without your agelic presence, makes me lifeless till e end of time. Your light shines on me during my darkest days. iloveu very much. muacks" So sweeet ok maybe to me uh. but for some reason i feel really down.

Labels: love is one of the kind

Friday, July 18, 2008 '

Happy Bday Syg. <3

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO TAUFIQIL HAFIZ!!








Happy birthday to SYG! love you lots.

Updates for the last few days.

every since school started, shanie become more and more restless. And me and james is like TIGHT buddies now. People are assuming that we're together and its that bloody sue who keeps saying it and James's cousin, KEVIN WU! Sue wouldnt like it if i did what she did to me like assuming people as a couple. She would be extremely CUT at me. she's the kind of person that you cant be straightforward to sometimes and cant be judge or joke around. she would be reallly pissed off.

Went to FunHouse *arcade* to hang around, thats where mostly all the ABC hangs. They are like bloody nerds but yet so good at games!! they are mostly As students and all goes to Bisbane State High or Queensland Academy or Bisbane Boy College. In order to get into those school, you either have to live near the city / really clever / richh.

And i knows lots of ABC and clever peeps from james. And he showed me who's Leanna, which is a girl that his brother and most guys thinks that she is pretty, BUT james's brother Alric who thinks i am better than leanna. I realised james often ask me what i thought of those guys after he introduced them to me, like e.g, his brother, Alric. well he got a babyish face who is shit at speaking chinese and is addicted to porn. MY GOD he looks so INNOCENT but yet so "Dirty". And he would go out with me but thinks i would dumped him pretty fast and thats what i told james if i really did go out with him. Oh well. And Alvin's mom is back from taiwan which means he wont be hanging out with us anymore, a pretty/vain boy indeed.

I met Erica who is James bestie, first impression can be BAD. I judge her, but i didnt start first she did. I was looking around while waiting for james to arrive at the bustop and this girl *erica* caught my attention cause i saw her judging someone else. BAD! and i was thinking, " like you can judge her cause of her thick make-up?! and you have the most typical yet ugly hair band on your head" Moments later i saw james hugging her and he introduced me to her and i was like "SHIT" and i cant stop giggling, like dont you think its funny how sometimes when you judge someone and that someone happens to be your friend's friend?? yeah. didnt really want to chat with her at all.

Hung out with Alric, kevin, james, jason and jeremy today at FunHouse was loooking at kevin and jason dancing on the "DDR" aka Dance Dance Revolution. And FIRST time i saw this guy who is an asian who is INSANTLY CUTE! He was off the HOOK! Big eyes, tall, hawt, gorgeous hairstyle and clear face! PRETTY. Didnt dare to look at him cause you know how you can get all nervous and tight up when you saw someone who is like drop dead gorgeous?! but i stared for abit, whenever i look over somehow he will knows that i am looking at him.. ahhh~ and James's friend knows HIM! but they aint that close. so TOO BAD SO SAD. :( And alric was smilling at me today, i know he's trying to make a conversation but he just dunno what to talk about, me neither so we didnt really talk. Like he goes HEY SHANIE. pauseeeeeee. and we both stood there awkwardly and wait for james and kevin to get maccas. lols. I'm loving my after school life now. its awesume and its more social now unlike last time, sch, home, lappy, tv, sleeep and school.

Didnt work today, really wanted to go to church today, and i made up a excuse saying i have to babysit while my sister is out with her bf for dinner. And someone kept calling me but i didnt know who was it and when i called back he/she didnt picked up and when he called i didnt pick up. And when he/she calls again i pick up and it was JUSTIN! aka Justin Timberlake LOLS. he calls me Lexy *korean singer/dancer* aka sexy LOLS. he rolls pretty fast in school. He's cute i like him as a friend, he looks silly thats why. :D And he wanted to hang out with me but i couldnt cause im going to church. so too bad.

Oh and Sue's sister is coming to australia to study, same age as me but she have to go through a English Language School and she have to take a test to see which grade she is qualified to be in. how excitingg. :D

Alright going off. STILL sitting at the back balcony leeching off someone else wireless connection. remember its winter? IT'S FREEZING OUT HERE, ESPECIALLY IN THE FREAKING MORNING, smoke comes outta my mouthh whenever i breathe through my mouth..

WOOOOTS! BYEEE i am off webcaming with syg..

Labels: Freezinggg

Sunday, July 13, 2008 '

New skin. my virginity. :D and PICCAS

QUOTE: The Grestest thing you will ever learn is just to LOVE and to be LOVED in RETURN.

Yesterday. Saturday.

Labels: To Be LOVED

Saturday, July 12, 2008 '

Tuesday, Thursday & Friday

hmm.

Went shopping at Indroopily i think thats how you spell it on Thurday, anyway i got a pair of Jean(tube?) and a long shirt not excalty a shirt but yea. don't know how to explain it but yeahh. and slept over at my friend place the day before. OMG, my friend is like a tortise?! she walk super slowwwwwwwwwwwwwww and she takes like 5 clothes into the change room and when she comes out she doesnt want any of them. And she keeps walking into me and accidentally bang me and steps on my shoes. walao the FIRE inside me BLASTTTTTTTTT. But i couldnt bear to raise my voice at her, First she is older then me.. respect, Secondly, she didnt did that on purpose. Third, she looks really silly and stupid. :

Went to the movies on Tuesday, watched HANCOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hell yeahh!!! but i was feeling noxious and sick during the movie. WALAOWEI! somemore during HANCOCK movie! sighhh. and i was feeeling extremely HAWT! i really didnt enjoyed it and really wanna watch it againn. then went back to my friend home after the movie ended. we made our own dinner! and it wasnt the yummiest food i ever ate, but it was better then nothing righhhttt?!$!#$

And i realised, sunday is the only happy day in the week. Cause i spend half a day at CHURCH! :D no one scold me. no one nag me. no one is being sarcastic to me. no one ask me to do this to do that. AND most of all i feel LOVEDDDD. :) i dont even wanna go home ok! i dont feel that loved at home nor at school not even from hafiz... he's not that sweeet anymoree. ever sincee he started his poly after his first holis. feeels like he is treating me as a friend sometimes. and he sent "Good night!" i saw the msg i was like haixxx. adds in a "syg/hun/baby" would be really nice?!!!! But better then no msg from him righttt. :)

Today, Friday.

Work was rather busyyy!!!! man i hate sitting down. i cant sit too long my ass will be like really painful and i will start moving/figiting??around. nothin much about today..

alrightyy. ciao ciao~

Sunday, July 6, 2008 '

New Post.

BACKY BACK BACK. -.-

ok i cant remember the dates when those events i gonna tell you happened, but it happened.

First,
My friends Bday party. Kevin's & Jay's. 17 & 18 on saturday. bought an ipod, adidas tracksuit, and a nike shirt. Ipod from My sisters, and his working place friends and me. the other is from other friends at school.
And Jay's Bday presents are 2 packs of Glow In The Dark Condom and the other one is the same but with a Vibrator Ring in it. HOW COOL! and i chose it, my friend all scare/malu/paisey. LAME la. somemore i got those when i was wearing my school uniform in the city. LOLS. dont think that theres is anything to be ashamed about. I am not proud of it either. and got him a nike shirt as well and a Special Voucher we made for him, if he ever wants to go to the salon to cut his hair, he have to pass us the Voucher we made and we will give him the money. HOW COOL!

And the party was pretty fun. And i just found out that i know LOTS of thing on SEXUAL stuffs, eg. why girls bleed when they first have sex. I read that off my science book i think i read it off somewhere and i asked before. And after i explain to the girls WHY. and the boys start to think that i am not a VIRGIN. -.- COME ON LA! and the bday boy, JAY, held my hand and ask
"SERIOUSLY shanie, How many times have you done it with your bf??!" i gave him a stare and i say " i am still a euffing virgin for you information." GEEZ! do i seriously have a look that doesnt look like a virgin.

We cut the cake, i ordered the cake, a K and a J together and on the letter we wrote something on it. it was soo GOOD, i mean its so fresh cause i ordered the day b4 the party. hahahah. i know last minute! And they open up the presents and Jay was like WTH? CONDOM?!?! and we ended up open the pack with 12 in it. and we all took one. its a mixed one. i got the green one and its glow in the dark. and they said put it in your wallet it keep the money in. so i put it in my wallet, if i happens to meet any of you who is reading this blog you can ask me and i can show you if you want.